It rained yesterday in the city that I am from. It was something different about the rain. It was as if what was happening in the natural was a direct parallel of what was happening in the spirit. I heard the question "Do you still love me?" and my response was a melody that poured from me in song "You ask me if I love you still; I always will, I always will, you're my desire I belong to you, my one and only this love is true, I hear you asking...if I love you still, I always will, I always will".
Song of Solomon 3
The watchmen that go about the city found me: to whom I said, Saw ye him whom my soul loveth ?             

SPIRITUAL ENVIRONMENT

ENVIRONMENT...ENVIRONMENT HAS BEEN COMING UP LATELY. TODAY I FELT LED TO GO TO A BIBLE BOOK STORE IN THE AREA AND I LOOKED AROUND TRYING TO FIND THE REASON I WAS THERE. THE STORE WAS PLAYING THE BIBLE ON DVD IN THE BACKGROUND AND I FINALLY REALIZED THAT I WAS NOT THERE TO MAKE A PURCHASE...I WAS THERE BECAUSE GOD WAS SHOWING ME WHAT THE PROPER SPIRITUAL ENVIRONMENT WILL DO FOR YOUR SPIRIT. THERE HAS BEEN A LOT OF TURMOIL IN MY LIVING ARRAINGMENTS FOR SOME TIME NOW. THE LAST THING THAT HAPPENED WAS LIGHTENING STRIKING THE CENTRAL HEATING AND AIR UNIT...WHAT IN THE WORLD ARE THE CHANCES OF THAT I THOUGHT AND I SOON FOUND MYSELF BEING AGGITATED AND ANGRY. TODAY I THOUGHT ABOUT WHY THAT AREA WAS UNDER SUCH AN ATTACK AND I WAS AMAZED I HADN'T SEEN IT ALL ALONG. HOME IN MY MIND SHOULD BE LIKE A SANCTUARY...WITH SCRIPTURE OR MUSIC PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND; SCRIPTURES STENCILED ON THE WALL; A PLACE OF PEACE. I ALSO DROVE BY THE WATER TODAY AND I WONDERED, WHAT IS IT ABOUT THE WATER? THE BEAUTY OF IT DRAWS YOU RIGHT INTO THE PRESENCE OF GOD. WHEN I AM CALM AND IN THAT KIND OF ENVIRONMENT WORSHIP, POETRY, AND GIFTINGS FLOW. ONCE I DROVE BY THE WATER AND I STARTED SPEAKING A POEM TO GOD OUTLOUD AND IT WAS AS IF IT FLOWED RIGHT FROM MY SPIRIT AND I WAS ONLY LISTENING. HOW DO YOU GET TO AND STAY IN THAT PLACE?



MATTHEW 14:13

When Jesus heard what had happened, he withdrew by boat privately to a solitary place. Hearing of this, the crowds followed him on foot from the towns.

GOD'S WILL BE DONE

Its amazing to see how many obstacles the devil tries to put in our way to try to keep us from what God has for us.  Last week I moved back into the office space that I had given up a while back. When one of my co-workers walked into my office and saw me she was shocked and said "Oh I did not know you were here" I responded  "Yeah, I'm reclaiming my domain".  That's  how I feel...if God said its mine its mine. Because of how hectic things have been the last couple of weeks I haven't had much time at all to occupy my new, old space and today when one thing started to happen after the other I started not to go to my office as I had planned but something within said go just for a little while. I went in and sat at my desk for only about ten minutes but those ten minutes were all I needed to remind myself of what God had done. I have had a lot of trouble on my job and I thought about leaving more than once and I heard God say each time "Hold on just a little longer";  and last week when I went  to my office God told me that he had put me in that position to do his will. If we could just rest and know that if God said it...it will come to pass and if he gave it to us it is ours to have. Be encouraged in the Lord today and know that he has good things in store for you, and it can only be lost if you chose to forfeit it. I love you with the love of Christ our Lord. Amen.

Genesis 1:28

King James Version (KJV)

²⁸ And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth.

You Have What You Say

Today I had to call someone...It is only Tuesday and I have found marijuana in the yards of two clients (I did not pick it up either time). I called my cousin and she said "you didn't pray for green did you? (meaning : I meant money but wasn't specific and just asked for green) "I said no but I remember a while back when I was praying I started quoting scripture and I said "Lord you said you wouldn't have your seed begging for bread!" The next day a neighbor I really don't talk to started bringing me bread. " I said God you are so funny...I meant money". I decree that the body of Christ will start finding good treasures, in the name of the Father, the name of the Son and the name of the Holy Ghost! (I'm still and always will be talking about Jesus). Amen.

I AM NOT FORGOTTEN

About five years ago I was going through some stormy times and I went to the flea market with a family acquaintance. At the flea market a lady had a booth and she was doing print outs of name meanings. I had only had one person tell me they knew the meaning of my name but when I tried to call her she was unable to tell me. I did not expect the lady at the flea market to have the meaning of my name; when I told her what my name was she said it was unique but it was still a way to look it up...the definition she gave me was computer generated and a little generic but what it said had truth to it. A while after the lady gave me the print out I got a wild hair and wrote a linguist at an university and asked him if he knew the meaning of my name. He not only took the time to research it but he enlisted the help of his colleagues to find the meaning. Almost every day I was forwarded an email on what someone had found. It shook my very being because I knew it was God's favor and love for me that had caused him to move collegiate professors and chairs to search out my name meaning. I thought about that today and wandered at the awe of God's power and glory and his presence in the turbulence; protecting and keeping us.

THE GLORY OF THE LORD REIGNS FOR EVER

EVERY MOMENT IN YOUR HANDS

TODAY I WAS ANTICIPATING SOMETHING THAT DID NOT HAPPEN. I FELT THE LORD WAS ASKING WILL YOU LOVE ME ANYWAY...THE ANSWER WILL ALWAYS BE YES. THOUGH IT MAY HURT, THOUGH I MAY NOT UNDERSTAND, THE ANSWER WILL ALWAYS BE YES I LOVE YOU LORD AND NOT ONLY DO I LOVE YOU BUT I RECOGNIZE THAT YOU ARE A MIRACLE WORKER, YOU'RE CARING, AND LOVING, YOU ARE FAITHFUL AND TRUE AND WHEN IT IS TIME YOU WILL TURN IT AROUND. BE ENCOURAGED IN THE LORD TODAY AND EVERYDAY...HE CAN DO ANYTHING. I LOVE YOU WITH THE LOVE OF CHRIST; UNTIL NEXT TIME.

CROSSROAD

SOME YEARS AGO I WENT TO A SISTER KEEPER CRUSADE IN MOBILE. THE SPEAKER SAID "YOU ARE AT A CROSSROAD"...SHE CARRIED SUCH AN ANOINTING. SOMETIMES I COME ACROSS OLD NOTES ETC. AND IT IS AS IF THAT SERMON WERE FOR THAT MOMENT IN TIME. THE CROSSROAD'S MESSAGE IS A WORD THAT IS TRUE  FOR ME RIGHT NOW AND THAT IS PROBABLY TRUE FOR OTHERS. THERE IS SUCH A PULLING. I FEEL PULLED TO INDULGE IN THINGS THAT I SHOULDN'T AND AT THE SAME TIME GOD IS PULLING ME INTO HIM; SPEAKING CLEARLY AND REVEALING. THIS POINT THAT WE AS THE BODY OF CHRIST ARE AT IS SO DETRIMENTAL TO OUR DESTINY, FOR GOOD OR BAD. IF WE GIVE IN TO SIN...THE OUTCOME MAY BE FATAL TO OUR NATURAL OR SPIRITUAL LIVES AND IF WE HOLD OUT AND RUN TO GOD AND EMBRACE WHAT HE IS DOING WE WILL BE A PART OF THIS NEXT GREAT REVIVAL. I FEEL IT...REVIVAL IS SO CLOSE, BUT I ALSO FEEL THE PRESSURE OF THIS UNCOMFORTABLE PLACE THAT I AM IN. GOD HAS QUICKENED SPIRITUAL SENSES...WHEN I SEE PEOPLE THAT ARE IN NEED OF HEALING ETC. MY SPIRIT BEGINS TO STIR WITH SUCH A LONGING TO SEE THEM DELIVERED. I HAVE WANTED TO SEE THE MIRACLES OF GOD BEFORE BUT THE LONGING IS SO INTENSE NOW.

ISAIAH 61

1The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;

2To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn;

3To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.

4And they shall build the old wastes, they shall raise up the former desolations, and they shall repair the waste cities, the desolations of many generations.

5And strangers shall stand and feed your flocks, and the sons of the alien shall be your plowmen and your vinedressers.

6But ye shall be named the Priests of the LORD: men shall call you the Ministers of our God: ye shall eat the riches of the Gentiles, and in their glory shall ye boast yourselves.

7For your shame ye shall have double; and for confusion they shall rejoice in their portion: therefore in their land they shall possess the double: everlasting joy shall be unto them.

8For I the LORD love judgment, I hate robbery for burnt offering; and I will direct their work in truth, and I will make an everlasting covenant with them.

9And their seed shall be known among the Gentiles, and their offspring among the people: all that see them shall acknowledge them, that they are the seed which the LORD hath blessed.

10I will greatly rejoice in the LORD, my soul shall be joyful in my God; for he hath clothed me with the garments of salvation, he hath covered me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decketh himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorneth herself with her jewels.

11For as the earth bringeth forth her bud, and as the garden causeth the things that are sown in it to spring forth; so the Lord GOD will cause righteousness and praise to spring forth before all the nations

BE ENCOURAGED...HELP IS ON THE WAY

TODAY AS I WAS THINKING ABOUT A SITUATION THAT I HAVE BEEN WANTING TO CHANGE FOR A WHILE I ALMOST CRIED...BEFORE I COULD GET TO THE POINT OF CRYING I HEARD THE LORD SAY "DON'T CRY, YOU ARE ALMOST THERE". THEN I HEARD THE LORD SAY "YOU TELL OTHERS TO BELIEVE ME FOR THE IMPOSSIBLE AND YOU BELIEVE IT FOR THEM TOO; I WANT YOU TO BELIEVE ME FOR THE IMPOSSIBLE FOR YOURSELF". SO BE ENCOURAGED TODAY PEOPLE OF THE MOST HIGH GOD, PERFECTLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE HEIRS OF RIGHTEOUSNESS...HELP IS ON THE WAY!

THERE IS SAFETY IN OBEDIENCE.

Monday my little cousin graduated from nursing school. I am so proud of her. As we were leaving I saw one of the people who had come to see her graduate. This person had some sort of brain tumor that made her go blind; as I saw her it began to pull at my heart and I heard the Lord say that if I could get to the point that I am fully flowing in my gifting that he would heal through me. Last night I dreamed that my family had gone somewhere God had told me not to go but because they were there I went. I really did not want to go to the event...I wanted to be with my family. As I type I am reminded of a reoccurring childhood dream (I mean I had this dream more times than I can count) in the dream my family and I were in a field running and laughing but I could only get so close to them, there was a line (not visible but we knew it was there) I couldn't cross and they couldn't cross; every now and then we all would look sad because we could not fully be together but would continue to run and play. In the dream I had last night I went to the event knowing I shouldn't have been there. I looked around feeling awkward and thinking to myself "I shouldn't be here" but then I would turn back to my family and laugh and talk. In the beginning of the dream we were inside, then all of a sudden we were outside and a huge wave came over us...people were being washed away. I grabbed a man and I pulled him and I into the building and I kept screaming "Lord I'm Sorry". The dream felt like a Jonah experience; the people in the dream weren't necessarily doing right but when I went where I knew God did not want me to go my disobedience brought judgment to all that were around me. People argue that we all go through the same things and I believe that is true to a certain extent...to whom much is given much is required and God may hold you to a certain standard that he doesn't hold everyone to; the high  priest in the old testament was the only one that could go into the Holy of Holies. The beauty in that though is that if you can keep your hands clean and live holy and be in the will of God he will do great and mighty things for you and through you.

1 Samuel 15:22 KJV

And Samuel said , Hath the LORD as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices, as in obeying the voice of the LORD? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, and to hearken than the fat of rams.

I AM PERSUADED

DESTINATION REACHED..RESTORATION.

I REACHED MY DESTINATION (NASHVILLE TENNESSEE)! I RESTED AND GOT BACK ON THE ROAD  SATURDAY MORNING.  THERE WAS AN ACCIDENT ON THE ROAD AND IT HELD THE TRAFFIC UP FOR AN EXTREMELY LONG TIME. IN ABOUT TWO HOURS WE TRAVELED ABOUT FIVE MILES; NEEDLESS TO SAY IT DELAYED OUR ARRIVAL. WHILE STUCK IN TRAFFIC I WATCHED CAR AFTER CAR TURN AROUND BUT I THOUGHT TO MYSELF I KNOW THIS IS THE WAY SO THERE IS NO WAY I'M TURNING AROUND. I ONLY SPENT A PORTION OF A DAY AND SOME TIME THIS MORNING THERE IN TENNESSEE BUT IT WAS WELL WORTH IT. I DON'T KNOW COMPLETELY  WHAT THE REASON FOR THE TRIP WAS. I KNOW PART OF THE REASON I WENT WAS TO COME FROM UNDER THE PRINCIPALITIES IN THE AREA I LIVE IN AND FREELY RECONNECT WITH THE LORD; NOT IN TRICKLES AND STRAINED; PRAYING AND WORSHIPING WAS AS NATURAL AS BREATHING AND IT FLOWED LIKE A MIGHTY RIVER. I VISITED VARIOUS FAMILY MEMBERS INCLUDING SOME GREAT AUNTS AND UNCLES (IT WAS BEAUTIFUL)..I WAS VISITING MY FATHER'S SIDE OF THE FAMILY; THE SIMILARITIES WE HAVE WITH OUR KIN ARE REMARKABLE. THIS MORNING BEFORE WE GOT ON THE ROAD MY GREAT UNCLE LED US IN PRAYER AND MY GREAT AUNT SAID "LETS SING SOMETHING". MY COUSIN BEGAN TO PLAY THE PIANO AND LEAD US IN "LET THE CHURCH SAY AMEN"...HIS VOICE WAS ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL. I KNEW THAT I HAD SOME AUNTS THAT HAD VERY NICE VOICES BUT I DID NOT KNOW THAT THERE WAS A MUSICAL GIFTING THROUGHOUT THE FAMILY. ON MY WAY HOME THERE WERE TWO ACCIDENTS INVOLVING  EIGHTEEN WHEELERS...I DON'T KNOW HOW BAD THE FIRST ONE WAS; BY THE TIME TRAFFIC MOVED I COULD ONLY SEE THE TRAILER OF THE TRUCK THAT HAD GONE THROUGH THE WOODS AND WRAPPED AROUND TREES; THE FRONT OF THE TRUCK WAS OKAY...I SAW THE SECOND ACCIDENT WHEN I WAS ALMOST HOME...AN EIGHTEEN WHEELER AND A CAR; THE CAR'S FRONT END HAD BEEN SMASHED IN SO BADLY THE DRIVER WAS STUCK IN THE CAR...I SAW HIS HEAD MOVE AND THAT WAS ALL I NEEDED TO SEE BEFORE I WENT INTO WARFARE FOR HIS LIFE AND HIS SOUL. I THANK GOD MY CHILDREN AND I MADE IT THERE AND BACK SAFELY. I THANK GOD FOR HIS GUIDANCE; AT LEAST  ONE TIME WHEN I WANTED TO GO FURTHER BEFORE GETTING MORE GAS GOD SAID "TORRY STOP NOW"...WHO KNOWS WHAT THOSE MINUTES OFF THE HIGHWAY PREVENTED. WE TAKE SO MUCH FOR GRANTED BUT GOD IS CONSTANTLY COVERING US AND COVERING OUR LOVED ONES BECAUSE OF US. THANK YOU LORD. BE BLESSED.

ROAD MAP

I HAVE BEEN FEELING THE NEED TO GET AWAY FOR A WHILE. JUST TO BREAK AWAY FROM EVERYTHING FOR A MOMENT FOR CLARITY AND REJUVINATION. I HEADED OUT OF TOWN YESTERDAY AND ENDED UP GETTING TURNED AROUND. I ENDED BACK UP IN TUSCALOOSA ABOUT THREE TIMES AND DECIDED TO GET A ROOM FOR THE NIGHT AND TRY IT AGAIN IN THE MORNING. I SAT AND WANDERED ABOUT THE PARALLEL IN THE SPIRIT...HAVING A DESTINATION OR PLACE TO REACH BUT GETTING TURNED AROUND CONSTANTLY AND MISSING THE DESTINATION. I ALSO THOUGHT ABOUT THE WISDOM IN JUST STOPPING TO REGROUP. IT IS NATURE TO WANT TO GET TO WHERE YOU ARE GOING BUT IT IS SPIRITUAL WISDOM TO KNOW WHEN YOU NEED TO STOP TO REGROUP; REFOCUS AND COME UP WITH A GOOD SET OF DIRECTIONS AND A GAME PLAN.

Psalm 16:11 KJV 

Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.

           

Psalm 27:11 KJV 

Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies .

 

            

Psalm 119:35 KJV

Make me to go in the path of thy commandments; for therein do I delight .

           

Psalm 119:105 KJV 

NUN. Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.

 

NAIL IT TO THE CROSS

Yes and Amen...God is Faithful

Saturday I saw a double rainbow and when it went away in another direction there was a partial rainbow and it stayed longer than I think I have seen a rainbow stay; it went away and  a short while later another one replaced it; all I could think of was abiding promises. I kept thinking something good must be about to happen; something extraordinary must be on the horizon.

2 Corinthians 1:20 KJV

For all the promises of God in him are yea, and in him Amen, unto the glory of God by us.

Seek

"Seek and you shall find 'o' child of mine...seek"
Matthew 7
7 Ask , and it shall be given you; seek , and ye shall find ; knock , and it shall be opened unto you: 8 For every one that asketh receiveth ; and he that seeketh findeth ; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened .            

I DON'T AGREE...I CHOOSE LIFE!

My son and I passed a Hospice Facility tonight and he didn't know what it was. He asked "what is Hospice"? I said "it is a place people go to die". He said "ewe".  I began to tell him how it was really good and how they helped people be comfortable before they died and he wanted to know how you could be comfortable before dying. I said "you know I'm sure the place you are at is nice and they help you to cope with dying" the more we talked about it the more I thought about it and I said "you know it is kind of strange...it's like they have made some sort of covenant with death" and I remembered the whole name is "Covenant Hospice". Agreeing with death...not unless God tells you but even then there are cases in the Bible that God had mercy and the person lived. Hmm. "I  shall not die, but live, and declare the works of the Lord".

Proverbs 18:21 KJV 

Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.

Happy Fourth of July!

I decided to spend the fourth with my cousin who lives a little over an hour away. Its not that far but the drive and getting outside of the town I live in is like a mini-vacation of sorts. This morning my cousin had to work and I wanted to be done cooking by the time she got off. When I got up I really did not feel like cooking; I felt so heavy! I got dressed; got my children dressed, fed them breakfast and fought myself to start cooking. Once I got started; it wasn't an issue; It was actually really rewarding. I heard God say you will have to come against a lot because of the calling but if you just get started; if you just begin it won't be a problem...you are stronger.

Hebrews 12:1 KJV 

Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,

GOD IS GOD

Gifts and callings are truly without repentance. I have heard the voice of God since I was a child but when I got older, I decided that I would do what I wanted to do. God would still set limits though even then. I can remember when at times when I was in a relationship or whatever you want to call it that God wanted me to cut off; God would basically tell me to cut it off; but sometimes it wasn't that easy to cut off. At those times I would be like Lord I love you but I want him...help me to let go. In one particular instance God gave me a dream so specific that it was down to the street address, I told the guy what I had dreamed about and his eyes got huge; he was like that's the street we used to live on when we were together and when she calls that's exactly what she says. Believe it or not I still did not want to let go, so God gave me another dream...I dreamed that he and I were in the car and his ex-girlfriend smiled at me and rubbed her belly. I told him the dream and he became very angry...she was pregnant but only about two months and he said it wasn't his and that was the end of that one. Last night I dreamed about my ex-husband. It was as if God was saying you keep focusing on this over here but I have said what I have to say, now you need to deal with this. I woke up and God began speaking clearly on the matter. I had wanted him to be more clear on something else or maybe I just didn't like what he had told me to do...but God had said enough and now wanted me to deal with something that was happening subtly and was dangerous. God is loving and wonderful yet still sovereign.

Song of Solomon 2:15 KJV 

Take us the foxes, the little foxes, that spoil the vines: for our vines have tender grapes.