THERE IS SO MUCH THAT I WANT TO GET OUT IN THIS POST SO FORGIVE ME AHEAD OF TIME IF I RAMBLE. LAST YEAR GOD CHALLENGED ME TO PUT TOGETHER A PUZZLE; THIS SEEMS SIMPLE BUT I HAD NEVER BEEN ABLE TO PUT A PUZZLE TOGETHER; NOT BECAUSE I DID NOT HAVE THE ABILITY BUT BECAUSE I DID NOT HAVE THE PATIENCE. I STARTED WITH A 100 PIECE PUZZLE...I HAD TO CALM MYSELF BEFORE I STARTED AND THEN I PUT IT TOGETHER. THIS YEAR GOD HAS BEEN PUTTING TOGETHER THE PUZZLE OF MY LIFE. I HAD A FEW HEALTH SCARES (AND I DO MEAN SCARES); AND THEY LED TO ME DISCOVERING A FEW THINGS ABOUT MYSELF. YEARS AGO A PASTOR PRAYED FOR ME AND PRAYED THAT GOD WOULD BALANCE MY SERATONIN LEVELS. I'M NO DOCTOR BUT I KNEW THAT SERATONIN WAS A CHEMICAL PRODUCED BY THE BRAIN. I WENT ON AND EVENTUALLY FORGOT ABOUT THE PRAYER. AS REVEALED IN EARLIER POSTS I WAS AROUND THRIRTEEN WHEN I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH BELLS PALSEY AND I REMEMBER THE DOCTOR STATING PEOPLE YOUR AGE REALLY DON'T GET THIS. YEARS LATER AS AN ADULT A DOCTOR TOLD ME I HAD A NERVOUS TWITCH AND IT WAS SOMETHING HE DID NOT SEE IN PEOPLE AS YOUNG AS I WAS. THE ABOVE WAS JUST A LITTLE BACKGROUND; ITS TIME TO GO DEEPER. I TOLD MY TESTIMONY IN ONE OF MY EARLIEST POSTS. I TOLD HOW I HAD COME INTO CONTACT WITH A WARLOCK POSING AS A PREACHER. I ALSO TOLD HOW I WOULD GO HOME AND FEEL HIS PRESENCE IN MY HOUSE BUT I WOULDN'T TELL ANYONE BECAUSE I KNEW HOW CRAZY IT SOUNDED SO I JUST SORT OF ACCEPTED BEING TERRORIZED (I HAVE HEARD OF ONE BUT I'M SURE ITS MORE THAN ONE PERSON HE DID THIS TO THAT ENDED UP IN A MENTAL INSTITUTION). ONE DAY I CAME INTO CONTACT WITH A GODLY PASTOR WHO BEGAN TO PROPHESY. SHE TOLD ME THAT I HAD COME INTO CONTACT WITH SOMEONE AND IT WAS AS IF THEY WERE HAUNTING ME...I SCREAMED. WHAT A RELIEF IT WAS THAT SOMEONE KNEW. GOD TOLD ME I COULD TRUST HER (GOD HAS NEVER TOLD ME I COULD TRUST SOMEONE, AND I HAVE HAD TRUST ISSUES). I BEGAN TO TELL HER ABOUT IT... IT WAS TRULY A MOVE OF GOD; I WOULD REVEAL SOME AND SHE WOULD PROPHESY SOME...GOD THROUGH HER BEGAN TO LOOSE THIS MAN'S HOLD ON ME. ABOUT A FEW WEEKS AGO I STARTED HAVING ISSUES IN MY HEALTH; I HATE GOING TO DOCTORS BUT I FOUND MYSELF RUNNING TO THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE AND EMERGENCY ROOM ON MORE THAN ONE OCCASSION. I STARTED HAVING TROUBLE SLEEPING; DURING ONE OF THESE EPISODES I HAD SLEPT ONLY ABOUT TWO HOURS IN TWO DAYS. DURING CHURCH THAT WEEK THE PASTOR PROPHESIED THAT THE HEALTH PROBLEMS SOMEONE HAD BEEN EXPERIENCING WERE MORE THAN JUST ORDINARY HEALTH PROBLEMS THEY WERE THE RESULT OF WITCHCRAFT. I SUPRISED MYSELF AT HOW FAST I JUMPED UP AND GOT TO THE ALTAR. I WANTED DELIVERANCE! LATER THAT DAY I BEGAN TO FEEL BAD AGAIN AND WENT TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM WHERE I BELIEVE GOD PUT ME IN CONTACT WITH A DOCTOR WHO WOULD REALLY TAKE THE TIME TO SEE WHAT WAS GOING ON. HE KNEW I HAD NOT BEEN SLEEPING; HE KNEW THAT I WAS OVERLY STRESSED. HE PUT ME ON ANXIETY MEDICINE AND I AM A PERSON THAT TOOK MYSELF OFF BLOOD PRESSURE MEDICINE (FOR ABOUT TWO YEARS UNTIL RECENTLY) SO ITS NOT LIKE I WANTED A QUICK FIX BUT I DID WANT THIS SITUATION FIXED. I AM BELIEVING GOD FOR A COMPLETE DELIVERANCE BUT UNTIL THEN...! I HAVE BEEN THINKING AND THINKING LATELY. I HAVE BEEN LOOKING OVER MY LIFE AND PUTTING PIECES OF INFORMATION TOGETHER. I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT HOW JUST ABOUT EVERY DISEASE HAS A ROOT...WHETHER FEAR,BITTERNESS,SELF HATE ETC. I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT HOW I SEEMED TO BE OKAY UNTIL MY BIBLE ON DVD BROKE; IT MAY SEEM ODD BUT IT WAS LIKE MY SPIRIT BEING FED AT NIGHT COMBATTED AGAINST WHAT INFORMATION THE DEVIL TRIED TO FEED ME DURING THE DAY. I HAVE BEEN THINKING ON HOW MY PASTOR SPOKE OF THE LAST REVIVAL BEING A REVIVAL OF THE MIND. "I'M READY". IT IS MY AIM TO SEEK GOD UNTIL MY MIND IS RENEWED COMPLETELY. I WANT THE WORD OF GOD IN ME ACTIVATED IN SUCH A WAY THAT I NEVER THINK THE SAME AGAIN. IN CHURCH ONE DAY WE TALKED ABOUT ABRAHAM AND WHAT CAME UP IN MY SPIRIT WAS DON'T AGREE WITH THE DEVIL. HE'S BREATHING OUT THREATS; HE'S USING PEOPLE TO PLANT SEEDS; HE'S DOING WHATEVER HE CAN TO GET US TO COME INTO AGREEMENT WITH HIM AND GIVE IN. TO GIVE HIM USE OF THE POWER GOD HAS GIVEN US; TO COMMIT SPIRITUAL SUICIDE. A WHILE BACK MY COUSIN TOLD ME ABOUT A DREAM SHE HAD ABOUT ME... SHE SAID WE WERE RUNNING AND SOMEONE WAS CHASING ME AND TRYING TO SERVE ME PAPERS; SHE SAID WE WERE RUNNING AND LAUGHING AT HIM BUT EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE I WOULD LOOK BACK LIKE I WAS GONNA TAKE THE PAPERS AND SHE WOULD SAY "GIRL DON'T TAKE THEM PAPERS". SO TODAY I SAY TO YOU "GIRL, BOY,... MAN, WOMAN OF GOD...DON'T TAKE THEM PAPERS." "DON'T ACCEPT WHAT MAN SAYS OVER GOD SAYS" DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO BUT DON'T COME INTO AGREEMENT WITH THE DEVIL.
Isaiah 53:1- 5
“Who hath believed our report? and to whom is the arm of the LORD revealed? For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him. He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not. Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted. But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.