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TODAY MY MOM PRAYED FOR ME. I AM 35 YEARS OLD AND I DON'T THINK I HAVE EVER HEARD MY MOM PRAY. I HAVE BEEN HAVING PROBLEMS WITH ANXIETY. I  TAKE THE MEDICINE I WAS GIVEN AT NIGHT TO RELAX ENOUGH TO SLEEP. FOR A FEW DAYS NOW I HAVE BEEN CRYING AND CRYING. I HAD STUFFED SO MANY THINGS DOWN TRYING TO BE STRONG THAT IT HAD BECOME OVERWHELMING. GOD TOLD ME TODAY THAT THE DEVIL DIDN'T WANT ME TO KNOW HOW MUCH HE (GOD) LOVES ME. I THOUGHT ON THAT; ALL THE ATTACKS; ALL THE HURT WERE JUST SEEDS THAT GREW INTO FEAR; THAT EVENTUALLY BEGAN TO AFFECT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD BECAUSE THEY CAUSED ME TO QUESTION HOW HE FELT ABOUT ME. MY MOM HAS A HARD TIME SHOWING AFFECTION AND THE DEVIL REALLY USED THAT AGAINST ME DURING MY CHILDHOOD, AS I GOT OLDER I REALIZED THAT JUST ABOUT ALL THE WOMEN IN MY FAMILY HAVE A HARD TIME SHOWING AFFECTION AND JUST ABOUT EVERY WOMAN DOES NOT LIKE PEOPLE TO SEE THEM HURT...WE WANT TO BE STRONG. SOMETIMES YOU JUST AREN'T STRONG; SOMETIMES YOU NEED SUPPORT. I WATCHED MY MOM WATCHING ME AND I SAW THE LOVE IN HER EYES. I THEN THOUGHT ABOUT ALL THE TRICKS OF THE ENEMY TO DIVIDE. TO MAKE PEOPLE FEEL UNLOVED; UNWANTED, TO DIVIDE THEN CONQUER.  I THOUGHT ABOUT HOW WHEN YOU ARE IN RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE YOU CAN FEEL WHAT'S GOING ON WITH THEM, HOW GOD WILL TELL YOU TO PRAY FOR THEM ETC. BUT WHEN THERE HAS BEEN A BREACH FOR WHATEVER REASON YOU AREN'T THERE FOR THAT PERSON LIKE YOU NEED TO BE. GOD TOLD ME A WHILE AGO HE WAS SEPARATING THE WHEAT FROM THE TARE. I THINK HE MEANT LIGHT FROM DARK. THE BODY OF CHRIST IS THE BODY OF CHRIST.THE ENEMY HAS REALLY BEEN ATTACKING THE BODY; I PRAY THAT WE BAND TOGETHER.