Revelation...revealed and uncovered

Today; my post comes from a place that is new to me. A place where God is speaking and revealing but doing so at a time I find strange. There were times that I felt like I had it together....not now. There were times that I felt I was close to God...not now. Yet God is still speaking...yet God is still revealing. God told me not long ago he needed what he had put in me....my response was a question... now? in this weak state? There were times that I prayed and saw physical manifestations in the physical realm...not now. Now I feel weak, now I feel alone...so why now? Perhaps because now God can truly get the glory. I never wanted the applause and a platform...I did want the approval and the affection of a few though; at this point even that doesn't matter. I just want to be in a place at the feet of God. God is coming for his talents. I don't know what is about to happen but I feel it will be something major and soon. Today I was on my way to the mall and I ran over a snake that had slithered onto the highway and it gave me a reason to pause...God is going to expose and deal with the enemies even those that were hidden. Yesterday I saw an accident...I had to leave out another way and I saw a homeless man with binoculars looking in the direction of the accident laughing so hard it was chilling when he saw me he stopped laughing...I thought to myself what is this? I keep seeing 1018. What does it all mean? I feel it shall soon be revealed.