Monday, October 3, 2016

Monday, September 26, 2016

Saturday, September 24, 2016

More Than Conquerors

Romans 8
28And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
29For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.
30Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified.
31What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?
32He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?
33Who shall lay any thing to the charge of God's elect? It is God that justifieth.
34Who is he that condemneth? It is Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us.
35Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?
36As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.
37Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us.
38For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
39Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Monday, September 5, 2016


The bond between a mother and child is the first and most important bond. What happens when that bond doesn't form or is deficient in some way? I think it creates a trauma and a void in that child that can only be healed by God. I suffered that trauma...the bond was there but it was defecient. It gave way to rejection and I still deal with rejection but I am believing God for deliverance. I don't want to continue to be in a place where the right person saying the wrong thing can cause me to go on an emotional rollercoaster. It's time to be made whole.

Monday, August 1, 2016


I remember how I had prayer routes and places that I would go to pray and worship. I would often see something special during the time I would go. Today I visited a spot I used to visit when I wanted seclusion. Two songs came on the internet station I was listening to that had a message about God's love for us. It drew a song from me. I look forward to more moments like this in days to come. I pray that song will break forth from the spirits of God's people.

Friday, July 29, 2016

The Promise is Close

Today I looked up and saw what had to be at least the third rainbow I have seen this week. Earlier this week I came across something I had written in a journal a little over a year ago....I would like to share it: "I feel like I am waiting on a ship that doesn't have a specified arrival time (not one that I know of anyway). I find myself by the water thinking that any minute now my ship could come in, but every now and then the hope that has been deferred makes my heart sick because of the realization that it doesn't have to be any moment. Truth be told if the appointed time hasn't been declared to be now, whose to say it isn't a thousand years from now? one day is as a thousand years. Where does that leave me? It leaves me here in the present and today I choose to sit by the water hoping on suddenly. Hoping suddenly before I leave my ship will appear in the distance."

Today as I sit by the water I feel like my promise is closer than it was before and my ship is about to reach the shore.

Monday, July 11, 2016

Back to the Old Landmarks

I love dreaming about church. Last night I dreamed about my childhood church. I woke up this morning and drove past it; it gave me joy to think about the times we had and I had to laugh when I thought about how we were always made to recite the church info; now that I am an adult I see the wisdom in it..."First Church Emmanuel of Redeemed Saints 1305 West Scott St...(lol)." In the dream my cousin and I were standing on the outside of the church and there were dark clouds above it and it looked like it was about to storm. My cousin pointed up smiling and said "look at that rainbow". I couldn't see it at first and I told her there wasn't one there, but she kept looking and smiling so I kept looking too and then I saw it through the clouds...a rainbow just as she had first I saw a little bit of it...and as I kept looking I saw more. It was beautiful. Emmanuel...God is with us; especially through the storms of life. We only have to keep looking at him. (l really love rainbows...through it all I still and always will really love God).

Thursday, June 2, 2016

Revelation...revealed and uncovered

Today; my post comes from a place that is new to me. A place where God is speaking and revealing but doing so at a time I find strange. There were times that I felt like I had it together....not now. There were times that I felt I was close to God...not now. Yet God is still speaking...yet God is still revealing. God told me not long ago he needed what he had put in response was a question... now? in this weak state? There were times that I prayed and saw physical manifestations in the physical realm...not now. Now I feel weak, now I feel why now? Perhaps because now God can truly get the glory. I never wanted the applause and a platform...I did want the approval and the affection of a few though; at this point even that doesn't matter. I just want to be in a place at the feet of God. God is coming for his talents. I don't know what is about to happen but I feel it will be something major and soon. Today I was on my way to the mall and I ran over a snake that had slithered onto the highway and it gave me a reason to pause...God is going to expose and deal with the enemies even those that were hidden. Yesterday I saw an accident...I had to leave out another way and I saw a homeless man with binoculars looking in the direction of the accident laughing so hard it was chilling when he saw me he stopped laughing...I thought to myself what is this? I keep seeing 1018. What does it all mean? I feel it shall soon be revealed.

Monday, May 16, 2016

Tuesday, December 1, 2015


The other day God asked me to do something that did not seem logical. I thought it over and thought it over and although it didn't make sense to my natural mind I knew I had heard God so I did it. After I had completed the task, I thought about other times God had told me to do something I did not understand...that did not make sense in the natural; sometimes I did what was asked of me and sometimes I didn't (I thought it over until I talked myself out of doing it). Then I had a real moment...a moment where I had to be real with myself and I thought how many times had God given me (and other Christians) the unction to do something and I (we) didn't for whatever reason and the thought brought me to the question:what if we as Christians are the ones holding up each others prayers from being answered? I am going to be transparent today...God has told me to do some very specific things as they regarded other people; the times I was obedient the outcome was so much more than I imagined but what about the times when I didn't do what I was suppose to?

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Know the Bible for Yourself.

Last night I was in what felt like the in between of a dream and reality. When I have these experiences it is more like being in the spirit realm than in a the past when I have had these "dreams" and was in some sort of battle I woke up exhausted as if I had really been fighting. When I woke up I knew I had to do something about the dream. In times past I would pray and warfare. Today I didn't know what to do and I decided to just tell the person the dream and the beautiful part about it was that the dream gave the person the answer "Know the bible for yourself". This place in time is very different but one thing remains constant...God is faithful and he is still leading and guiding.

John 1:1
1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

Sunday, November 1, 2015


This morning I went by the water and God began to deal with me about my being able to receive his love. He began to deal with me about the fact that I still deal with the spirit of rejection and I came to the realization that in a lot of ways I am still that child searching for validation. God said "From conception to eternity to more...I have always loved you. You put man's opinion to high. It overthrew your view of my love for you. You believed a lie. My love for you is not is unchanging it remains. I will heal your brokenness. Rejection has made you embrace a lie and reject the truth. My little lost child I have found you worthy of my love though you may not understand why...I love you. I will reveal the mysteries of your spirit...what you know and don't know you know. My love is deep, my love is wide, my love is boundless, it is limitless, it is sure, it is pure, it is holy, it is is yours if you will accept it. My love is unshakeable." When God told me that his love was unshakeable it brought to mind the poem I had written for him and I thought about the fact that some way I ended up subconsciously questioning his love for me. The devil has fooled so many people into thinking no one loves them...even God at some level. Today I am encouraged and I encourage you to be the expression of God's love. Us showing God's love will expose the lies of the devil as lies.

I love you with an unshakable love
Though the wind is roaring
Though the storm is raging
My Love for you remains unchanged
My love for you is unshakable
Though my heart is aching
And hope seems to be fading
My love for you remains
It is unshakable
Past my tears
I smile at your beauty
Marveling at myself
My eyes take in the hell
Surrounding me
Frustration and Temptation
Dance in the twilight
Daring to overtake me
And if the quake should overtake me
If the trial should break me
In the pile unscathed
My love would remain unchanged
Past my reasoning
With my being
I love you Lord
Past my mind
Throughout Time
I love you Lord
Though I fall
If I must crawl
I will get to you love
My love is unshakable
I need you Lord
How I long for a time
When chaos stops
And your hand is in mine
and we dance to the melody of my heart
My heart sings a song to yours
And your praises it pours and pours
I Love you Lord
Hope though fading endures
It only takes a grain
I am Yours
My Love is unshakable
1 Corinthians 13
1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not charity, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal.

3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned , and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing.

4 Charity suffereth long , and is kind ; charity envieth not; charity vauntetha not itself , is not puffed up ,

5 Doth not behave itself unseemly , seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked , thinketh no evil;

6 Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;b

8 Charity never faileth : but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail ;c whether there be tongues, they shall cease ; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away .

10 But when that which is perfect is come , then that which is in part shall be done away .d

11 When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thoughte as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

12 For now we see through a glass, darkly * ;f but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known .

Sunday, October 18, 2015

Release and let go!

I have a bit of a confession...sharing it requires that I allow myself to be vunerable and today I can say that, that is okay. My grandmother was cremated. Everyone that was close to her knew her wishes. My mother and I spread most of her ashes after her death. I kept some and replanted her Easter Lillies with them. I kept the last of them saying I was going to plant a tree and put the rest of them there. Last night God began to deal with me about the remaining ashes. I had been justifying keeping them. I feel that God was patient as long as he was because of my state, but last night it was as if he said's time to let go. Today is my birthday; when I woke up a friend had tied balloons to my car. I took four of the balloons and went to one of my prayer spots with the last of the ashes. I prayed, sang, spread the rest of the ashes in the water, and then released the balloons. When I got into the car I felt different. After I drove down the road I noticed one of the balloons was still in the car and I stopped the car and let it go too. I said I wonder why that one was left. I had reached in the back of the car when taking the balloons out; how I missed that one is amazing. When I let the final balloon go I began to pray again "God I don't just let her go but I let go of every hurt, every dissapointment, every offense, every time someone wronged me...I choose to let it go...God I need your me to let it go". I believe something broke today I believe something changed. It's a bit grim but when you lose someone that close to your reason and reality can become a bit shaken. I decided to let it all go and to love freely. Today with the help of the Lord and the Holy Spirit I choose to let go and forgive. People are people...we make mistakes. I take confidence in knowing that God's love for me is perfect and because of that I have the strength to love and trust because I know that God's plans for me are good and he will protect me. Thank God for change. I love you with the love of Jesus Christ.Amen.

Sunday, September 27, 2015

I don't agree with some of the lyrics but I couldn't think of a better song to express how I feel.

Friday, September 25, 2015

The Glory of the Lord is Coming

    Today I started reading a book that I read some years ago "Pursuing the Glory".  I am only on the introduction but it is already proving to be a powerful right now message. Here is an excerpt from the Introduction: " There is soon to be a collision between the heavenly and earthly realm. The barrier that has separated the two realms is being destroyed."

 Psalm 24
24 The earth is the Lord's, and the fullness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein.
For he hath founded it upon the seas, and established it upon the floods.
Who shall ascend into the hill of the Lord? or who shall stand in his holy place?
He that hath clean hands, and a pure heart; who hath not lifted up his soul unto vanity, nor sworn deceitfully.
He shall receive the blessing from the Lord, and righteousness from the God of his salvation.
This is the generation of them that seek him, that seek thy face, O Jacob. Selah.
Lift up your heads, O ye gates; and be ye lift up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in.
Who is this King of glory? The Lord strong and mighty, the Lord mighty in battle.
Lift up your heads, O ye gates; even lift them up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in.
10 Who is this King of glory? The Lord of hosts, he is the King of glory. Selah.              

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

It's Not Over!

I am glad that I have a good sense of humor. Laughter has gotten me through some difficult times. Today I went by the water and I got out of the car and as I was walking under a tree my hat got caught in the branches...I had washed my hair and it was in was combed but not exactly in a flattering style...I laughed out loud and said thank God I had hair under my hat! We have a lot to be thankful for so today as I await the start of Yom Kippur (Day of Atonement) at sundown I have a laugh in my soul and heart knowing that God is for me and it is not over!

Friday, September 18, 2015

I went to a local prayer garden was wonderful. I began to wonder if there were more in the area and then God began to instruct me to begin my own. I loved my time with God of the things I got was it is time to seek God's face because there are dark days to come but if you seek God's face he will be the light; night will be as day before you.

Lukewarm by Grace

Psalm 23

Psalm 91

Mother and Child