ASK

I was looking through one of my notebooks today and an entry from 2011 stood out; It was as if I was hearing it again for the first time. "Do you notice that when you are in my will or presence you don't ask for trivial things; this is the "You have not because you ask not"; at these times if you ask for what is in your spirit you will receive."

JESUS IS LORD

I STOPPED PARTICIPATING IN HALLOWEEN SOME YEARS AGO. MY TWO OLDER SON'S WERE VERY LITTLE.  I WASN'T IN CHURCH BUT SOMETHING ABOUT A HOLIDAY BEING WICKED ENOUGH THAT I HAD TO CHECK CANDY TO MAKE SURE SOMEONE DIDN'T PUT SOMETHING IN MY CHILD'S CANDY THAT COULD HURT THEM OR TAKE THEIR LIVES DIDN'T SIT RIGHT WITH ME AND I DECIDED THAT I DIDN'T WANT ANY PART OF IT. THIS YEAR THE SPIRITUAL ACTIVITY AROUND THIS SEASON WAS VERY STRONG. I HAVE FELT WEIGHED DOWN ALL WEEK AND THERE HAS BEEN SO MUCH GOING ON IN THE AREA I LIVE IN BUT ONE THING REMAINS CERTAIN JESUS IS LORD AND GOD IS IN FULL CONTROL!

Thank God for Seeing Another Year

Friday was my birthday. I had lunch with my mom and spent time with my cousin. It was a very simple day but it was a very good day. Earlier today I went to dinner with some co-workers. I knew that they would want to go somewhere afterwards and  I was tempted to go but then I decided not to. I turned thirty-six and there was something very different about my birthday this year. With all of the chaos I found myself being grateful just to be here! I thank God for his faithfulness; I thank him for keeping me. I thank God that this time next year won't be anything like it is this year. I thank God for my family and friends. I thank God that despite every attack he allowed me to survive. I thank God for revelation and freedom. I feel as if I have awakened. I feel that I was merely sleepwalking. I am seeing things differently now. I thank God that he knows the beginning and the end. I thank him for his love. I thank him for his creative power. I thank him for life. I thank him for choosing me, believing in me, and calling me. I thank him that he allows me to hear his voice; that he tells me his mysteries; that he calls me unto himself and restores. Thank you Lord; I love you.

It's been a long time coming...but I know, change is gonna come!

Psalm 105:15 KJV

Saying, Touch not mine anointed, and do my prophets no harm .

 

TUG OF WAR

IN THE FIRST PART OF SEPTEMBER THIS YEAR I WENT TO A FAMILY REUNION IN JACKSONVILLE FL. WE HAD A REALLY GREAT TIME. ONE OF THE ACTIVITIES WAS A GAME OF TUG OF WAR. MY AUNT ASKED ME TO PLAY AND AT FIRST I DIDN'T WANT TO BUT THEN I CHANGED MY MIND AND MY SON'S AND I WENT TO JOIN IN. MY TEAM WON (YEA!), BUT THERE WERE A FEW MOMENTS WHERE WE WERE BEING PULLED TO THE OTHER SIDE AND IT LOOKED AS IF WE WOULD LOOSE. LAST NIGHT I HAD A DREAM THAT MY COUSIN AND I WERE DRIVING ALONG A DANGEROUS ROAD. I WOKE UP AND I KNEW THAT THE DREAM HAD BEEN A WARNING. I HAVE BEEN DOING SOME THINGS THAT I SHOULDN'T LATELY. AFTER WAKING I THOUGHT ABOUT THE DREAM AND GOD SPOKE "YOU HAVE TO STOP TORRY" TO MY SPIRIT. THERE WAS A HURRICANE WARNING IN MY AREA AND YOU COULD LITERALLY FEEL THE SPIRITUAL TENSION BETWEEN TWO FORCES...GOOD AND EVIL. I WILL DEFINATELY BE SEEKING GOD HARD THESE UPCOMING DAYS FOR STRENGTH, RENEWAL, AND REFILLING. I WANT TO BE ON THE RIGHT TEAM...GOD ALWAYS WINS.
ROMANS 7
14 For we know that the law is spiritual: but I am carnal, sold under sin. 15 For that which I do I allow not: for what I would , that do I not; but what I hate , that do I . 16 If then I do that which I would not, I consent unto the law that it is good. 17 Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. 18 For I know that in me (that is , in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. 19 For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do . 20 Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. 21 I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me. 22 For I delight in the law of God after the inward man: 23 But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. 24 O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death? 25 I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.   

JESUS!

 

HARVEST...AN EXPECTED END

Today was a crazy day! My mom spent her birthday with my grandmother in the ER, but thank God all is well. When I got off I called to check on my grandmother and to tell my mom happy birthday. When I said happy birthday my mom's response which was "thank you" was a little dry; so I asked "did you get your package" she said no.  After we got off the phone I checked my messages and sure enough the flower shop that I had placed my delivery with had called saying they were out of stock of the container for the flower arraignment I had ordered. By the time I checked the message the shop was closed so I went to walmart and got flowers and a candle warmer. I chose roses and sunflowers. I took two of the sunflowers out and decided to take one to my great aunt who lived close to the store. When I got there she looked at me strange and asked if I knew she had been sick. I told her no I just decided to stop by. I hugged her, talked to her briefly, gave her the flower and left. I then went to the hospital and gave my mom her gift and my grandmother her flower. Time is precious; especially time with the ones you love. I looked back on today's events in awe of the wisdom of God. He knew my great aunt had been sick and he knew going to the store by her home would make me think of her.
He knew that flowers would brighten my mother's day. Quite a few people I know have birthdays this month. I hope every one I hold dear had a good birthday. My birthday is next month; my son  got my gift early and asked if he could give it to me early. When I got home my gift was on the bed. It was a candle holder like the one he had seen me buy for another loved one whose birthday was this month. He had seen how much I liked it and had been waiting to surprise me with it, so in essence I had reaped what I had sown.
Ecclesiastes 3
¹¹ He hath made every thing beautiful in his time: also he hath set the world in their heart, so that no man can find out the work that God maketh from the beginning to the end.

September

Tomorrow is my mother's birthday. I wanted to send her flowers this year but placing the order online took an extremely long time. It made me think of how so much has been held up this year. But the season is changing! The gradual change in the weather lets me know that the heat (the fire) is almost gone! I wasn't born in September but I must say there is something very special about this month.

Honor

This morning I heard another song; the song was a scripture. "Eyes have not seen, ears have not heard, nor has it entered into the heart of man, what God has for us, eyes have not seen, ears have not heard, nor has it entered into the heart of man, what God has for us" as I write.. I hear "hold on and receive your crown". I woke up this morning and I had intended to cook breakfast and before I got up my grandmother said "I thought you were gonna fix breakfast" I got up and fixed breakfast and then my lovely grandmother was really feeling herself and said "now fix me cappuccino"... I said "now we agreed on breakfast" and I heard "give honor, where honor, is due." So today I honor my family, my loved ones, my children, my pastors and everyone. I love you with the love of Christ.
1 Corinthians 2
9 But as it is written: "Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, Nor have entered into the heart of man The things which God has prepared for those who love Him." 10 But God has revealed them to us through His Spirit. For the Spirit searches all things, yes, the deep things of God. 11 For what man knows the things of a man except the spirit of the man which is in him? Even so no one knows the things of God except the Spirit of God.
PRAY IN THE SPIRIT

It rained yesterday in the city that I am from. It was something different about the rain. It was as if what was happening in the natural was a direct parallel of what was happening in the spirit. I heard the question "Do you still love me?" and my response was a melody that poured from me in song "You ask me if I love you still; I always will, I always will, you're my desire I belong to you, my one and only this love is true, I hear you asking...if I love you still, I always will, I always will".
Song of Solomon 3
The watchmen that go about the city found me: to whom I said, Saw ye him whom my soul loveth ?             

SPIRITUAL ENVIRONMENT

ENVIRONMENT...ENVIRONMENT HAS BEEN COMING UP LATELY. TODAY I FELT LED TO GO TO A BIBLE BOOK STORE IN THE AREA AND I LOOKED AROUND TRYING TO FIND THE REASON I WAS THERE. THE STORE WAS PLAYING THE BIBLE ON DVD IN THE BACKGROUND AND I FINALLY REALIZED THAT I WAS NOT THERE TO MAKE A PURCHASE...I WAS THERE BECAUSE GOD WAS SHOWING ME WHAT THE PROPER SPIRITUAL ENVIRONMENT WILL DO FOR YOUR SPIRIT. THERE HAS BEEN A LOT OF TURMOIL IN MY LIVING ARRAINGMENTS FOR SOME TIME NOW. THE LAST THING THAT HAPPENED WAS LIGHTENING STRIKING THE CENTRAL HEATING AND AIR UNIT...WHAT IN THE WORLD ARE THE CHANCES OF THAT I THOUGHT AND I SOON FOUND MYSELF BEING AGGITATED AND ANGRY. TODAY I THOUGHT ABOUT WHY THAT AREA WAS UNDER SUCH AN ATTACK AND I WAS AMAZED I HADN'T SEEN IT ALL ALONG. HOME IN MY MIND SHOULD BE LIKE A SANCTUARY...WITH SCRIPTURE OR MUSIC PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND; SCRIPTURES STENCILED ON THE WALL; A PLACE OF PEACE. I ALSO DROVE BY THE WATER TODAY AND I WONDERED, WHAT IS IT ABOUT THE WATER? THE BEAUTY OF IT DRAWS YOU RIGHT INTO THE PRESENCE OF GOD. WHEN I AM CALM AND IN THAT KIND OF ENVIRONMENT WORSHIP, POETRY, AND GIFTINGS FLOW. ONCE I DROVE BY THE WATER AND I STARTED SPEAKING A POEM TO GOD OUTLOUD AND IT WAS AS IF IT FLOWED RIGHT FROM MY SPIRIT AND I WAS ONLY LISTENING. HOW DO YOU GET TO AND STAY IN THAT PLACE?



MATTHEW 14:13

When Jesus heard what had happened, he withdrew by boat privately to a solitary place. Hearing of this, the crowds followed him on foot from the towns.

GOD'S WILL BE DONE

Its amazing to see how many obstacles the devil tries to put in our way to try to keep us from what God has for us.  Last week I moved back into the office space that I had given up a while back. When one of my co-workers walked into my office and saw me she was shocked and said "Oh I did not know you were here" I responded  "Yeah, I'm reclaiming my domain".  That's  how I feel...if God said its mine its mine. Because of how hectic things have been the last couple of weeks I haven't had much time at all to occupy my new, old space and today when one thing started to happen after the other I started not to go to my office as I had planned but something within said go just for a little while. I went in and sat at my desk for only about ten minutes but those ten minutes were all I needed to remind myself of what God had done. I have had a lot of trouble on my job and I thought about leaving more than once and I heard God say each time "Hold on just a little longer";  and last week when I went  to my office God told me that he had put me in that position to do his will. If we could just rest and know that if God said it...it will come to pass and if he gave it to us it is ours to have. Be encouraged in the Lord today and know that he has good things in store for you, and it can only be lost if you chose to forfeit it. I love you with the love of Christ our Lord. Amen.

Genesis 1:28

King James Version (KJV)

²⁸ And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth.

You Have What You Say

Today I had to call someone...It is only Tuesday and I have found marijuana in the yards of two clients (I did not pick it up either time). I called my cousin and she said "you didn't pray for green did you? (meaning : I meant money but wasn't specific and just asked for green) "I said no but I remember a while back when I was praying I started quoting scripture and I said "Lord you said you wouldn't have your seed begging for bread!" The next day a neighbor I really don't talk to started bringing me bread. " I said God you are so funny...I meant money". I decree that the body of Christ will start finding good treasures, in the name of the Father, the name of the Son and the name of the Holy Ghost! (I'm still and always will be talking about Jesus). Amen.

I AM NOT FORGOTTEN

About five years ago I was going through some stormy times and I went to the flea market with a family acquaintance. At the flea market a lady had a booth and she was doing print outs of name meanings. I had only had one person tell me they knew the meaning of my name but when I tried to call her she was unable to tell me. I did not expect the lady at the flea market to have the meaning of my name; when I told her what my name was she said it was unique but it was still a way to look it up...the definition she gave me was computer generated and a little generic but what it said had truth to it. A while after the lady gave me the print out I got a wild hair and wrote a linguist at an university and asked him if he knew the meaning of my name. He not only took the time to research it but he enlisted the help of his colleagues to find the meaning. Almost every day I was forwarded an email on what someone had found. It shook my very being because I knew it was God's favor and love for me that had caused him to move collegiate professors and chairs to search out my name meaning. I thought about that today and wandered at the awe of God's power and glory and his presence in the turbulence; protecting and keeping us.

THE GLORY OF THE LORD REIGNS FOR EVER

EVERY MOMENT IN YOUR HANDS

TODAY I WAS ANTICIPATING SOMETHING THAT DID NOT HAPPEN. I FELT THE LORD WAS ASKING WILL YOU LOVE ME ANYWAY...THE ANSWER WILL ALWAYS BE YES. THOUGH IT MAY HURT, THOUGH I MAY NOT UNDERSTAND, THE ANSWER WILL ALWAYS BE YES I LOVE YOU LORD AND NOT ONLY DO I LOVE YOU BUT I RECOGNIZE THAT YOU ARE A MIRACLE WORKER, YOU'RE CARING, AND LOVING, YOU ARE FAITHFUL AND TRUE AND WHEN IT IS TIME YOU WILL TURN IT AROUND. BE ENCOURAGED IN THE LORD TODAY AND EVERYDAY...HE CAN DO ANYTHING. I LOVE YOU WITH THE LOVE OF CHRIST; UNTIL NEXT TIME.

CROSSROAD

SOME YEARS AGO I WENT TO A SISTER KEEPER CRUSADE IN MOBILE. THE SPEAKER SAID "YOU ARE AT A CROSSROAD"...SHE CARRIED SUCH AN ANOINTING. SOMETIMES I COME ACROSS OLD NOTES ETC. AND IT IS AS IF THAT SERMON WERE FOR THAT MOMENT IN TIME. THE CROSSROAD'S MESSAGE IS A WORD THAT IS TRUE  FOR ME RIGHT NOW AND THAT IS PROBABLY TRUE FOR OTHERS. THERE IS SUCH A PULLING. I FEEL PULLED TO INDULGE IN THINGS THAT I SHOULDN'T AND AT THE SAME TIME GOD IS PULLING ME INTO HIM; SPEAKING CLEARLY AND REVEALING. THIS POINT THAT WE AS THE BODY OF CHRIST ARE AT IS SO DETRIMENTAL TO OUR DESTINY, FOR GOOD OR BAD. IF WE GIVE IN TO SIN...THE OUTCOME MAY BE FATAL TO OUR NATURAL OR SPIRITUAL LIVES AND IF WE HOLD OUT AND RUN TO GOD AND EMBRACE WHAT HE IS DOING WE WILL BE A PART OF THIS NEXT GREAT REVIVAL. I FEEL IT...REVIVAL IS SO CLOSE, BUT I ALSO FEEL THE PRESSURE OF THIS UNCOMFORTABLE PLACE THAT I AM IN. GOD HAS QUICKENED SPIRITUAL SENSES...WHEN I SEE PEOPLE THAT ARE IN NEED OF HEALING ETC. MY SPIRIT BEGINS TO STIR WITH SUCH A LONGING TO SEE THEM DELIVERED. I HAVE WANTED TO SEE THE MIRACLES OF GOD BEFORE BUT THE LONGING IS SO INTENSE NOW.

ISAIAH 61

1The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;

2To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn;

3To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.

4And they shall build the old wastes, they shall raise up the former desolations, and they shall repair the waste cities, the desolations of many generations.

5And strangers shall stand and feed your flocks, and the sons of the alien shall be your plowmen and your vinedressers.

6But ye shall be named the Priests of the LORD: men shall call you the Ministers of our God: ye shall eat the riches of the Gentiles, and in their glory shall ye boast yourselves.

7For your shame ye shall have double; and for confusion they shall rejoice in their portion: therefore in their land they shall possess the double: everlasting joy shall be unto them.

8For I the LORD love judgment, I hate robbery for burnt offering; and I will direct their work in truth, and I will make an everlasting covenant with them.

9And their seed shall be known among the Gentiles, and their offspring among the people: all that see them shall acknowledge them, that they are the seed which the LORD hath blessed.

10I will greatly rejoice in the LORD, my soul shall be joyful in my God; for he hath clothed me with the garments of salvation, he hath covered me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decketh himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorneth herself with her jewels.

11For as the earth bringeth forth her bud, and as the garden causeth the things that are sown in it to spring forth; so the Lord GOD will cause righteousness and praise to spring forth before all the nations