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I was looking through one of my notebooks today and an entry from 2011 stood out; It was as if I was hearing it again for the first time. "Do you notice that when you are in my will or presence you don't ask for trivial things; this is the "You have not because you ask not"; at these times if you ask for what is in your spirit you will receive."

JESUS IS LORD

I STOPPED PARTICIPATING IN HALLOWEEN SOME YEARS AGO. MY TWO OLDER SON'S WERE VERY LITTLE.  I WASN'T IN CHURCH BUT SOMETHING ABOUT A HOLIDAY BEING WICKED ENOUGH THAT I HAD TO CHECK CANDY TO MAKE SURE SOMEONE DIDN'T PUT SOMETHING IN MY CHILD'S CANDY THAT COULD HURT THEM OR TAKE THEIR LIVES DIDN'T SIT RIGHT WITH ME AND I DECIDED THAT I DIDN'T WANT ANY PART OF IT. THIS YEAR THE SPIRITUAL ACTIVITY AROUND THIS SEASON WAS VERY STRONG. I HAVE FELT WEIGHED DOWN ALL WEEK AND THERE HAS BEEN SO MUCH GOING ON IN THE AREA I LIVE IN BUT ONE THING REMAINS CERTAIN JESUS IS LORD AND GOD IS IN FULL CONTROL!

Thank God for Seeing Another Year

Friday was my birthday. I had lunch with my mom and spent time with my cousin. It was a very simple day but it was a very good day. Earlier today I went to dinner with some co-workers. I knew that they would want to go somewhere afterwards and  I was tempted to go but then I decided not to. I turned thirty-six and there was something very different about my birthday this year. With all of the chaos I found myself being grateful just to be here! I thank God for his faithfulness; I thank him for keeping me. I thank God that this time next year won't be anything like it is this year. I thank God for my family and friends. I thank God that despite every attack he allowed me to survive. I thank God for revelation and freedom. I feel as if I have awakened. I feel that I was merely sleepwalking. I am seeing things differently now. I thank God that he knows the beginning and the end. I thank him for his love. I thank him for his creative power. I thank him for life. I thank him for choosing me, believing in me, and calling me. I thank him that he allows me to hear his voice; that he tells me his mysteries; that he calls me unto himself and restores. Thank you Lord; I love you.

It's been a long time coming...but I know, change is gonna come!

Psalm 105:15 KJV

Saying, Touch not mine anointed, and do my prophets no harm .

 

TUG OF WAR

IN THE FIRST PART OF SEPTEMBER THIS YEAR I WENT TO A FAMILY REUNION IN JACKSONVILLE FL. WE HAD A REALLY GREAT TIME. ONE OF THE ACTIVITIES WAS A GAME OF TUG OF WAR. MY AUNT ASKED ME TO PLAY AND AT FIRST I DIDN'T WANT TO BUT THEN I CHANGED MY MIND AND MY SON'S AND I WENT TO JOIN IN. MY TEAM WON (YEA!), BUT THERE WERE A FEW MOMENTS WHERE WE WERE BEING PULLED TO THE OTHER SIDE AND IT LOOKED AS IF WE WOULD LOOSE. LAST NIGHT I HAD A DREAM THAT MY COUSIN AND I WERE DRIVING ALONG A DANGEROUS ROAD. I WOKE UP AND I KNEW THAT THE DREAM HAD BEEN A WARNING. I HAVE BEEN DOING SOME THINGS THAT I SHOULDN'T LATELY. AFTER WAKING I THOUGHT ABOUT THE DREAM AND GOD SPOKE "YOU HAVE TO STOP TORRY" TO MY SPIRIT. THERE WAS A HURRICANE WARNING IN MY AREA AND YOU COULD LITERALLY FEEL THE SPIRITUAL TENSION BETWEEN TWO FORCES...GOOD AND EVIL. I WILL DEFINATELY BE SEEKING GOD HARD THESE UPCOMING DAYS FOR STRENGTH, RENEWAL, AND REFILLING. I WANT TO BE ON THE RIGHT TEAM...GOD ALWAYS WINS.
ROMANS 7
14 For we know that the law is spiritual: but I am carnal, sold under sin. 15 For that which I do I allow not: for what I would , that do I not; but what I hate , that do I . 16 If then I do that which I would not, I consent unto the law that it is good. 17 Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. 18 For I know that in me (that is , in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. 19 For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do . 20 Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. 21 I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me. 22 For I delight in the law of God after the inward man: 23 But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. 24 O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? 25 I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.   

JESUS!

 

HARVEST...AN EXPECTED END

Today was a crazy day! My mom spent her birthday with my grandmother in the ER, but thank God all is well. When I got off I called to check on my grandmother and to tell my mom happy birthday. When I said happy birthday my mom's response which was "thank you" was a little dry; so I asked "did you get your package" she said no.  After we got off the phone I checked my messages and sure enough the flower shop that I had placed my delivery with had called saying they were out of stock of the container for the flower arraignment I had ordered. By the time I checked the message the shop was closed so I went to walmart and got flowers and a candle warmer. I chose roses and sunflowers. I took two of the sunflowers out and decided to take one to my great aunt who lived close to the store. When I got there she looked at me strange and asked if I knew she had been sick. I told her no I just decided to stop by. I hugged her, talked to her briefly, gave her the flower and left. I then went to the hospital and gave my mom her gift and my grandmother her flower. Time is precious; especially time with the ones you love. I looked back on today's events in awe of the wisdom of God. He knew my great aunt had been sick and he knew going to the store by her home would make me think of her.
He knew that flowers would brighten my mother's day. Quite a few people I know have birthdays this month. I hope every one I hold dear had a good birthday. My birthday is next month; my son  got my gift early and asked if he could give it to me early. When I got home my gift was on the bed. It was a candle holder like the one he had seen me buy for another loved one whose birthday was this month. He had seen how much I liked it and had been waiting to surprise me with it, so in essence I had reaped what I had sown.
Ecclesiastes 3
¹¹ He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.

September

Tomorrow is my mother's birthday. I wanted to send her flowers this year but placing the order online took an extremely long time. It made me think of how so much has been held up this year. But the season is changing! The gradual change in the weather lets me know that the heat (the fire) is almost gone! I wasn't born in September but I must say there is something very special about this month.

Honor

This morning I heard another song; the song was a scripture. "Eyes have not seen, ears have not heard, nor has it entered into the heart of man, what God has for us, eyes have not seen, ears have not heard, nor has it entered into the heart of man, what God has for us" as I write.. I hear "hold on and receive your crown". I woke up this morning and I had intended to cook breakfast and before I got up my grandmother said "I thought you were gonna fix breakfast" I got up and fixed breakfast and then my lovely grandmother was really feeling herself and said "now fix me cappuccino"... I said "now we agreed on breakfast" and I heard "give honor, where honor, is due." So today I honor my family, my loved ones, my children, my pastors and everyone. I love you with the love of Christ.
1 Corinthians 2
9 But as it is written: "Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, Nor have entered into the heart of man The things which God has prepared for those who love Him." 10 But God has revealed them to us through His Spirit. For the Spirit searches all things, yes, the deep things of God. 11 For what man knows the things of a man except the spirit of the man which is in him? Even so no one knows the things of God except the Spirit of God.
PRAY IN THE SPIRIT

It rained yesterday in the city that I am from. It was something different about the rain. It was as if what was happening in the natural was a direct parallel of what was happening in the spirit. I heard the question "Do you still love me?" and my response was a melody that poured from me in song "You ask me if I love you still; I always will, I always will, you're my desire I belong to you, my one and only this love is true, I hear you asking...if I love you still, I always will, I always will".
Song of Solomon 3
The watchmen that go about the city found me: to whom I said, Saw ye him whom my soul loveth ?             

SPIRITUAL ENVIRONMENT

ENVIRONMENT...ENVIRONMENT HAS BEEN COMING UP LATELY. TODAY I FELT LED TO GO TO A BIBLE BOOK STORE IN THE AREA AND I LOOKED AROUND TRYING TO FIND THE REASON I WAS THERE. THE STORE WAS PLAYING THE BIBLE ON DVD IN THE BACKGROUND AND I FINALLY REALIZED THAT I WAS NOT THERE TO MAKE A PURCHASE...I WAS THERE BECAUSE GOD WAS SHOWING ME WHAT THE PROPER SPIRITUAL ENVIRONMENT WILL DO FOR YOUR SPIRIT. THERE HAS BEEN A LOT OF TURMOIL IN MY LIVING ARRAINGMENTS FOR SOME TIME NOW. THE LAST THING THAT HAPPENED WAS LIGHTENING STRIKING THE CENTRAL HEATING AND AIR UNIT...WHAT IN THE WORLD ARE THE CHANCES OF THAT I THOUGHT AND I SOON FOUND MYSELF BEING AGGITATED AND ANGRY. TODAY I THOUGHT ABOUT WHY THAT AREA WAS UNDER SUCH AN ATTACK AND I WAS AMAZED I HADN'T SEEN IT ALL ALONG. HOME IN MY MIND SHOULD BE LIKE A SANCTUARY...WITH SCRIPTURE OR MUSIC PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND; SCRIPTURES STENCILED ON THE WALL; A PLACE OF PEACE. I ALSO DROVE BY THE WATER TODAY AND I WONDERED, WHAT IS IT ABOUT THE WATER? THE BEAUTY OF IT DRAWS YOU RIGHT INTO THE PRESENCE OF GOD. WHEN I AM CALM AND IN THAT KIND OF ENVIRONMENT WORSHIP, POETRY, AND GIFTINGS FLOW. ONCE I DROVE BY THE WATER AND I STARTED SPEAKING A POEM TO GOD OUTLOUD AND IT WAS AS IF IT FLOWED RIGHT FROM MY SPIRIT AND I WAS ONLY LISTENING. HOW DO YOU GET TO AND STAY IN THAT PLACE?



MATTHEW 14:13

When Jesus heard what had happened, he withdrew by boat privately to a solitary place. Hearing of this, the crowds followed him on foot from the towns.

GOD'S WILL BE DONE

Its amazing to see how many obstacles the devil tries to put in our way to try to keep us from what God has for us.  Last week I moved back into the office space that I had given up a while back. When one of my co-workers walked into my office and saw me she was shocked and said "Oh I did not know you were here" I responded  "Yeah, I'm reclaiming my domain".  That's  how I feel...if God said its mine its mine. Because of how hectic things have been the last couple of weeks I haven't had much time at all to occupy my new, old space and today when one thing started to happen after the other I started not to go to my office as I had planned but something within said go just for a little while. I went in and sat at my desk for only about ten minutes but those ten minutes were all I needed to remind myself of what God had done. I have had a lot of trouble on my job and I thought about leaving more than once and I heard God say each time "Hold on just a little longer";  and last week when I went  to my office God told me that he had put me in that position to do his will. If we could just rest and know that if God said it...it will come to pass and if he gave it to us it is ours to have. Be encouraged in the Lord today and know that he has good things in store for you, and it can only be lost if you chose to forfeit it. I love you with the love of Christ our Lord. Amen.

Genesis 1:28

King James Version (KJV)

²⁸ And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth.

You Have What You Say

Today I had to call someone...It is only Tuesday and I have found marijuana in the yards of two clients (I did not pick it up either time). I called my cousin and she said "you didn't pray for green did you? (meaning : I meant money but wasn't specific and just asked for green) "I said no but I remember a while back when I was praying I started quoting scripture and I said "Lord you said you wouldn't have your seed begging for bread!" The next day a neighbor I really don't talk to started bringing me bread. " I said God you are so funny...I meant money". I decree that the body of Christ will start finding good treasures, in the name of the Father, the name of the Son and the name of the Holy Ghost! (I'm still and always will be talking about Jesus). Amen.

I AM NOT FORGOTTEN

About five years ago I was going through some stormy times and I went to the flea market with a family acquaintance. At the flea market a lady had a booth and she was doing print outs of name meanings. I had only had one person tell me they knew the meaning of my name but when I tried to call her she was unable to tell me. I did not expect the lady at the flea market to have the meaning of my name; when I told her what my name was she said it was unique but it was still a way to look it up...the definition she gave me was computer generated and a little generic but what it said had truth to it. A while after the lady gave me the print out I got a wild hair and wrote a linguist at an university and asked him if he knew the meaning of my name. He not only took the time to research it but he enlisted the help of his colleagues to find the meaning. Almost every day I was forwarded an email on what someone had found. It shook my very being because I knew it was God's favor and love for me that had caused him to move collegiate professors and chairs to search out my name meaning. I thought about that today and wandered at the awe of God's power and glory and his presence in the turbulence; protecting and keeping us.

THE GLORY OF THE LORD REIGNS FOR EVER

EVERY MOMENT IN YOUR HANDS

TODAY I WAS ANTICIPATING SOMETHING THAT DID NOT HAPPEN. I FELT THE LORD WAS ASKING WILL YOU LOVE ME ANYWAY...THE ANSWER WILL ALWAYS BE YES. THOUGH IT MAY HURT, THOUGH I MAY NOT UNDERSTAND, THE ANSWER WILL ALWAYS BE YES I LOVE YOU LORD AND NOT ONLY DO I LOVE YOU BUT I RECOGNIZE THAT YOU ARE A MIRACLE WORKER, YOU'RE CARING, AND LOVING, YOU ARE FAITHFUL AND TRUE AND WHEN IT IS TIME YOU WILL TURN IT AROUND. BE ENCOURAGED IN THE LORD TODAY AND EVERYDAY...HE CAN DO ANYTHING. I LOVE YOU WITH THE LOVE OF CHRIST; UNTIL NEXT TIME.

CROSSROAD

SOME YEARS AGO I WENT TO A SISTER KEEPER CRUSADE IN MOBILE. THE SPEAKER SAID "YOU ARE AT A CROSSROAD"...SHE CARRIED SUCH AN ANOINTING. SOMETIMES I COME ACROSS OLD NOTES ETC. AND IT IS AS IF THAT SERMON WERE FOR THAT MOMENT IN TIME. THE CROSSROAD'S MESSAGE IS A WORD THAT IS TRUE  FOR ME RIGHT NOW AND THAT IS PROBABLY TRUE FOR OTHERS. THERE IS SUCH A PULLING. I FEEL PULLED TO INDULGE IN THINGS THAT I SHOULDN'T AND AT THE SAME TIME GOD IS PULLING ME INTO HIM; SPEAKING CLEARLY AND REVEALING. THIS POINT THAT WE AS THE BODY OF CHRIST ARE AT IS SO DETRIMENTAL TO OUR DESTINY, FOR GOOD OR BAD. IF WE GIVE IN TO SIN...THE OUTCOME MAY BE FATAL TO OUR NATURAL OR SPIRITUAL LIVES AND IF WE HOLD OUT AND RUN TO GOD AND EMBRACE WHAT HE IS DOING WE WILL BE A PART OF THIS NEXT GREAT REVIVAL. I FEEL IT...REVIVAL IS SO CLOSE, BUT I ALSO FEEL THE PRESSURE OF THIS UNCOMFORTABLE PLACE THAT I AM IN. GOD HAS QUICKENED SPIRITUAL SENSES...WHEN I SEE PEOPLE THAT ARE IN NEED OF HEALING ETC. MY SPIRIT BEGINS TO STIR WITH SUCH A LONGING TO SEE THEM DELIVERED. I HAVE WANTED TO SEE THE MIRACLES OF GOD BEFORE BUT THE LONGING IS SO INTENSE NOW.

ISAIAH 61

1The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;

2To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn;

3To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.

4And they shall build the old wastes, they shall raise up the former desolations, and they shall repair the waste cities, the desolations of many generations.

5And strangers shall stand and feed your flocks, and the sons of the alien shall be your plowmen and your vinedressers.

6But ye shall be named the Priests of the LORD: men shall call you the Ministers of our God: ye shall eat the riches of the Gentiles, and in their glory shall ye boast yourselves.

7For your shame ye shall have double; and for confusion they shall rejoice in their portion: therefore in their land they shall possess the double: everlasting joy shall be unto them.

8For I the LORD love judgment, I hate robbery for burnt offering; and I will direct their work in truth, and I will make an everlasting covenant with them.

9And their seed shall be known among the Gentiles, and their offspring among the people: all that see them shall acknowledge them, that they are the seed which the LORD hath blessed.

10I will greatly rejoice in the LORD, my soul shall be joyful in my God; for he hath clothed me with the garments of salvation, he hath covered me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decketh himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorneth herself with her jewels.

11For as the earth bringeth forth her bud, and as the garden causeth the things that are sown in it to spring forth; so the Lord GOD will cause righteousness and praise to spring forth before all the nations

BE ENCOURAGED...HELP IS ON THE WAY

TODAY AS I WAS THINKING ABOUT A SITUATION THAT I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO CHANGE FOR A WHILE I ALMOST CRIED...BEFORE I COULD GET TO THE POINT OF CRYING I HEARD THE LORD SAY "DON'T CRY, YOU ARE ALMOST THERE". THEN I HEARD THE LORD SAY "YOU TELL OTHERS TO BELIEVE ME FOR THE IMPOSSIBLE AND YOU BELIEVE IT FOR THEM TOO; I WANT YOU TO BELIEVE ME FOR THE IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOURSELF". SO BE ENCOURAGED TODAY PEOPLE OF THE MOST HIGH GOD, PERFECTLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE HEIRS OF RIGHTEOUSNESS...HELP IS ON THE WAY!

THERE IS SAFETY IN OBEDIENCE.

Monday my little cousin graduated from nursing school. I am so proud of her. As we were leaving I saw one of the people who had come to see her graduate. This person had some sort of brain tumor that made her go blind; as I saw her it began to pull at my heart and I heard the Lord say that if I could get to the point that I am fully flowing in my gifting that he would heal through me. Last night I dreamed that my family had gone somewhere God had told me not to go but because they were there I went. I really did not want to go to the event...I wanted to be with my family. As I type I am reminded of a reoccurring childhood dream (I mean I had this dream more times than I can count) in the dream my family and I were in a field running and laughing but I could only get so close to them, there was a line (not visible but we knew it was there) I couldn't cross and they couldn't cross; every now and then we all would look sad because we could not fully be together but would continue to run and play. In the dream I had last night I went to the event knowing I shouldn't have been there. I looked around feeling awkward and thinking to myself "I shouldn't be here" but then I would turn back to my family and laugh and talk. In the beginning of the dream we were inside, then all of a sudden we were outside and a huge wave came over us...people were being washed away. I grabbed a man and I pulled him and I into the building and I kept screaming "Lord I'm Sorry". The dream felt like a Jonah experience; the people in the dream weren't necessarily doing right but when I went where I knew God did not want me to go my disobedience brought judgment to all that were around me. People argue that we all go through the same things and I believe that is true to a certain extent...to whom much is given much is required and God may hold you to a certain standard that he doesn't hold everyone to; the high  priest in the old testament was the only one that could go into the Holy of Holies. The beauty in that though is that if you can keep your hands clean and live holy and be in the will of God he will do great and mighty things for you and through you.

1 Samuel 15:22 KJV

And Samuel said , Hath the LORD as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices, as in obeying the voice of the LORD? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams.

I AM PERSUADED

DESTINATION REACHED..RESTORATION.

I REACHED MY DESTINATION (NASHVILLE TENNESSEE)! I RESTED AND GOT BACK ON THE ROAD  SATURDAY MORNING.  THERE WAS AN ACCIDENT ON THE ROAD AND IT HELD THE TRAFFIC UP FOR AN EXTREMELY LONG TIME. IN ABOUT TWO HOURS WE TRAVELED ABOUT FIVE MILES; NEEDLESS TO SAY IT DELAYED OUR ARRIVAL. WHILE STUCK IN TRAFFIC I WATCHED CAR AFTER CAR TURN AROUND BUT I THOUGHT TO MYSELF I KNOW THIS IS THE WAY SO THERE IS NO WAY I'M TURNING AROUND. I ONLY SPENT A PORTION OF A DAY AND SOME TIME THIS MORNING THERE IN TENNESSEE BUT IT WAS WELL WORTH IT. I DON'T KNOW COMPLETELY  WHAT THE REASON FOR THE TRIP WAS. I KNOW PART OF THE REASON I WENT WAS TO COME FROM UNDER THE PRINCIPALITIES IN THE AREA I LIVE IN AND FREELY RECONNECT WITH THE LORD; NOT IN TRICKLES AND STRAINED; PRAYING AND WORSHIPING WAS AS NATURAL AS BREATHING AND IT FLOWED LIKE A MIGHTY RIVER. I VISITED VARIOUS FAMILY MEMBERS INCLUDING SOME GREAT AUNTS AND UNCLES (IT WAS BEAUTIFUL)..I WAS VISITING MY FATHER'S SIDE OF THE FAMILY; THE SIMILARITIES WE HAVE WITH OUR KIN ARE REMARKABLE. THIS MORNING BEFORE WE GOT ON THE ROAD MY GREAT UNCLE LED US IN PRAYER AND MY GREAT AUNT SAID "LETS SING SOMETHING". MY COUSIN BEGAN TO PLAY THE PIANO AND LEAD US IN "LET THE CHURCH SAY AMEN"...HIS VOICE WAS ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL. I KNEW THAT I HAD SOME AUNTS THAT HAD VERY NICE VOICES BUT I DID NOT KNOW THAT THERE WAS A MUSICAL GIFTING THROUGHOUT THE FAMILY. ON MY WAY HOME THERE WERE TWO ACCIDENTS INVOLVING  EIGHTEEN WHEELERS...I DON'T KNOW HOW BAD THE FIRST ONE WAS; BY THE TIME TRAFFIC MOVED I COULD ONLY SEE THE TRAILER OF THE TRUCK THAT HAD GONE THROUGH THE WOODS AND WRAPPED AROUND TREES; THE FRONT OF THE TRUCK WAS OKAY...I SAW THE SECOND ACCIDENT WHEN I WAS ALMOST HOME...AN EIGHTEEN WHEELER AND A CAR; THE CAR'S FRONT END HAD BEEN SMASHED IN SO BADLY THE DRIVER WAS STUCK IN THE CAR...I SAW HIS HEAD MOVE AND THAT WAS ALL I NEEDED TO SEE BEFORE I WENT INTO WARFARE FOR HIS LIFE AND HIS SOUL. I THANK GOD MY CHILDREN AND I MADE IT THERE AND BACK SAFELY. I THANK GOD FOR HIS GUIDANCE; AT LEAST  ONE TIME WHEN I WANTED TO GO FURTHER BEFORE GETTING MORE GAS GOD SAID "TORRY STOP NOW"...WHO KNOWS WHAT THOSE MINUTES OFF THE HIGHWAY PREVENTED. WE TAKE SO MUCH FOR GRANTED BUT GOD IS CONSTANTLY COVERING US AND COVERING OUR LOVED ONES BECAUSE OF US. THANK YOU LORD. BE BLESSED.

ROAD MAP

I HAVE BEEN FEELING THE NEED TO GET AWAY FOR A WHILE. JUST TO BREAK AWAY FROM EVERYTHING FOR A MOMENT FOR CLARITY AND REJUVINATION. I HEADED OUT OF TOWN YESTERDAY AND ENDED UP GETTING TURNED AROUND. I ENDED BACK UP IN TUSCALOOSA ABOUT THREE TIMES AND DECIDED TO GET A ROOM FOR THE NIGHT AND TRY IT AGAIN IN THE MORNING. I SAT AND WANDERED ABOUT THE PARALLEL IN THE SPIRIT...HAVING A DESTINATION OR PLACE TO REACH BUT GETTING TURNED AROUND CONSTANTLY AND MISSING THE DESTINATION. I ALSO THOUGHT ABOUT THE WISDOM IN JUST STOPPING TO REGROUP. IT IS NATURE TO WANT TO GET TO WHERE YOU ARE GOING BUT IT IS SPIRITUAL WISDOM TO KNOW WHEN YOU NEED TO STOP TO REGROUP; REFOCUS AND COME UP WITH A GOOD SET OF DIRECTIONS AND A GAME PLAN.

Psalm 16:11 KJV 

Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.

           

Psalm 27:11 KJV 

Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies .

 

            

Psalm 119:35 KJV

Make me to go in the path of thy commandments; for therein do I delight .

           

Psalm 119:105 KJV 

NUN. Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.

 

NAIL IT TO THE CROSS

Yes and Amen...God is Faithful

Saturday I saw a double rainbow and when it went away in another direction there was a partial rainbow and it stayed longer than I think I have seen a rainbow stay; it went away and  a short while later another one replaced it; all I could think of was abiding promises. I kept thinking something good must be about to happen; something extraordinary must be on the horizon.

2 Corinthians 1:20 KJV

For all the promises of God in him are yea, and in him Amen, unto the glory of God by us.

Seek

"Seek and you shall find 'o' child of mine...seek"
Matthew 7
7 Ask , and it shall be given you; seek , and ye shall find ; knock , and it shall be opened unto you: 8 For every one that asketh receiveth ; and he that seeketh findeth ; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened .            

I DON'T AGREE...I CHOOSE LIFE!

My son and I passed a Hospice Facility tonight and he didn't know what it was. He asked "what is Hospice"? I said "it is a place people go to die". He said "ewe".  I began to tell him how it was really good and how they helped people be comfortable before they died and he wanted to know how you could be comfortable before dying. I said "you know I'm sure the place you are at is nice and they help you to cope with dying" the more we talked about it the more I thought about it and I said "you know it is kind of strange...it's like they have made some sort of covenant with death" and I remembered the whole name is "Covenant Hospice". Agreeing with death...not unless God tells you but even then there are cases in the Bible that God had mercy and the person lived. Hmm. "I  shall not die, but live, and declare the works of the Lord".

Proverbs 18:21 KJV 

Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.

Happy Fourth of July!

I decided to spend the fourth with my cousin who lives a little over an hour away. Its not that far but the drive and getting outside of the town I live in is like a mini-vacation of sorts. This morning my cousin had to work and I wanted to be done cooking by the time she got off. When I got up I really did not feel like cooking; I felt so heavy! I got dressed; got my children dressed, fed them breakfast and fought myself to start cooking. Once I got started; it wasn't an issue; It was actually really rewarding. I heard God say you will have to come against a lot because of the calling but if you just get started; if you just begin it won't be a problem...you are stronger.

Hebrews 12:1 KJV 

Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,

GOD IS GOD

Gifts and callings are truly without repentance. I have heard the voice of God since I was a child but when I got older, I decided that I would do what I wanted to do. God would still set limits though even then. I can remember when at times when I was in a relationship or whatever you want to call it that God wanted me to cut off; God would basically tell me to cut it off; but sometimes it wasn't that easy to cut off. At those times I would be like Lord I love you but I want him...help me to let go. In one particular instance God gave me a dream so specific that it was down to the street address, I told the guy what I had dreamed about and his eyes got huge; he was like that's the street we used to live on when we were together and when she calls that's exactly what she says. Believe it or not I still did not want to let go, so God gave me another dream...I dreamed that he and I were in the car and his ex-girlfriend smiled at me and rubbed her belly. I told him the dream and he became very angry...she was pregnant but only about two months and he said it wasn't his and that was the end of that one. Last night I dreamed about my ex-husband. It was as if God was saying you keep focusing on this over here but I have said what I have to say, now you need to deal with this. I woke up and God began speaking clearly on the matter. I had wanted him to be more clear on something else or maybe I just didn't like what he had told me to do...but God had said enough and now wanted me to deal with something that was happening subtly and was dangerous. God is loving and wonderful yet still sovereign.

Song of Solomon 2:15 KJV 

Take us the foxes, the little foxes, that spoil the vines: for our vines have tender grapes.

...LOOKING FOR RED BIRDS

 

What do you do when God asks you to do something or let something go and you don't understand? If he told you to do it or let it go, it was for a reason but how do you get pass the hurt of the loss? Time I guess.

 

 

Proverbs 3:5 KJV 

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

 

 

 

JESUS

TRANSFER

I saw a vision of corn tonight and then I saw the sun. God said he was liquefying assets for transfer. Before that he kept telling me to breathe him in. God also kept bringing sacrifice to mind.

Romans 12:1 KJV 

I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service.

 

An acceptable sacrifice...

 

3 Who shall ascend into the hill of the LORD? or who shall stand in his holy place?

4 He that hath clean hands, and a pure heart; who hath not lifted up his soul unto vanity, nor sworn deceitfully.

5 He shall receive the blessing from the LORD, and righteousness from the God of his salvation.            

 

HE (JESUS) LOVES ME

The Air I Breathe

JUDGE BY THE SPIRIT...JUDGE BY THE WORD

GOD TOLD ME TO FAST THIS WEEK AND I DIDN'T. HE WANTED ME TO FAST SO THAT I COULD JUDGE A MATTER BY MY SPIRIT AND NOT BY MY MIND OR MY EMOTIONS. THE MATTER LEFT ME CONFUSED; GOD IS NOT THE AUTHOR OF CONFUSION; SO SINCE I WAS DISOBEDIENT I AM CHOOSING TO JUDGE THE MATTER BY HIS WORD.

1 CORINTHIANS 13
1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not (love)charity , I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal.
 2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not (love) charity, I am nothing.
3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned , and have not (love) charity, it profiteth me nothing.   
4(Love) Charity suffereth long , and is kind ; (love) charity envieth not; (love) charity vaunteth not itself , is not puffed up ,
5 Doth not behave itself unseemly , seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked , thinketh no evil;
6 Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;    
7 Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things
8 (Love) Charity never faileth : but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail ; whether there be tongues, they shall cease ; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away .    
 9 For we know in part, and we prophesy in part.
10 But when that which is perfect is come , then that which is in part shall be done away .
11 When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.    
12 For now we see through a glass, darkly ; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known .
13 And now abideth faith, hope,(love) charity, these three; but the greatest of these is (love) charity.   

TURN AROUND

MY PASTOR PROPHESIED IN CHURCH SUNDAY THAT IN THREE DAYS THERE WOULD BE A CHANGE. TODAY IS TUESDAY AND I CHECKED MY BANK ACCOUNT...THERE WAS A DEPOSIT MADE!  I WAS ON MY LAST, TRYING TO WALK BY FAITH BUT WANDERING HOW; I PAY TITHES...I PAY BEYOND THE TENTH BUT I HAVE ALWAYS SEEMED TO STRUGGLE IN MY FINANCES. SOMEHOW I ALWAYS KNEW THAT IF HE SPOKE A BLESSING IT WOULD HAPPEN; I HAVE TOLD MY FAMILY AND KIDS THAT I BELIEVED IF HE WOULD SPEAK A BLESSING IT WOULD HAPPEN. I'M AM RECEIVING THAT WORD AND RUNNING WITH IT! THIS IS ONLY THE BEGINING OF BLESSINGS.

REMEMBER

I  FEELTHAT THIS COMING MEMORIAL DAY WILL BE VERY SIGNIFICANT. ON THIS DAY I WILL REMEMBER THE SOLDIERS WHO SERVED AND DIED FOR OUR FREEDOM BUT I WILL ALSO REMEMBER THE ONE WHO DIED FOR THE FREEDOM OF MANKIND...THE ONE AND ONLY; KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS, JESUS! THIS MEMORIAL DAY I AM REMBERING WHAT JESUS DID FOR US AND I WILL WALK IN THE FREEDOM THAT HE PROVIDED WHEN HE LAYED DOWN HIS LIFE AND TOOK IT UP AGAIN!

LUKE 22
14 And when the hour was come , he sat down , and the twelve apostles with him.            
15 And he said unto them, With desire I have desired to eat this passover with you before I suffer :            
16 For I say unto you , I will not any more eat thereof , until it be fulfilled in the kingdom of God.            
17 And he took the cup, and gave thanks , and said , Take this, and divide it among yourselves:            
18 For I say unto you , I will not drink of the fruit of the vine, until the kingdom of God shall come . 19 And he took bread, and gave thanks , and brake it, and gave unto them, saying , This is my body which is given for you: this do in remembrance of me.   
 20 Likewise also the cup after supper , saying , This cup is the new testament in my blood, which is shed for you.            

THEY THAT SOW IN TEARS WILL REAP IN JOY...GOD IS WIPING OUR TEARS AWAY.

REVELATION 7
9 After this I beheld , and, lo , a great multitude, which no man could number , of all nations, and kindreds, and people, and tongues, stood before the throne, and before the Lamb, clothed with white robes, and palms in their hands;
10 And cried with a loud voice, saying , Salvation to our God which sitteth upon the throne, and unto the Lamb
 11 And all the angels stood round about the throne, and about the elders and the four beasts, and fell before the throne on their faces, and worshipped God,
12 Saying , Amen: Blessing, and glory, and wisdom, and thanksgiving, and honour, and power, and might, be unto our God for ever and ever. Amen.
13 And one of the elders answered , saying unto me, What are these which are arrayed in white robes? and whence came they ?    
 14 And I said unto him, Sir, thou knowest . And he said to me, These are they which came out of great tribulation, and have washed their robes, and made them white in the blood of the Lamb.   
15 Therefore are they before the throne of God, and serve him day and night in his temple: and he that sitteth on the throne shall dwell among them.    
16 They shall hunger no more, neither thirst any more; neither shall the sun light on them, nor any heat.    
17 For the Lamb which is in the midst of the throne shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of waters: and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes.   

THE TRICK OF DIVISION

I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT HOW JESUS OFTEN SPOKE IN PARABLES. I READ MARK CHAPTER THREE THIS MORNING WHERE JESUS ORDAINED THE TWELVE DISCIPLES AND SENT THEM FORTH WITH POWER TO HEAL SICKNESSES AND CAST OUT DEVILS ( FOR WHATEVER REASON I ALWAYS PAUSE WHEN I GET TO THE PART WHERE JESUS SURNAMED A SPECIAL GROUP WITHIN THE GROUP...THE TWO; THE SONS OF THUNDER.) MARK CHAPTER THREE ALSO TALKS ABOUT DIVISION; IT'S AN OLD TRICK BUT SADLY IT IS STILL WORKING! I THOUGHT ABOUT THE SCRIPTURE (MATTHEW 13:10) WHERE THE DISCIPLES ASKED JESUS WHY HE SPOKE TO THE PEOPLE IN PARABLES AND HE SAID BECAUSE IT WAS GIVEN UNTO THEM TO KNOW THE MYSTERIES OF THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN. BEFORE JESUS WAS SEATED ON THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE FATHER I'M SURE HIS DISCIPLES HAD WALKED WITH HIM LONG ENOUGH TO KNOW HIM AND WHETHER HE SPOKE IN A PARABLE OR PLAINLY...THEY UNDERSTOOD HIM. I ALSO THOUGHT ON THAT COUNTERFEIT; THE DEVIL AND HOW HE DOES THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT GOD IS DOING BY DOING SOMETHING THAT LOOKS SIMILAR. JESUS SPOKE IN PARABLES... I THINK THE DEVIL AT TIMES SPEAKS IN RIDDLES AND THE PURPOSE OF THE RIDDLE IS TO BRING CONFUSION AND/OR DIVISION. WEBSTER DEFINES A RIDDLE AS:

1: a mystifying, misleading, or puzzling question posed as a problem to be solved or guessed :

2: something or someone difficult to understand

I HAVE HEARD SEVERAL WISE PEOPLE MENTION THE FACT THAT THE FALL OF MAN BEGAN WITH A QUESTION (OR RIDDLE) YEA, HATH GOD SAID, YE SHALL NOT EAT OF EVERY TREE IN THE GARDEN?
THE TRICK HE PLAYED ON ADAM AND EVE CAUSED THE DIVISION BETWEEN GOD AND MAN, BUT THANK GOD FOR JESUS, THE REPAIRER OF THE BREACH! THERE IS POWER IN UNITY.

THE TRUTH SHALL SET YOU FREE

TODAY MY CHURCH WAS FASTING. I HAVE GONE ON THREE DAY WATER FASTS THAT WEREN'T THIS HARD. I DECIDED TO FAST FOR PART OF THE DAY. GOD GAVE ME A TIME. I WENT BY THE WATER AND PRAYED TWICE TODAY BEFORE BREAKING IT. ON MY WAY TO THE WATER THE SECOND TIME I GOT A MESSAGE THAT MY LITTLE GIRL WAS CUTTING UP IN SCHOOL (AGAIN). DRIVING DOWN THE ROAD I SAW A CHURCH SIGN BUT WHAT I READ WAS "HARRY POTTER" I LOOKED BACK UP AND IT SAID HOLY TEMPLE. I SAID OKAY LORD WHAT IS THAT AND HE SAID SHE WATCHED HARRY POTTER AND IT OPENED A DOOR. I WOULDN'T LET MY CHILDREN WATCH HARRY POTTER WHEN IT FIRST CAME OUT; MY EX HUSBAND DID NOT UNDERSTAND ME NOT WANTING THEM TO WATCH IT, OR ME NOT WANTING THEM TO CELEBRATE HALLOWEEN, OR ME NOT TELLING THEM ABOUT THE TOOTH-FAIRY OR SANTA CLAUS...HE DIDN'T UNDERSTAND ME. WHEN WE SEPARATED I'M SURE ALOT OF THE THINGS I FOUGHT FOR AND BELIEVED IN WENT OUT THE WINDOW. MY LITTLE GIRL WAS OLD ENOUGH WHILE WE WERE TOGETHER FOR HER NOT TO BELIEVE IN SANTA CLAUS BUT MY LITTLE BOY DOES EVEN THOUGH I HAVE TRIED TO TELL HIM WHY CHRISTMAS IS CELEBRATED. I ASKED MY LITTLE GIRL IF SHE HAD WATCHED HARRY POTTER AND SHE SAID NO BUT IT WASN'T RINGING TRUE TO MY SPIRIT SO I BEGAN TO LOOK ONLINE TO LEARN MORE. HARRY POTTER HAD A CHARACTER NAMED VOLDEMERE WHO SCREAMED ALOT (I HAVE READ THAT VOLDEMERE IS THE NAME OF AN ACTUAL DEMON); THE MOVIE HAD SCREAMING  ROOTS AND SCREAMING PANTS...SCREAMING, SCREAMING, SCREAMING. GUESS WHAT THE MAIN  COMPLAINT ABOUT MY DAUGHTER'S BAD BEHAVIOR IS?...SCREAMING. I THANK GOD FOR BRINGING TRUTH IN THIS HOUR.



JOHN 8

32 And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free .            

FREEDOM

LAST NIGHT IN CHURCH WE DISCUSSED 2 CORINTHIANS CHAPTER 10.  IT WAS DISCUSSED THAT WHEN WE BRING EVERY THOUGHT INTO CAPTIVITY TO THE OBEDIENCE OF CHRIST THEN STRONGHOLDS WILL BE BROKEN AND FORCED TO SUBMIT. THIS WAS SO PROPHETIC! THIS WEEK GOD TOLD ME TO BEGIN TO PRAY FOR SOMEONE THAT HAD WRONGED ME, NOT JUST ONE DAY BUT EVERYDAY FOR TWENTY ONE DAYS. LED BY THE HOLY SPIRIT MY PRAYERS HAVE BEEN VERY SPECIFIC...THAT GOD WILL ALLOW THEM TO BE PRESENTED THE TRUTH AND THAT THEY HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO CHOOSE TRUTH AND SALVATION. SO THE MESSAGE WAS VERY TIMELY AND IT GAVE ME MORE INSIGHT AS TO WHAT GOD IS DOING. WE AS BELIEVERS ARE GETTING READY TO BE FREE AND WALK INTO DESTINY. THE SPIRIT THAT HAS BEEN DRIVING THOSE THAT HAVE BEEN COMING AGAINST US WILL BE HELD CAPTIVE AND
FOR SOME IF NOT ALL THE PEOPLE DRIVEN OR INHABITED BY THESE SPIRITS
THERE WILL BE A SPACE OF TIME FOR THEM TO SEE THE TRUTH AND MAKE A CLEAR DECISION. BUT WE WILL BE FREE EITHER WAY. LORD HAVE MERCY! I TAKE INTO CAPTIVITY THE PART OF ME THAT WANTS JUSTICE FOR THE WRONG AND I SAY LORD HAVE YOUR WAY. I'M SURE A LOT OF CHRISTIANS WEREN'T TO THRILLED ABOUT SAUL'S DAMASCUS EXPERIENCE; BUT GOD IS GOD AND HIS WAYS ARE HIGHER THAN OUR WAYS...HIS THOUGHTS HIGHER THAN OUR THOUGHTS. SOMEONE WHO HAS BEEN ON THE OTHER SIDE AND HAS BEEN TRULY CONVERTED WOULD REACH PEOPLE THAT AREN'T REACHED SO EASILY! LORD HAVE YOUR WAY AND USHER IN DELIVERANCE FOR ANYONE WHO WILL RECEIVE IT.

2 CORINTHIANS 10
3 For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh:
4 (For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;)
5 Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;
6 And having in a readiness to revenge all disobedience, when your obedience is fulfilled

LET THE REDEEMED OF THE LORD SAY SO!

I HAD ANOTHER DREAM ABOUT A STORM LAST NIGHT. THIS TIME THE WIND WAS VERY STRONG AND THE TREES WHIPPED BACK AND FORTH THREATENING TO COME THROUGH THE WINDOW OF THE ROOM MY CHILDREN AND I WERE IN. I WOKE UP REMEMBERING THE DREAM BUT NOT FEELING TROUBLED ABOUT IT. I KNEW THAT IT MEANT SOMETHING BUT I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT. I BELIEVE THERE ARE THOSE THAT HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH A SEASON IN WHICH YOU HAVE WANDERED WHAT IN THE WORLD IS GOING ON. A SEASON LIKE JOB WHERE GOD ALLOWED SOME THINGS BUT SPARED YOUR LIFE. I BELIEVE WE ARE COMING OUT. THE ENEMY WANTS TO HOLD ON. HE THOUGHT WE WOULD BE DEFEATED BUT VICTORY IS ON THE HORIZON. I BELIEVE GOD!

JOB 5
1Call now, if there be any that will answer thee; and to which of the saints wilt thou turn ? 2 For wrath killeth the foolish man, and envy slayeth the silly one . 3 I have seen the foolish taking root : but suddenly I cursed his habitation.4 His children are far from safety, and they are crushed in the gate, neither is there any to deliver them. 5 Whose harvest the hungry eateth up , and taketh it even out of the thorns, and the robber swalloweth up their substance.6 Although affliction cometh not forth of the dust, neither doth trouble spring out of the ground;7 Yet man is born unto trouble, as the sparks flyupward . 8 I would seek unto God, and unto God would I commit my cause:9 Which doeth great things and unsearchable ; marvellous things without number:10 Who givethrain upon the earth, and sendethwaters upon the fields:11 To set up on high those that be low; that those which mourn may be exalted to safety.12 He disappointeth the devices of the crafty, so that their hands cannot perform their enterprise.13 He taketh the wise in their own craftiness: and the counsel of the froward is carried headlong . 14 They meet with darkness in the daytime, and grope in the noonday as in the night.15 But he saveth the poor from the sword, from their mouth, and from the hand of the mighty.16 So the poor hath hope, and iniquity stoppeth her mouth.17 Behold, happy is the man whom God correcteth : therefore despise not thou the chastening of the Almighty:18 For he maketh sore , and bindeth up : he woundeth , and his hands make whole . 19 He shall deliver thee in six troubles: yea, in seven there shall no evil touch thee. 20 In famine he shall redeem thee from death: and in war from the power of the sword.21 Thou shalt be hid from the scourge of the tongue: neither shalt thou be afraid of destruction when it cometh . 22 At destruction and famine thou shalt laugh : neither shalt thou be afraid of the beasts of the earth.23 For thou shalt be in league with the stones of the field: and the beasts of the field shall be at peace with thee. 24 And thou shalt know that thy tabernacle shall be in peace; and thou shalt visit thy habitation, and shalt not sin . 25 Thou shalt know also that thy seed shall be great, and thine offspring as the grass of the earth.26 Thou shalt come to thy grave in a full age, like as a shock of corn cometh in in his season.27 Lo this, we have searched it, so it is; hear it, and know thou it for thy good.