God often answers by fire and although the fire is uncomfortably hot, it is by his grace and protection that we are not consumed. I have prayed and God has heard but most times the answer did not come as I imagined it would and sometimes I have felt that process was too much and the price was too costly. But a prayer prayed from the spirit that is aligned with God's word and desire is one that he will answer. I have been guilty of looking back. I have been guilty of thinking that when I was doing what I wanted to do things were better. I have been guilty of falling back into some of those things but not others and that was probably only because I felt grace depart in that area and I did not have the nerve to see what would happen if I proceeded to do it anyway. I feel like being honest. God knows already and he is my Lord. I think on his grace...on how I have been given warning and had to call to say "I'm staying home tonight". I think on the times I resented not being able to do what I wanted to do when God had my best interests in mind when he told me not to. This has been a lonely difficult process but Cannan is in view and God will be there when we get there so this is the time to make ourselves ready...how? you may ask...
2 Chronicles 7:14
"If my people, who are called by my name, shall humble themselves and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, forgive their sin, and heal their land."
Now is not the time to play sanctified and do and say the unthinkable in secret. The king is near and he knows and sees all. It is time to acknowledge our wrong and ask God for deliverance. I can be open and honest enough to say I need his help in some areas. We are at the threshold of our promise but know that it is on holy ground. I love you with the love of Christ.
