Sunday, July 26, 2015

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Purpose

This week God has began to deal with me about using my time purposefully. Feeling the way I have been feeling, the only way I can see being able to do this is to make a list of the things I need to do...it feels funny having to write the list. I used to write these kind of lists because I was doing so much it was easier just to complete a task then cross it out; now I have an abundance of time but a lack of will to complete the tasks. I wrote my list today as I sat by the water....one of the things I love to do that is different now. I sat feeling like I was waiting. Waiting for my ship to come in, waiting on purpose and direction. What do you do while waiting? You do what you know to do; pray, exercise your gifts, complete the things you know you need to complete... if you are having a hard time doing those things write them down and purposely schedule some time to do them. Whatever we do we must keep moving we can't get where we need to go standing still.

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Fish Out of Water

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Various times in my life God would give me a sign that he was with me; that he heard me; that he loved me. One of those signs was a fish jumping out of water. So today as I sit looking out of my mother's window looking at the view my grandmother once loved I feel kind of torn. Fish after fish are jumping in the air but it kind of hurts. It kind of reminds me of a parent putting alcohol on a scrape; it makes it better but it still hurts and it reminds you that you are injured. My grandmother passed on Mother's Day...she was ready. I heard her say it. I wasn't ready. How can you say goodbye to someone that close to you? It was selfish to want her to stay. Her health was fading; she couldn't do the things she loved to do anymore; most of all she was very independent so when the time came that so many of the things we take for granted required assistance for her, it was very hard. I still wasn't ready. I still liked to call. I still liked to come to her house and see her; it was so comforting to me. It made me feel safe. It made me feel secure. So as I sit and look out at the water and continue to see the fish jump part of me is happy because I know it is well with her; the other part shrinks back from the fact that someone so very special to me is gone. A week or two before my grandmother passed a group that I am involved with gave me a list to pick ten questions to answer from as a way to get to know me and others better. One of the questions I chose: "If you could eat dinner with anyone dead or living who would it be?" My answer...My father (deceased);My cousin (deceased); My grandmother's best friend(deceased); and my grandmother (living). I thought of the joy she would feel to see my cousin, and her best friend (she may have been alright seeing my father too...lol). I take comfort in knowing that she is having her dinner party and not only did the guest list included those I chose but it also included her husband, her mother, her father, her sister, her brother, her godmother, her uncle and others gone before her. Even in loss God is faithful; that won't change.

Monday, May 4, 2015

Finish the work...there is an expected end.

Today my mom called to tell me that my grandmother was back in the hospital. I felt an urgency to plant something. I decided on sunflowers and then I remembered I had blogged and posted a picture of  some sunflowers I had grown before. I looked back and found the post. May 12th of 2011 I had blogged about my grandmother being in the hospital and on May 16th I had posted a picture of the sunflowers I had planted. I can't explain what is going on right now in my life. I have been given some instructions and I know that my obedience will determine some key elements in the outcome of my future. I know that I must finish; no matter how tired; no matter what is going on around me. I must complete the work.

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Lift up your head...hope thou in God

I don't know and I don't need to know. I will share with you what I do know...God's thoughts toward you are good and not evil; you have an expected end. I don't care what it looks like. I don't care how it may seem. God can walk you through anything. I speak life over you. I decree and declare your hope will be restored. Hope in God...in God. I decree and declare you are hidden in Christ Jesus. Be encouraged in the Lord today he is worthy and faithful to carry out his promises.


 PSALM 24

A Psalm of David.
1The earth is the Lord's, and the fullness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein.
2For he hath founded it upon the seas, and established it upon the floods.
3Who shall ascend into the hill of the Lord? or who shall stand in his holy place?
4He that hath clean hands, and a pure heart; who hath not lifted up his soul unto vanity, nor sworn deceitfully.
5He shall receive the blessing from the Lord, and righteousness from the God of his salvation.
6This is the generation of them that seek him, that seek thy face, O Jacob. Selah.
7Lift up your heads, O ye gates; and be ye lift up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in.
8Who is this King of glory? The Lord strong and mighty, the Lord mighty in battle.
9Lift up your heads, O ye gates; even lift them up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in.
10Who is this King of glory? The Lord of hosts, he is the King of glory. Selah.


PSALM 42
As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God.
My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall I come and appear before God?
My tears have been my meat day and night, while they continually say unto me, Where is thy God?
When I remember these things, I pour out my soul in me: for I had gone with the multitude, I went with them to the house of God, with the voice of joy and praise, with a multitude that kept holyday.
Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted in me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance.
O my God, my soul is cast down within me: therefore will I remember thee from the land of Jordan, and of the Hermonites, from the hill Mizar.
Deep calleth unto deep at the noise of thy waterspouts: all thy waves and thy billows are gone over me.
Yet the Lord will command his lovingkindness in the day time, and in the night his song shall be with me, and my prayer unto the God of my life.
I will say unto God my rock, Why hast thou forgotten me? why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?
10 As with a sword in my bones, mine enemies reproach me; while they say daily unto me, Where is thy God?
11 Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.            





#NO WORRIES
         

Sunday, April 5, 2015

It is good to remember!

For about three days I have been thinking about my grandmother's Easter Lily's. Yesterday I felt an urgency to take them out of the back yard and move them to the front yard. This morning I noticed that the blooms that had began to open up had opened all the way. It was beautiful to see. I went to a funeral a while back. It was the funeral of someone very close to my family. My grandmother and her had been friends for many years and she was the mother in law of my cousin.It was so sad....God knew! The Pastor of the church that was speaking at the funeral was very, very old...he rolled up to the pulpit and started preaching very, very slowly  "Its good to remember" "While you have the full activity of your limbs, while you have a full head of hair, while you have all your teeth" I had to put my head down because I had started laughing. From tears to laughter. So today on Resurrection Sunday.. remember, remember God's sacrifice, remember his goodness, remember those in your life that you love. It is good to remember.

Thursday, April 2, 2015

Amazing Grace

I took my children out to eat tonight. My son dropped his drink and then while he was trying to pick his drink up he dropped his entire plate. I looked at the situation before us in horror and ended up dropping my drink. I wanted to scream from the embarrassment of it all. After everything was cleaned up my children politely sat down and started to eat. My son wanted to make sure his jell-o was replaced and my daughter wanted ketchup. They sat down and ate as if nothing happened. I had eaten earlier so I just got something to go for my older son. I sat and looked at my children and I was awestruck...what a perfect example of grace. Not the "shall I sin so that grace may abound" grace but the grace God freely gives us when we make a mistake.  This weekend is Easter....I thank God for the cross. I thank God that he sees the best in me and I thank God for grace. We get burdened down with shame and guilt but God knew all about our shortcomings and planned ahead of time and gave us the cross. I love you with the love of Christ. Happy Easter.

Sunday, March 29, 2015

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I went to the Stellar Awards in Vegas this past Saturday. It was a much needed trip. I took away so much. I am learning to look for the lesson or message in the events of my life. I can't put into words nor have I figured out the need to change your surroundings sometimes. When leaving the city or state that you live in could it be coming from under the principalities over that area gives you the opportunity to receive without interference...I don't know. What I do know is I have received clarity and direction each time I have went on vacation when I felt led to go on one. Going to the Stellar Awards led me to two conclusions; one I miss fellowship with my brothers and sisters in Christ (I currently do not have a church home) and the second is I am a black and white type person; I don't care for blurred lines! and that's all I'm gonna say about that. Being there reignited something in me. I am seeking God again. I really don't care what I must do to get to him. I don't mean a quick prayer; I mean I want t bask in his (Jesus') presence again. I want to dwell with him. My friend and I said that we were going to start traveling; for me it seems necessary. I think I need to remove myself from everything sometimes. I love you with the love of Christ. Be fruitful, Multiply, and have dominion.

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

AMOS 9

13 Behold,the days come, saith the LORD, that the plowman shall overtake the reaper, and the treader of grapes him that soweth seed; and the mountains shall drop sweet wine, and all the hills shall melt.

14 And I will bring again  the captivity of my people of Israel, and they shall build  the waste  cities, and inhabit them; and they shall plant  vineyards, and drink the wine thereof; they shall also make gardens, and eat the fruit of them.

15 And I will plant  them upon their land, and they shall no more be pulled up out of their land which I have given them, saith the LORD thy God.

Friday, February 6, 2015

WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF WE GOT ON ONE ACCORD?


                                                      UNSHAKEABLE

THE POEM I POSTED THIS PAST MONDAY I ORIGIONALLY POSTED IN 2011. WHEN I FOUND THIS SONG I FOUGHT BACK TEARS. I REMEMBER SHORTLY AFTER WRITING THE POEM HOW SOMEONE IN CHURCH PROPHESIED ABOUT GOD'S LOVE BEING UNSHAKEABLE. I SOBBED UNCONTROLLABLY...GOD WAS TELLING ME THROUGH HIS VESSEL THAT HE LOVED ME TOO AND HE ALWAYS WOULD. I MARVEL SOMETIMES ON HOW THE BODY OF CHRIST CAN BE ON DIFFERENT ENDS OF THE WORLD PREACHING; TEACHING; OR SINGING THE SAME MESSAGE.WHAT WOULD  HAPPEN IF WE GOT ON ONE ACCORD FOR REAL? WHAT IF WE SAID NOTHING WILL DIVIDE US  AND MEANT IT AND THEN CAME TOGETHER WITH PURPOSE...I WANT TO SEE.

Connected by C.L.P

Emerald eyes of Jealousy
Scale the vision of Reality
Causing us both not to See
That He that dwells in You
Does dwell in Me
Words that we should have used to Edify
We exchanged and Prophesied
Against each other but our Spirits Recognize
That We are Connected
The Communion that our Spirits Drink
Make us closer than We Think
We Are Connected
Creation is Groaning Moaning and Dying
Instead of Uniting
We look past the tears in each others eyes
And Continue to Divide the Body of Christ
We are Connected
The Enemy Loves the Confusion
That Causes the Body Internal Injury and Contusions
Together We Could Bruise Him!
We Are Connected
The true irony
Is my breakthrough could be in you
And yours in me
We affect each others Destiny
We Are Connected
Its time We chose to Unify
And become the Bride of Christ
We Are Connected
We are too busy being trapped behind the smoke screen
To understand what love your neighbor as you love yourself
Truly Means
We Are Connected
How Long
How Long Oh Lord
Until we are perfected
How long will the body be divided into sects
In Unity there is protection
But the body is plagued by the Infection
Of division
If we could turn from our wicked ways
And on one accord offer up
Perfected Praise
The glory of God's
Latter Rain would Bathe
The Bride of Christ Spotless
And make her worthy of his name
We Are Connected 

Monday, February 2, 2015

Unshakeable

I love you with an unshakable love
Though the wind is roaring
Though the storm is raging
My Love for you remains unchanged
My love for you is unshakable
Though my heart is aching
And hope seems to be fading
My love for you remains
It is unshakable
Past my tears
I smile at your beauty
Marveling at myself
My eyes take in the hell
Surrounding me
Frustration and Temptation
Dance in the twilight
Daring to overtake me
And if the quake should overtake me
If the trial should break me
In the pile unscathed
My love would remain unchanged
Past my reasoning
With my being
I love you Lord
Past my mind
Throughout Time
I love you Lord
Though I fall
If I must crawl
I will get to you love
My love is unshakable
Unbreakable
I need you Lord
How I long for a time
When chaos stops
And your hand is in mine
and we dance to the melody of my heart
My heart sings a song to yours
And your praises it pours and pours
I Love you Lord
Hope though fading endures
It only takes a grain
I am Yours
My Love is unshakable

Sunday, February 1, 2015

THE RACE


I CAME ACROSS AN OLD NOTEBOOK TONIGHT. IT WAS A NOTEBOOK I HAD STARTED TO RECORD THE THINGS I HEAR DURING FASTS. THAT ALMOST SOUNDS FOREIGN TO ME. I HAVE NOT BEEN ON A FAST IN A WHILE.ON THE COVER OF THE NOTEBOOK I HAD PUT A PICTURE OF A WOMAN CROUCHING DOWN GETTING READY TO START A RACE. AS I LOOKED AT THE COVER I HEARD "YOU STARTED WELL"...I FOUND GALATIONS 5:7 THAT SAID YOU DID RUN WELL...I HAVE BEEN SO DISTRACTED WITH THINGS GOING ON IN MY LIFE THAT I REALLY HAVEN'T TAKEN THE TIME TO SEE WHAT GOD WOULD HAVE ME TO DO; I DO THINGS HERE AND THERE BUT I HAVE NOT BEEN AS DEVOTED AS I SHOULD. I HAVE REALLY BEEN THINKING ABOUT TIME LATELY. I HAVE BEEN PRAYING FOR GOD TO FREE UP MY TIME AND HE HAS TOLD ME HE WOULD. I HAVE BEEN WANDERING WHERE I AM SUPPOSE TO BE; I HAVEN'T REALLY PRAYED LIKE I SHOULD ABOUT IT BUT I WILL. I KNOW THAT I AM VERY CLOSE TO SOMETHING AND THAT SOMETHING MAY BE THE ANSWER BUT EVERYTHING IN ME WANTS TO DO SOMETHING TO TRY TO MAKE IT COME FASTER WHICH WOULD PROBALLY RESULT IN WHAT I WANT AND NOT WHAT GOD PLANNED.  I KNOW THIS IS A TIME THAT I NEED TO FOLLOW INSTRUCTIONS AS THEY ARE GIVEN AND THEN BE STILL BUT I MUST SAY IT IS A CHALLENGE. I AM DETERMINED; WHETHER IT IS HARD OR NOT TO DO THE THINGS I KNOW TO DO AND TO WAIT ON GOD FOR FUTHER INSTRUCTION.


GALATIONS 5:7You did run well; who did hinder you that you should not obey the truth?

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

I DON'T AGREE

EARLIER THIS YEAR I WENT TO A CHURCH IN A NEIGHBORING CITY, AFTER THE SERVICE I TOLD THE PERSON I HAD GONE WITH THAT IN 2014 I AM GOING TO ALIGN MYSELF WITH PEOPLE WHO ARE FOR ME AND PEOPLE WHO GIVE ME WHAT I GIVE THEM. TOO MANY TIMES IN MY PAST I HAVE FOUGHT TO WIN PEOPLE OVER THAT IN ALL HONESTY DIDN'T LIKE ME OR WEREN'T FOR ME. THE PROCLAMATION I MADE THAT DAY IS COMING TRUE IN THE LAST MONTHS OF THIS YEAR. GOD HAS PLACED PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THAT ALWAYS THINK OF ME; THAT CALL; COME TO MY AID; AND EDIFY ME...FOR WHATEVER REASON THOSE AREN'T THE PEOPLE I GENERALLY GRAVITATE TOWARD. YESTERDAY I HAD TASK AFTER TASK THAT I NEEDED TO DO RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD AND THEN SOMEONE CALLED. THE PERSON ON THE OTHER END OF THE PHONE ASKED WHAT I WAS DOING AND WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT IT I READ HER THE LIST IN MY MIND; HER REACTION WAS TO COMPLETE ONE OF THE TASKS ON MY LIST. THIS ACT OF KINDNESS FREED UP ABOUT AN HOUR AND A HALF OF MY TIME. I THOUGHT ON THINGS THAT I COULD DO AND I HEARD THE SPIRIT OF THE LORD TELL ME TO STOP; GOD DID NOT WANT ME TO USE THE EXTRA TIME LIKE THAT. I ENDED UP GOING BY THE WATER AND READING AND I STARTED READING A BOOK I HAD FOR YEARS AND HAD NOT READ. I HAVE READ OTHER BOOKS BUT SOMEHOW I KNEW THIS WAS THE TIME I NEEDED TO READ THIS ONE. THE BOOK TALKED ABOUT REACHING YOUR DESTINY AND AFTER I READ A LITTLE I THOUGHT ABOUT MY DESTINY. I THOUGHT OF THE ROAD BLOCKS AND OBSTACLES AND I THOUGHT OF THE THINGS THAT SHOULD HAVE WORKED OUT AND DIDN'T AND THEN I CAME TO A REVELATION THAT I HAVE HAD BEFORE. A LOT OF THE THINGS THAT SHOULD HAVE WORKED OUT DID NOT WORK OUT BECAUSE OF THE WORDS SPOKEN AGAINST ME. I THOUGHT ON ALL OF THE PEOPLE THAT HAD SOWN NEGATIVE SEEDS IN MY LIFE. I THOUGHT ON HOW I ALLOWED AND ACCEPTED IT AND I MADE ANOTHER PROCLAMATION...NO MORE. GOD HAS PLACED PEOPLE AROUND ME WHO BELIEVE IN ME; WHO WILL TELL ME THE TRUTH IN LOVE. THERE IS A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN SOMEONE THAT TELLS YOU SOMETHING THAT WILL MOVE YOU TO CHANGE AND SOMEONE THAT BEATS YOU DOWN WITH THEIR WORDS...CONVICTION VERSES CONDEMANTION. I THOUGHT ON AN SITUATION THAT I FOUND MYSELF IN WHERE THE PERSON I WAS TALKING TO REHERSED NEGATIVE POINT AFTER POINT AND I COULD TELL THEY WANTED ME TO AGREE  AND I  DIDN'T AGREE ,SO I FINALLY SAID "THIS IS WHAT I SEE...THIS IS WHAT I THINK....NOW CAN WE MOVE ON TO A SOLUTION." I UNDERSTAND THE NEED TO BE FIRM AND ADDRESS SITUATIONS WHEN NEEDED BUT IF YOU THINK OVER RELATIONSHIPS IN YOUR LIFE AND FIND THAT SOMEONE IS FAR MORE NEGATIVE THAN POSITIVE REGARDING YOU AND WHAT THEY THINK ABOUT YOU IT MAY BE TIME TO REEVALUATE THAT RELATIONSHIP AND SURROUND YOURSELF WITH PEOPLE WHO THINK WELL OF YOU AND FOREMOST MAKE SURE YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST IS WHERE IT SHOULD BE AND BELIEVE WHAT HE SAYS ABOUT YOU.

Amos 3:3 KJV 

Can two walk together, except they be agreed ?

Saturday, October 4, 2014

I WON'T BE STOPPED.

Last week God led me to go by the water. While I was there he began to talk to me about the natural and spirit realm. God began to talk to me about how people separated the two but how they were really seamless. He began to talk to me about sickness. My calling is in the deliverance ministry. I am sad to say I am not operating in what level of anointing I should be operating in. It  seems as if every time God is revealing his mysteries or I am walking with him as I should there is a setback of some sort; an attack; a hurt; an injury that derails me. While I was sitting by the water God began to talk to me about the connection between the spirit and body. He began to reveal how when the body is deficient in certain vitamins and minerals disease enters in and how when the body is healthy and fortified and there is a surplus of vitamins and minerals disease can't enter. I am reminded about certain principles like how creatures of the night don't like to come out in the day or how certain insects and rodents don't dwell in clean environments. Likewise if our body is clean and healthy it can ward off disease. I know that God wanted to go more in depth with these principles but I became distracted. I thought on today about the attacks...the attacks on worship; the attacks on faith; the attacks against unity in the body of Christ and how the devil will do absolutely anything to keep us from operating in the gifting and calling that God has called us to operate in because if we do we can snatch souls out of the hell they are in and introduce them to Christ and the devil loses his hold on that person. I thought about how many times I had allowed myself to be derailed. How I let some attack cause me to draw back. I am determined to seek God for my greatest deliverance...my deliverance from people; the need to be accepted and loved by them that dates back from insecurities that entered in during my childhood. I am loved by God and accepted in the heavenlies; he has called me to do great things on his behalf; he has told me his mysteries since I was a child; why? I don't know; I don't feel worthy or deserving but maybe that's just it. So many people become puffed up and prideful thinking that they or who they approve of are the only ones used by God but God will use who he chooses to use. In these last days our focus should be on souls. I am determined to be who God has called me to be. When I experience a disappointment I will worship him for my breakthrough and when I am attacked through a person I will go out of my way to show someone the love of God. I won't stop; I won't quit...I will have what God says I will have; I will be who he says I am; I will be an instrument that he uses to change the world...Let us change the world.
Isaiah 61
1 The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted , to proclaim liberty to the captives , and the opening of the prison to them that are bound ; 2 To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn; 3 To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified . 4 And they shall build the old wastes, they shall raise up the former desolations , and they shall repair the waste cities, the desolations of many generations. 5 And strangers shall stand and feed your flocks, and the sons of the alien shall be your plowmen and your vinedressers. 6 But ye shall be named the Priests of the LORD: men shall call you the Ministers of our God: ye shall eat the riches of the Gentiles, and in their glory shall ye boast yourselves. 7 For your shame ye shall have double; and for confusion they shall rejoice in their portion: therefore in their land they shall possess the double: everlasting joy shall be unto them. 8 For I the LORD love judgment, I hate robbery for burnt offering; and I will direct their work in truth, and I will make an everlasting covenant with them. 9 And their seed shall be known among the Gentiles, and their offspring among the people: all that see them shall acknowledge them, that they are the seed which the LORD hath blessed . 10 I will greatly rejoice in the LORD, my soul shall be joyful in my God; for he hath clothed me with the garments of salvation, he hath covered me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decketh himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorneth herself with her jewels. 11 For as the earth bringeth forth her bud, and as the garden causeth the things that are sown in it to spring forth ; so the Lord GOD will cause righteousness and praise to spring forth before all the nations.   

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Distractions

Today I went to prayer and the speaker began to talk about distractions and how the devil will use subtle things to steal your attention and cause you to miss something God has for you. While she was speaking a dream I had years ago came to me. In the dream I was in a store and a woman walked up to me and started to prophesy she carried such an anointing that I was frozen; taking in every word. Out of no where a woman walked up and started a random conversation; normally I would listen, trying not to hurt someone's feeling but somehow I knew that her purpose was to keep this woman from telling me what I needed to hear. I told the person that had interrupted the prophesy that she was a distraction and I would not let her keep me from getting what God had for me. The lady who had interrupted us began to manifest (demonically) and the devil was exposed. In this season don't be fooled out of your destiny; pray and watch!

Matthew 26:41
Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

An Expected End...God is Faithful

I saw another rainbow today and I thought about God's promises. My co-workers and I got into a conversation today about people knowing when they were going to pass. I told them about the experience with my father; finding him with his arms folded and his burial clothes laid out on the bed in the next room. I told her how I had asked God a hard thing; I had asked him for the salvation of my family and how God told me that he would do it for me even if it was just the space to repent. God is so very faithful. It is human nature to not want to feel like you have no control so when God puts you in a situation that you can't do anything it is sometimes difficult to handle but if we stop and think we have to admit God's goodness...we have to admit his faithfulness. God is faithful and that won't change.

Lukewarm by Grace

Psalm 23

Psalm 91

Mother and Child