Sunday, May 29, 2011

The Great Commision

Friday night and Saturday morning I went with my church to hand out flyers about an event we are having. It awakened the desire in me to evangelize; I heard others voice the same thing. Some years ago I would go out on rainy nights and hand out umbrellas, bibles, etc. It always amazed me how many people you would see walking in the rain. Later on a friend of mine started to go with me but we eventually stopped going. I can think back on the faces of the people that were witnessed to; the looks of total surprise that someone would just give them something. On Friday night, when I went with my church to hand out flyers there was a group of people outside of a gay club with signs. I looked hoping the message was God loves you and a call to come to Jesus and not one of condemnation which tends to push people further from God instead of closer. The clock is ticking we need to be drawing as many people as we can to Christ and we must draw them by love.

Luke 4:18 KJV
The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted , to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Lord Prepare Me

I have been drawn to pictures of sanctuaries lately. I received a book titled "The Tabernacle Shadows of the Messiah, Sacrifices Services, and Priesthood". I will tell you more about the book later. I am reminded of the scripture in Matthew 18:20.
Matthew 18
20. And Jesus saith unto him, The foxes have holes, and the birds of the air have nests; but the Son of man hath not where to lay his head.
My church is getting ready to build and that could be it but I think there is more to it.

Seventy Times Seven

I was upset with a loved one this week. I have the gift of prophecy so not only did I catch the looks they gave me and their attitude being different towards me but I knew that they had been talking about me (bad). I also watched the results (things going wrong for them). I did not say anything and I found myself getting angry and I knew that I had to let go of the offense. I prayed and God eased it some but I have more praying to do. I sometimes have trouble letting things go. Before I got saved if you crossed me, it was so over. People would come to me after we had fallen out and I would look at them like they were aliens. Thank God For Deliverance. Life is too short and souls are too precious; I refuse to give the devil something to work with.
Matthew Chpt. 18
21 Then came Peter to him, and said , Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times? 22 Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times seven.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Expectation...An Expected End

I broke my fast today around 11:00PM with a cup of coffee. I have my bottle of Pepto Bismol ready! I know you are supposed to break a fast slowly but I always break it with a burger or steak! Today I sat in the Chapel of the Hospital that my grandmother had surgery at praying and crying out to the Lord. When I was done I knew it was okay. God said for you I have kept her, go back now and they will tell you it is well. How loving is Our God. I thought about this fast and the sickness my grandmother went through. Not only did God bring her out but this morning before surgery my seventy year old grandmother told me she had accepted Christ and prayed the "Sinner's Prayer". During this fast God gave me the wisdom to talk to her about the importance of accepting Christ as her Lord and personal savior. Before she would always say things like "I pray" etc. I wrote down the "Sinner's Prayer" and gave it to her and led by the Holy Spirit; I slowly sowed into her the importance of giving herself to Christ. What the devil meant for evil God meant for good.

Revelation 21:6 KJV And he said unto me, It is done . I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. I will give unto him that is athirst of the fountain of the water of life freely.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Reign Jesus Reign

There will be an outpouring of God's Spirit, There will be an abundance of rain,The Lord's presence will flood the nations. See with new eyes.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Psalm 23

1.The LORD is my shepherd;I shall not want.
2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies : thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever

Take No Thought For Tomorrow

Matthew 6:34
Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof

The Bible instructs us to take no thought for tomorrow. We should'nt be worrying about tomorrow we should be focusing on eternity. The word of the Lord is Yea and Amen. If he spoke it. It will surely come to pass. Today you can be in the valley and tomorrow on the hill of the Lord with a cup that is overflowing. From lean to plenty.

2 Kings 7
1 Then Elisha said , Hear ye the word of the LORD; Thus saith the LORD, To morrow about this time shall a measure of fine flour be sold for a shekel, and two measures of barley for a shekel, in the gate of Samaria. 2 Then a lord on whose hand the king leaned answered the man of God, and said , Behold, if the LORD would make windows in heaven, might this thing be? And he said , Behold, thou shalt see it with thine eyes, but shalt not eat thereof. 16 And the people went out , and spoiled the tents of the Syrians. So a measure of fine flour was sold for a shekel, and two measures of barley for a shekel, according to the word of the LORD.

Monday, May 9, 2011

How Bad Do You Want It?

I don't think I have ever been this hungry!I am on the first day of a three day water fast. I have fasted before but this time it is hard. I asked God why this fast was harder and he told me there was a lot depending on it and I am close. I then asked him why things seemed like they were harder for me and he said it was because the devil did not want me to reach my destiny, and I was like but you're God! Why don't you make him stop? Why do I always have to fight so hard? He said because it makes you stronger. Well there's not much left for me to say or ask. If I want it (whatever it may be), I'm going to have to fight for it.

Luke 12
42 And the Lord said , Who then is that faithful and wise steward, whom his lord shall make ruler over his household, to give them their portion of meat in due season? 43 Blessed is that servant, whom his lord when he cometh shall find so doing . 44 Of a truth I say unto you, that he will make him ruler over all that he hath . 45 But and if that servant say in his heart, My lord delayeth his coming ; and shall begin to beat the menservants and maidens, and to eat and drink , and to be drunken ; 46 The lord of that servant will come in a day when he looketh not for him, and at an hour when he is not aware , and will cut him in sunder , and will appoint him his portion with the unbelievers. 47 And that servant, which knew his lord's will, and prepared not himself, neither did according to his will, shall be beaten with many stripes. 48 But he that knew not, and did commit things worthy of stripes, shall be beaten with few stripes. For unto whomsoever much is given , of him shall be much required : and to whom men have committed much, of him they will ask the more.

Saturday, May 7, 2011


Connected by C.L.P

Emerald eyes of Jealousy
Scale the vision of Reality
Causing us both not to See
That He that dwells in You
Does dwell in Me
Words that we should have used to Edify
We exchanged and Prophesied
Against each other but our Spirits Recognize
That We are Connected
The Communion that our Spirits Drink
Make us closer than We Think
We Are Connected
Creation is Groaning Moaning and Dying
Instead of Uniting
We look past the tears in each others eyes
And Continue to Divide the Body of Christ
We are Connected
The Enemy Loves the Confusion
That Causes the Body Internal Injury and Contusions
Together We Could Bruise Him!
We Are Connected
The true irony
Is my breakthrough could be in you
And yours in me
We affect each others Destiny
We Are Connected
Its time We chose to Unify
And become the Bride of Christ
We Are Connected
We are too busy being trapped behind the smoke screen
To understand what love your neighbor as you love yourself
Truly Means
We Are Connected
How Long
How Long Oh Lord
Until we are perfected
How long will the body be divided into sects
In Unity there is protection
But the body is plagued by the Infection
Of division
If we could turn from our wicked ways
And on one accord offer up
Perfected Praise
The glory of God's
Latter Rain would Bathe
The Bride of Christ Spotless
And make her worthy of his name
We Are Connected

Last night I did something foolish. I went somewhere I shouldn't have and did some things I shouldn't have. The details are not important; I fell short. Afterwards, I sat up a while talking to my grandmother;she has been having problems with her health and has to have open heart surgery next week. I looked at her and noticed how much weight she had loss, noticed the paleness of her skin and the tiredness in her eyes. I wanted to pray for her but I did not feel worthy. I asked the Lord for forgiveness and I prayed anyway. Today as I think on last night, I think on the consequences of sin. What I did would appear minor or not sin to some but I knew better and once you KNOW BETTER you are accountable and it is sin. Grace is beautiful but we have to do our part. I wrote early this week asking the question "how do we get closer to God?" and now I can answer my own question (perhaps if I was really honest with myself I could have answered it from the begining) DISCIPLINE. If we really want to be Close to God as we say we do we must deny ourselves. Fasting, Praying, Getting up Early to Pray, whatever it takes. Life can be so distracting...Get up, get ready for work, if you have kids get them ready for school, breakfast, getting to your desired destinations, working, coming home, cooking, bathing, spending a little time with your children if you have them, getting the children ready for bed if you have them, watching a little tv or reading whatever you do, then getting your clothes ready for the next day. We must make Jesus a mandatory part of our day. I pray, but on hectic days my prayer life is sometimes ragedy. It's a quick five minutes or whatever I can spare. Jesus must be our priority. If we look at the bigger picture spending time with the Lord,Interceding,Studying the Bible, and Praying is where we get our strength and if we don't make time to do these things we will get weak and our weakness affects more than us. Our weakness affects our unsaved loved ones, it affects our sick loved ones, it affects our children, it affects our church, it affects the souls we should be winning to Christ etc. We are so quick to state the fact that we are adults; but one of the biggest parts of being an adult is being responsible. We are responsible for the kind of lives we live. We are responsible for each other.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Divine Strategy

I had a dream last night. I knew it had a significant spiritual meaning but I did not know what it was so I had to look it up. I dreamed that a panda bear was walking around the neighborhood I live in; some neighbors and I made the panda go back down the hole it had come out of and I closed the hole and sealed it in the Blood of Jesus. I knew the panda represented a spirit or demon so I began to research. I believe God is revealing hidden mysteries. I believe he is equipping his people with knowledge about our enemies so that we can defeat them. This post is not for everyone. It is for those who are seasoned,that God has called to do spiritual warfare. I have been saved for a while, but I move when God says move and when he tells me something I ask him what he wants me to do with it; sometimes I just store it with the rest of the arsenal until God instructs me to use it. We must consult the Lord in everything. With that said, God has been telling me a lot about my enemies and I know that it is for a purpose. I am preparing for war. I am teaching myself discipline. I want to be strong in the natural and spiritual when the time comes to battle.

2 Kings 6
8 Then the king of Syria warred against Israel, and took counsel with his servants, saying , In such and such a place shall be my camp. 9 And the man of God sent unto the king of Israel, saying , Beware that thou pass not such a place; for thither the Syrians are come down. 10 And the king of Israel sent to the place which the man of God told him and warned him of, and saved himself there, not once nor twice. 11 Therefore the heart of the king of Syria was sore troubled for this thing; and he called his servants, and said unto them, Will ye not shew me which of us is for the king of Israel? 12 And one of his servants said , None, my lord, O king: but Elisha, the prophet that is in Israel, telleth the king of Israel the words that thou speakest in thy bedchamber . 13 And he said , Go and spy where he is, that I may send and fetch him. And it was told him, saying , Behold, he is in Dothan. 14 Therefore sent he thither horses, and chariots, and a great host: and they came by night, and compassed the city about . 15 And when the servant of the man of God was risen early , and gone forth , behold, an host compassed the city both with horses and chariots. And his servant said unto him, Alas, my master! how shall we do ? 16 And he answered , Fear not: for they that be with us are more than they that be with them. 17 And Elisha prayed , and said , LORD, I pray thee, open his eyes, that he may see . And the LORD opened the eyes of the young man; and he saw : and, behold, the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire round about Elisha.

Monday, May 2, 2011


I have had close encounters with God. At one time God's presence would overtake me and it felt like it was almost to much to stand. I long for that again. I hear God and I feel his presence but I want more; I want to be closer. I want to touch the hem of his garment. I want a Moses encounter and have God pass by me. I know that I am clothed in flesh but I long for Spirit to Spirit and to remain conscious of it. How can we get closer? Not just an experience; I want to spend time with my Lord. I want to hear his voice in the cool of the day. I want him to walk with me. I want him to be my friend, my companion. I express this longing to God at times. The last time I did he told me "You can have as much of me as you want; I am a deep well; you can drink of me freely".
John 4
10 Jesus answered and said unto her, If thou knewest the gift of God, and who it is that saith to thee, Give me to drink ; thou wouldest have asked of him, and he would have given thee living water. 11 The woman saith unto him, Sir, thou hast nothing to draw with, and the well is deep: from whence then hast thou that living water? 12 Art thou greater than our father Jacob, which gave us the well, and drank thereof himself, and his children, and his cattle? 13 Jesus answered and said unto her, Whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again: 14 But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst ; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life. 15 The woman saith unto him, Sir, give me this water, that I thirst not, neither come hither to draw .

Sunday, May 1, 2011


A while ago I went to a meeting called "A Night With the King" one of the things the speaker had us do was spend time in silence and listen to what the Lord called us. God called me "Beloved Torry". I know it sounds bad but I was unhappy; God always calls me beloved or Torry when we talk; so it was just like he combined the two. I don't know, I was expecting something new and exciting. Today in church God called me a Gardenia. All day I thought on it. I can remember that my mom had a gardenia bush planted on the side of her house and the fragrance could be smelled in the front yard. I remember thinking "flowers don't really smell loud like that any more". Today I went for a walk and I continued to think on it and God called me a "fragrant flower". My God thinks that much of me; it brings me to tears just thinking about it. He loves you and thinks alot of you too!
Matthew 16
13 When Jesus came into the coasts of Caesarea Philippi, he asked his disciples, saying , Whom do men say that I the Son of man am ? 14 And they said , Some say that thou art John the Baptist : some, Elias; and others, Jeremias, or one of the prophets. 15 He saith unto them, But whom say ye that I am ? 16 And Simon Peter answered and said , Thou art the Christ, the Son of the living God. 17 And Jesus answered and said unto him, Blessed art thou , Simon Barjona: for flesh and blood hath not revealed it unto thee, but my Father which is in heaven. 18 And I say also unto thee, That thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church; and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it. 19 And I will give unto thee the keys of the kingdom of heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven.

Lukewarm by Grace

Psalm 23

Psalm 91

Mother and Child