Impossible Possibility?

It's Rosh Hashanah; the Jewish "head of the year" or New Year. It was my goal to make it to the water before the sun went down. I did not make it to see the sunset and I was extremely aggrivated and then I came to a place of peace simply knowing that today is a New Beginning and I am by the water....not when I wanted but I am here just the same. God is faithful.

This is the view from one of my prayer spots. There are places that I like to go and pray; I also have prayer routes that I like to drive. They are almost always by water. One day I will live by the water and I will sit on my porch taking in the beauty of God's creation. In the meantime thank God that I still have access.

My older son called me yesterday and said he needed to talk. When I got there he started off by saying "I had a dream..." I cut him off and said " I know you didn't call me to come way over here to tell me something you could have told me over the phone...we laughed and he said"no this is different ". I told him to tell me and he began to tell me that he had dreamed I was building a house and people kept stealing material....he said it was like they didn't know what they were doing but their doing it still prevented the construction of the house. He said then these people who were very different and from their appearance looked like misfits came and told the people stealing the material that they had better stop, and then there started to be progress in the construction of the house and the house was eventually finished. That dream has been ony mind since he told me. It makes me think of how important it is to choose who you have around you carefully because just like in his dream even if the people around you unconsciously hinder your vision or goals it still slows the process of construction. What then is the solution? For me its a simple prayer of Lord bring those who will.

Light

Someone walked up to.my car while I was in the drive thru of a fast food restaurant and asked me to  call 911 for them. I did (of course). His walking up to my car when there were others he could have gone to was humbling and encouraging. If people close to you, estranged, or strangers come to you when they need help its because they see something in you.
Matthew
Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hid.

I woke up around four not feeling that well I thought I was just coming down with something but then I began to hear the voice of the enemy telling me negative things so I said okay this is warfare and got up. I began to read the bible and I felt better soon afterwards. I began to think about alot...how a lot of times things have no power unless you agree and then I began to think on the power God has entrusted us with...what are we doing with it? Are we speaking life? I also thought on how the enemy uses division against the body. I thought of the power of the words of a believer. I thought on how we must be careful. I thought on spiritual principles. I am thankful for the Holy Spirit and guidance. I thought about times I said what I shouldn't. I thought on believers essentially working against each other. I thought about parenting...how parents often have to resolve fights between siblings about how just like God a lot of parents will have the child see their wrong in the matter. God is good.

Speak Life

God has been dealing with me about alot of the things. One of which is praying blessings over my children. I used to do it all the time. I would pray with them, anoint them, pray over them while they were sleeping and pray blessings over them and have them pray blessings over me. I got away from that and alot of other things I know to do.  Today is a new day... Let's begin.
Proverbs 18:21
Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.

A wonderful change

Something changed in me today. I don't fully know what all it entails...but something is different. I felt something open and I know things will never be the same.

It's Time

Yesterday my friend and I were riding and talking and I told her that although I was in an uncomfortable place I had to admit that good was coming from it.I told her my faith was being restored. I use to ride around looking at houses; I would pick out the ones I liked. Once I picked out a waterfront home that was located in the downtown area of the city that I live in; I really liked it. I had a realtor give me a viewing of the home. I told her that I was an author (I am although I had only started this blog at that time). After a while I got the courage to tell someone and I was shocked by their response ...it was, you can have it....anyone else would have used reason and asked me the questions about things that need to be in place when purchasing a home like: what is your income?, what is your credit score?; how much money do you have toward your down payment?...none of these questions were asked and having this person believe with me built my faith. I am looking, and believing God for what seems impossible again. Last night I heard a speaker speak on faith. It was awesome and a confirmation "God is up to something good". My signature for my phone this year is " Great things in 2015" and I believe it. :)
 I drove by the water today...last night the preacher said "Cast your bread on the water..." I wanted to see it in the natural so I went to feed the birds... they were all the way on the other side of the beach...I began to throw the bread and then I said to myself "okay get off the bench and stand up to throw it'...after a while one bird came to eat the bread, soon there were many. It is time to reap; the things done by faith were not done in vain.
Ecclesiastes 11:1 Cast thy bread upon the waters:for thou shalt find it after many days

SPEAK LORD!

You know you have heard a good word when it makes you go pray!

Purpose

This week God has began to deal with me about using my time purposefully. Feeling the way I have been feeling, the only way I can see being able to do this is to make a list of the things I need to do...it feels funny having to write the list. I used to write these kind of lists because I was doing so much it was easier just to complete a task then cross it out; now I have an abundance of time but a lack of will to complete the tasks. I wrote my list today as I sat by the water....one of the things I love to do that is different now. I sat feeling like I was waiting. Waiting for my ship to come in, waiting on purpose and direction. What do you do while waiting? You do what you know to do; pray, exercise your gifts, complete the things you know you need to complete... if you are having a hard time doing those things write them down and purposely schedule some time to do them. Whatever we do we must keep moving we can't get where we need to go standing still.

Fish Out of Water

Various times in my life God would give me a sign that he was with me; that he heard me; that he loved me. One of those signs was a fish jumping out of water. So today as I sit looking out of my mother's window looking at the view my grandmother once loved I feel kind of torn. Fish after fish are jumping in the air but it kind of hurts. It kind of reminds me of a parent putting alcohol on a scrape; it makes it better but it still hurts and it reminds you that you are injured. My grandmother passed on Mother's Day...she was ready. I heard her say it. I wasn't ready. How can you say goodbye to someone that close to you? It was selfish to want her to stay. Her health was fading; she couldn't do the things she loved to do anymore; most of all she was very independent so when the time came that so many of the things we take for granted required assistance for her, it was very hard. I still wasn't ready. I still liked to call. I still liked to come to her house and see her; it was so comforting to me. It made me feel safe. It made me feel secure. So as I sit and look out at the water and continue to see the fish jump part of me is happy because I know it is well with her; the other part shrinks back from the fact that someone so very special to me is gone. A week or two before my grandmother passed a group that I am involved with gave me a list to pick ten questions to answer from as a way to get to know me and others better. One of the questions I chose: "If you could eat dinner with anyone dead or living who would it be?" My answer...My father (deceased);My cousin (deceased); My grandmother's best friend(deceased); and my grandmother (living). I thought of the joy she would feel to see my cousin, and her best friend (she may have been alright seeing my father too...lol). I take comfort in knowing that she is having her dinner party and not only did the guest list include those I chose but it also included her husband, her mother, her father, her sister, her brother, her godmother, her uncle and others gone before her. Even in loss God is faithful; that won't change.

Finish the work...there is an expected end.

Today my mom called to tell me that my grandmother was back in the hospital. I felt an urgency to plant something. I decided on sunflowers and then I remembered I had blogged and posted a picture of  some sunflowers I had grown before. I looked back and found the post. May 12th of 2011 I had blogged about my grandmother being in the hospital and on May 16th I had posted a picture of the sunflowers I had planted. I can't explain what is going on right now in my life. I have been given some instructions and I know that my obedience will determine some key elements in the outcome of my future. I know that I must finish; no matter how tired; no matter what is going on around me. I must complete the work.

Lift up your head...hope thou in God

I don't know and I don't need to know. I will share with you what I do know...God's thoughts toward you are good and not evil; you have an expected end. I don't care what it looks like. I don't care how it may seem. God can walk you through anything. I speak life over you. I decree and declare your hope will be restored. Hope in God...in God. I decree and declare you are hidden in Christ Jesus. Be encouraged in the Lord today he is worthy and faithful to carry out his promises.


 PSALM 24

A Psalm of David.

1The earth is the Lord's, and the fullness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein.

2For he hath founded it upon the seas, and established it upon the floods.

3Who shall ascend into the hill of the Lord? or who shall stand in his holy place?

4He that hath clean hands, and a pure heart; who hath not lifted up his soul unto vanity, nor sworn deceitfully.

5He shall receive the blessing from the Lord, and righteousness from the God of his salvation.

6This is the generation of them that seek him, that seek thy face, O Jacob. Selah.

7Lift up your heads, O ye gates; and be ye lift up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in.

8Who is this King of glory? The Lord strong and mighty, the Lord mighty in battle.

9Lift up your heads, O ye gates; even lift them up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in.

10Who is this King of glory? The Lord of hosts, he is the King of glory. Selah.

PSALM 42
1 As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God.
² My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall I come and appear before God?
³ My tears have been my meat day and night, while they continually say unto me, Where is thy God?
⁴ When I remember these things, I pour out my soul in me: for I had gone with the multitude, I went with them to the house of God, with the voice of joy and praise, with a multitude that kept holyday.
⁵ Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted in me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance.
⁶ O my God, my soul is cast down within me: therefore will I remember thee from the land of Jordan, and of the Hermonites, from the hill Mizar.
⁷ Deep calleth unto deep at the noise of thy waterspouts: all thy waves and thy billows are gone over me.
⁸ Yet the Lord will command his lovingkindness in the day time, and in the night his song shall be with me, and my prayer unto the God of my life.
⁹ I will say unto God my rock, Why hast thou forgotten me? why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?
¹⁰ As with a sword in my bones, mine enemies reproach me; while they say daily unto me, Where is thy God?
¹¹ Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.            




#NO WORRIES
         

It is good to remember!

For about three days I have been thinking about my grandmother's Easter Lily's. Yesterday I felt an urgency to take them out of the back yard and move them to the front yard. This morning I noticed that the blooms that had began to open up had opened all the way. It was beautiful to see. I went to a funeral a while back. It was the funeral of someone very close to my family. My grandmother and her had been friends for many years and she was the mother in law of my cousin.It was so sad....God knew! The Pastor of the church that was speaking at the funeral was very, very old...he rolled up to the pulpit and started preaching very, very slowly  "Its good to remember" "While you have the full activity of your limbs, while you have a full head of hair, while you have all your teeth" I had to put my head down because I had started laughing. From tears to laughter. So today on Resurrection Sunday.. remember, remember God's sacrifice, remember his goodness, remember those in your life that you love. It is good to remember.

Amazing Grace

I took my children out to eat tonight. My son dropped his drink and then while he was trying to pick his drink up he dropped his entire plate. I looked at the situation before us in horror and ended up dropping my drink. I wanted to scream from the embarrassment of it all. After everything was cleaned up my children politely sat down and started to eat. My son wanted to make sure his jell-o was replaced and my daughter wanted ketchup. They sat down and ate as if nothing happened. I had eaten earlier so I just got something to go for my older son. I sat and looked at my children and I was awestruck...what a perfect example of grace. Not the "shall I sin so that grace may abound" grace but the grace God freely gives us when we make a mistake.  This weekend is Easter....I thank God for the cross. I thank God that he sees the best in me and I thank God for grace. We get burdened down with shame and guilt but God knew all about our shortcomings and planned ahead of time and gave us the cross. I love you with the love of Christ. Happy Easter.

                                                 


I went to the Stellar Awards in Vegas this past Saturday. It was a much needed trip. I took away so much. I am learning to look for the lesson or message in the events of my life. I can't put into words nor have I figured out the need to change your surroundings sometimes. When leaving the city or state that you live in could it be coming from under the principalities over that area gives you the opportunity to receive without interference...I don't know. What I do know is I have received clarity and direction each time I have went on vacation when I felt led to go on one. Going to the Stellar Awards led me to two conclusions; one I miss fellowship with my brothers and sisters in Christ (I currently do not have a church home) and the second is I am a black and white type person; I don't care for blurred lines! and that's all I'm gonna say about that. Being there reignited something in me. I am seeking God again. I really don't care what I must do to get to him. I don't mean a quick prayer; I mean I want t bask in his (Jesus') presence again. I want to dwell with him. My friend and I said that we were going to start traveling; for me it seems necessary. I think I need to remove myself from everything sometimes. I love you with the love of Christ. Be fruitful, Multiply, and have dominion.