A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO MY SON WAS ARRESTED. IT WAS THE DAY BEFORE I WAS SCHEDULED TO GO OUT OF TOWN TO BE ON A MINISTERIAL TEAM.I DID NOT UNDERSTAND IT BUT I NOW FEEL THAT THE DEVIL HAD PLANNED SOMETHING MORE SINISTER AND GOD IN HIS WISDOM PROTECTED HIM. MY MOM IS A CORRECTIONAL OFFICER AND SHE KNEW THE ARRESTING OFFICER SO THERE WAS AN OPPORTUNITY TO GET HIM OUT OF IT ALL BUT WHEN SHE CALLED I TOLD HER..."THIS IS THE SECOND TIME; THE FIRST TIME HE GOT OUT OF IT BECAUSE OF WHO I KNEW; HE NEEDS TO KNOW THAT THERE ARE CONSEQUENCES" AND WE DECIDED TO LET THINGS RUN THERE COURSE. BECAUSE IT WAS HIS FIRST OFFENSE HE WAS LET GO. I WANTED HIM TO BE PUT IN JUVENILE SO THAT HE COULD GRASP THE SERIOUSNESS OF HIS ACTIONS, SO WHEN HE WAS RELEASED I FOUND HIM A PROGRAM. HE HAS BEEN THERE FOR ABOUT TWO WEEKS. I PLAN ON GETTING HIM THE END OF THIS WEEK. I HAD PLANNED ON WAITING UNTIL I SAW A BREAKING BUT GOD TOLD ME IT WAS TIME. I WAS TALKING TO SOMEONE THIS PAST WEEKEND AND I TOLD HER THAT GOD HAD TOLD ME TO GO GET HIM AND AS SHE WAS SPEAKING I HEARD "GATHER THE CHILDREN". I DID NOT KNOW WHAT IT MEANT AT THE TIME; I TOLD HER WHAT I HAD HEARD AND SHE TOLD ME TO BEGIN TO PRAY AND STUDY WITH THEM AGAIN...I HAD TO ADMIT THAT I HAD STOPPED. THE ATTACKS HAD TAKEN SOMETHING OUT OF ME BUT I RECENTLY HEARD THE LORD SAY THE DEVIL WON'T SHUT YOU DOWN THIS TIME. TODAY WHILE AT WORK I GOT A TEXT FROM MY OLDEST SON; HE ASKED IF WE COULD TALK...I WAS ON MY WAY TO A CLIENT'S HOME WHEN I CALLED AND HEARD HIM CRYING ON THE OTHER LINE. I CALLED MY JOB AND TOLD THEM I NEEDED TO LEAVE AND WOULD BE OUT FOR THE REST OF THE DAY AND WENT TO PICK HIM UP. HE CRIED AND CRIED; I LISTENED AT FIRST AND THEN I TRIED TO TALK TO HIM BUT HE WOULDN'T BE CONSOLED. I BEGAN TO BE FRUSTRATED AND I TOLD HIM TO CALM DOWN. WHEN HE DID I BEGAN TO ASK QUESTIONS. HE SAID HE WAS UNHAPPY. I ASKED WHY, HE SAID HE DID NOT KNOW. I WAS DEALING WITH DEPRESSION AND BEING SUICIDAL BY THE TIME I WAS THIRTEEN SO I HAD THE ANSWER; IT WAS AND ALWAYS WILL BE JESUS. I STARTED ASKING THE QUESTIONS PRETTY EARLY...WHY AM I HERE? WHAT IN THE WORLD IS THE POINT OF IT ALL? AND THE ANSWER THEN IS WHAT IT IS TODAY...JESUS. I TOLD MY SON WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH CAN ALL BE FIXED WITH A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD...THE LOVE OF JESUS WILL FILL THE VOID; IT WILL FILL THE EMPTINESS; IT WILL SOOTHE THE PAIN AND WE ARE HERE TO SHOW PEOPLE JESUS; EVERYTHING ELSE IS A DISTRACTION AND NOTHING ELSE WILL WORK. AT TIMES TO DEAL WITH THE HURT I USED TEMPORARY FIXES LIKE SEX AND ALCOHOL (I'M GONNA TELL THE TRUTH; IF MORE PEOPLE DID INSTEAD OF POINTING OUT THE SIN OF OTHERS TO HIDE THEIR OWN, DELIVERANCE WOULD SPREAD ACROSS THE WORLD) BUT NOTHING WILL FIX IT EXCEPT JESUS. MY SON AND I TALKED ABOUT LIFE; WE TALKED ABOUT PURPOSE AND I TOLD HIM THE TIMES THAT I AM TRULY HAPPY ARE WHEN I AM IN THE PRESENCE OF THE LORD, WITTNESSING, OR WORKING AT CONFERENCES, BUT LIFE AT TIMES CAN GET SO CHAOTIC THAT IT SEEMS LIKE YOU DON'T HAVE TIME FOR WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT. I TALKED TO A FRIEND LAST NIGHT AND WE BEGAN TO TALK ABOUT THE DEVIL'S TACTICS AND ONE OF THE POINTS WE CAME TO WAS THAT IN THIS HOUR WHEN PEOPLE ARE EXPERIENCING BLOW AFTER BLOW IT IS IMPORTANT TO SHOW THEM LOVE; TO SHOW THEM JESUS. MY SON WAS ARRESTED DAYS AFTER I HAD GIVEN HIM MONEY TO SHOP...HE WAS ARRESTED WITH MONEY IN HIS POCKET AND I WAS VERY UPSET BUT THAT WON'T FIX IT; I MUST SHOW HIM LOVE; I MUST SHOW HIM JESUS. I AM NOT HIS GOD! BUT IF I SHOW HIM THE LOVE OF GOD HE WILL BE DRAWN TO HIM.
JEREMIAH 31
3 The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.
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