Monday, May 16, 2016

Tuesday, December 1, 2015


The other day God asked me to do something that did not seem logical. I thought it over and thought it over and although it didn't make sense to my natural mind I knew I had heard God so I did it. After I had completed the task, I thought about other times God had told me to do something I did not understand...that did not make sense in the natural; sometimes I did what was asked of me and sometimes I didn't (I thought it over until I talked myself out of doing it). Then I had a real moment...a moment where I had to be real with myself and I thought how many times had God given me (and other Christians) the unction to do something and I (we) didn't for whatever reason and the thought brought me to the question:what if we as Christians are the ones holding up each others prayers from being answered? I am going to be transparent today...God has told me to do some very specific things as they regarded other people; the times I was obedient the outcome was so much more than I imagined but what about the times when I didn't do what I was suppose to?

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Know the Bible for Yourself.

Last night I was in what felt like the in between of a dream and reality. When I have these experiences it is more like being in the spirit realm than in a the past when I have had these "dreams" and was in some sort of battle I woke up exhausted as if I had really been fighting. When I woke up I knew I had to do something about the dream. In times past I would pray and warfare. Today I didn't know what to do and I decided to just tell the person the dream and the beautiful part about it was that the dream gave the person the answer "Know the bible for yourself". This place in time is very different but one thing remains constant...God is faithful and he is still leading and guiding.

John 1:1
1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

Sunday, November 1, 2015


This morning I went by the water and God began to deal with me about my being able to receive his love. He began to deal with me about the fact that I still deal with the spirit of rejection and I came to the realization that in a lot of ways I am still that child searching for validation. God said "From conception to eternity to more...I have always loved you. You put man's opinion to high. It overthrew your view of my love for you. You believed a lie. My love for you is not is unchanging it remains. I will heal your brokenness. Rejection has made you embrace a lie and reject the truth. My little lost child I have found you worthy of my love though you may not understand why...I love you. I will reveal the mysteries of your spirit...what you know and don't know you know. My love is deep, my love is wide, my love is boundless, it is limitless, it is sure, it is pure, it is holy, it is is yours if you will accept it. My love is unshakeable." When God told me that his love was unshakeable it brought to mind the poem I had written for him and I thought about the fact that some way I ended up subconsciously questioning his love for me. The devil has fooled so many people into thinking no one loves them...even God at some level. Today I am encouraged and I encourage you to be the expression of God's love. Us showing God's love will expose the lies of the devil as lies.

I love you with an unshakable love
Though the wind is roaring
Though the storm is raging
My Love for you remains unchanged
My love for you is unshakable
Though my heart is aching
And hope seems to be fading
My love for you remains
It is unshakable
Past my tears
I smile at your beauty
Marveling at myself
My eyes take in the hell
Surrounding me
Frustration and Temptation
Dance in the twilight
Daring to overtake me
And if the quake should overtake me
If the trial should break me
In the pile unscathed
My love would remain unchanged
Past my reasoning
With my being
I love you Lord
Past my mind
Throughout Time
I love you Lord
Though I fall
If I must crawl
I will get to you love
My love is unshakable
I need you Lord
How I long for a time
When chaos stops
And your hand is in mine
and we dance to the melody of my heart
My heart sings a song to yours
And your praises it pours and pours
I Love you Lord
Hope though fading endures
It only takes a grain
I am Yours
My Love is unshakable
1 Corinthians 13
1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, and have not charity, I am become as sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal.

3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned , and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing.

4 Charity suffereth long , and is kind ; charity envieth not; charity vauntetha not itself , is not puffed up ,

5 Doth not behave itself unseemly , seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked , thinketh no evil;

6 Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth;b

8 Charity never faileth : but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail ;c whether there be tongues, they shall cease ; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away .

10 But when that which is perfect is come , then that which is in part shall be done away .d

11 When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thoughte as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.

12 For now we see through a glass, darkly * ;f but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known .

Sunday, October 18, 2015

Release and let go!

I have a bit of a confession...sharing it requires that I allow myself to be vunerable and today I can say that, that is okay. My grandmother was cremated. Everyone that was close to her knew her wishes. My mother and I spread most of her ashes after her death. I kept some and replanted her Easter Lillies with them. I kept the last of them saying I was going to plant a tree and put the rest of them there. Last night God began to deal with me about the remaining ashes. I had been justifying keeping them. I feel that God was patient as long as he was because of my state, but last night it was as if he said's time to let go. Today is my birthday; when I woke up a friend had tied balloons to my car. I took four of the balloons and went to one of my prayer spots with the last of the ashes. I prayed, sang, spread the rest of the ashes in the water, and then released the balloons. When I got into the car I felt different. After I drove down the road I noticed one of the balloons was still in the car and I stopped the car and let it go too. I said I wonder why that one was left. I had reached in the back of the car when taking the balloons out; how I missed that one is amazing. When I let the final balloon go I began to pray again "God I don't just let her go but I let go of every hurt, every dissapointment, every offense, every time someone wronged me...I choose to let it go...God I need your me to let it go". I believe something broke today I believed something changed. It's a bit grim but when you lose someone that close to you reason and reality can become a bit shaken. I decided to let it all go and to love freely. Today with the help of the Lord and the Holy Spirit I choose to let go and forgive. People are people...we make mistakes. I take confidence in knowing that God's love for me is perfect and because of that I have the strength to love and trust because I know that God's plans for me are good and he will protect me. Thank God for change. I love you with the love of Jesus Christ.Amen.

Sunday, September 27, 2015

I don't agree with some of the lyrics but I couldn't think of a better song to express how I feel.

Friday, September 25, 2015

The Glory of the Lord is Coming

    Today I started reading a book that I read some years ago "Pursuing the Glory".  I am only on the introduction but it is already proving to be a powerful right now message. Here is an excerpt from the Introduction: " There is soon to be a collision between the heavenly and earthly realm. The barrier that has separated the two realms is being destroyed."

 Psalm 24
24 The earth is the Lord's, and the fullness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein.
For he hath founded it upon the seas, and established it upon the floods.
Who shall ascend into the hill of the Lord? or who shall stand in his holy place?
He that hath clean hands, and a pure heart; who hath not lifted up his soul unto vanity, nor sworn deceitfully.
He shall receive the blessing from the Lord, and righteousness from the God of his salvation.
This is the generation of them that seek him, that seek thy face, O Jacob. Selah.
Lift up your heads, O ye gates; and be ye lift up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in.
Who is this King of glory? The Lord strong and mighty, the Lord mighty in battle.
Lift up your heads, O ye gates; even lift them up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in.
10 Who is this King of glory? The Lord of hosts, he is the King of glory. Selah.              

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

It's Not Over!

I am glad that I have a good sense of humor. Laughter has gotten me through some difficult times. Today I went by the water and I got out of the car and as I was walking under a tree my hat got caught in the branches...I had washed my hair and it was in was combed but not exactly in a flattering style...I laughed out loud and said thank God I had hair under my hat! We have a lot to be thankful for so today as I await the start of Yom Kippur (Day of Atonement) at sundown I have a laugh in my soul and heart knowing that God is for me and it is not over!

Friday, September 18, 2015

I went to a local prayer garden was wonderful. I began to wonder if there were more in the area and then God began to instruct me to begin my own. I loved my time with God of the things I got was it is time to seek God's face because there are dark days to come but if you seek God's face he will be the light; night will be as day before you.

Sunday, September 13, 2015

It's Rosh Hashanah; the Jewish "head of the year" or New Year. It was my goal to make it to the water before the sun went down. I did not make it to see the sunset and I was extremely aggrivated and then I came to a place of peace simply knowing that today is a New Beginning and I am by the water....not when I wanted but I am here just the same. God is faithful.

Thursday, September 10, 2015

This is the view from one of my prayer spots. There are places that I like to go and pray; I also have prayer routes that I like to drive. They are almost always by water. One day I will live by the water and I will sit on my porch taking in the beauty of God's creation. In the meantime thank God that I still have access.

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Thursday, September 3, 2015

My older son called me yesterday and said he needed to talk. When I got there he started off by saying "I had a dream..." I cut him off and said " I know you didn't call me to come way over here to tell me something you could have told me over the phone...we laughed and he said"no this is different ". I told him to tell me and he began to tell me that he had dreamed I was building a house and people kept stealing material....he said it was like they didn't know what they were doing but their doing it still prevented the construction of the house. He said then these people who were very different and from their appearance looked like misfits came and told the people stealing the material that they had better stop, and then there started to be progress in the construction of the house and the house was eventually finished. That dream has been ony mind since he told me. It makes me think of how important it is to choose who you have around you carefully because just like in his dream even if the people around you unconsciously hinder your vision or goals it still slows the process of construction. What then is the solution? For me its a simple prayer of Lord bring those who will.

Thursday, August 27, 2015


Someone walked up car while I was in the drive thru of a fast food restaurant and asked me to  call 911 for them. I did (of course). His walking up to my car when there were others he could have gone to was humbling and encouraging. If people close to you, estranged, or strangers come to you when they need help its because they see something in you.
Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hid.

Wednesday, August 26, 2015

I woke up around four not feeling that well I thought I was just coming down with something but then I began to hear the voice of the enemy telling me negative things so I said okay this is warfare and got up. I began to read the bible and I felt better soon afterwards. I began to think about a lot of times things have no power unless you agree and then I began to think on the power God has entrusted us with...what are we doing with it? Are we speaking life? I also thought on how the enemy uses division against the body. I thought of the power of the words of a believer. I thought on how we must be careful. I thought on spiritual principles. I am thankful for the Holy Spirit and guidance. I thought about times I said what I shouldn't. I thought on believers essentially working against each other. I thought about parents often have to resolve fights between siblings about how just like God a lot of parents will have the child see their wrong in the matter. God is good.

Monday, August 24, 2015

Speak Life

God has been dealing with me about alot of the things. One of which is praying blessings over my children. I used to do it all the time. I would pray with them, anoint them, pray over them while they were sleeping and pray blessings over them and have them pray blessings over me. I got away from that and alot of other things I know to do.  Today is a new day... Let's begin.
Proverbs 18:21
Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.

Sunday, August 23, 2015

A wonderful change

Something changed in me today. I don't fully know what all it entails...but something is different. I felt something open and I know things will never be the same.

Lukewarm by Grace

Psalm 23

Psalm 91

Mother and Child