UNITY

TODAY MY MOM PRAYED FOR ME. I AM 35 YEARS OLD AND I DON'T THINK I HAVE EVER HEARD MY MOM PRAY. I HAVE BEEN HAVING PROBLEMS WITH ANXIETY. I  TAKE THE MEDICINE I WAS GIVEN AT NIGHT TO RELAX ENOUGH TO SLEEP. FOR A FEW DAYS NOW I HAVE BEEN CRYING AND CRYING. I HAD STUFFED SO MANY THINGS DOWN TRYING TO BE STRONG THAT IT HAD BECOME OVERWHELMING. GOD TOLD ME TODAY THAT THE DEVIL DIDN'T WANT ME TO KNOW HOW MUCH HE (GOD) LOVES ME. I THOUGHT ON THAT; ALL THE ATTACKS; ALL THE HURT WERE JUST SEEDS THAT GREW INTO FEAR; THAT EVENTUALLY BEGAN TO AFFECT MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD BECAUSE THEY CAUSED ME TO QUESTION HOW HE FELT ABOUT ME. MY MOM HAS A HARD TIME SHOWING AFFECTION AND THE DEVIL REALLY USED THAT AGAINST ME DURING MY CHILDHOOD, AS I GOT OLDER I REALIZED THAT JUST ABOUT ALL THE WOMEN IN MY FAMILY HAVE A HARD TIME SHOWING AFFECTION AND JUST ABOUT EVERY WOMAN DOES NOT LIKE PEOPLE TO SEE THEM HURT...WE WANT TO BE STRONG. SOMETIMES YOU JUST AREN'T STRONG; SOMETIMES YOU NEED SUPPORT. I WATCHED MY MOM WATCHING ME AND I SAW THE LOVE IN HER EYES. I THEN THOUGHT ABOUT ALL THE TRICKS OF THE ENEMY TO DIVIDE. TO MAKE PEOPLE FEEL UNLOVED; UNWANTED, TO DIVIDE THEN CONQUER.  I THOUGHT ABOUT HOW WHEN YOU ARE IN RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE YOU CAN FEEL WHAT'S GOING ON WITH THEM, HOW GOD WILL TELL YOU TO PRAY FOR THEM ETC. BUT WHEN THERE HAS BEEN A BREACH FOR WHATEVER REASON YOU AREN'T THERE FOR THAT PERSON LIKE YOU NEED TO BE. GOD TOLD ME A WHILE AGO HE WAS SEPARATING THE WHEAT FROM THE TARE. I THINK HE MEANT LIGHT FROM DARK. THE BODY OF CHRIST IS THE BODY OF CHRIST.THE ENEMY HAS REALLY BEEN ATTACKING THE BODY; I PRAY THAT WE BAND TOGETHER.

TRUE REPENTANCE

I WATCHED A MOVIE LAST NIGHT ABOUT A GROUP OF YOUNG ADULTS PUTTING ON A YOUTH REVIVAL. A LOT OF THE YOUNG ADULTS WERE LEADING DOUBLE LIVES...BEING PART-TIME CHRISTIANS. I AM SETTLED ENOUGH IN MY MATURITY AS A PERSON AND A CHRISTIAN NOT TO DO ALOT OF THE THINGS THAT I USED TO DO BUT GOD TOLD ME I COULD NO LONGER DO ANY OF THE THINGS I USED TO DO, THAT I SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN DOING (LITTLE FOXES). GOD TALKED TO ME ABOUT HOW PEOPLE GET SO WRAPPED UP IN THIER LIVES THAT THEY FORGET THE REAL PURPOSE OF THIS LIFE...TO GATHER AS MANY SOULS THAT WE CAN TO BE SAVED. GOD ALSO TOLD ME THAT NOW WAS A TIME TO BE PRODUCTIVE EVEN THOUGH I FELT THAT I HAD BEEN IN A PLACE OF BARRENESS THAT I WAS IN A HURRY TO LEAVE.HE SAID THAT IN THIS PLACE I WOULD BE STRENGTHENED AND WHILE I AM HERE TO YIELD FRUIT,TO TEND TO MY GARDEN. I WENT TO THE WATER THIS MORNING AND IT BROUGHT ME TO A PLACE OF REPENTANCE. IF I HAD BEEN IN THE LORD AS I SHOULD HAVE I WOULD HAVE AVOIDED A LOT OF THE THINGS I AM DEALING WITH. I TOLD THE LORD HOW SORRY I WAS. I AM CHANGING MY FOCUS AND PLACING GOD FIRST AGAIN AS HE ALWAYS SHOULD HAVE BEEN.


Mark 12:30 KJV
And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment.

PSALM 18

19. HE BROUGHT ME FORTH ALSO INTO A LARGE PLACE; HE DELIVERED ME,BECAUSE HE DELIGHTED IN ME.

SEED TIME

GOD HAS REALLY BEEN DEALING WITH ME ABOUT SPENDING TIME WITH HIM. I HAVE HEARD THE TEACHING THAT YOU SHOULD SOW WHAT YOU WANT; AND HOW SINCE THERE ARE TWENTY FOUR HOURS IN THE DAY YOU SHOULD BE SEEDING AT LEAST TWO HOURS AND FOURTY MINUTES. HOW MANY PEOPLE REALLY DO THAT? DAILY LIFE CAN BE HECTIC, BUT IF A DAY GOES BY AND WE HAVEN'T DONE THE MOST IMPORTANT THING; WHAT DOES THAT SAY ABOUT HOW WE SPENT OUR DAY? I'M GOING TO MAKE A SINCERE EFFORT TO GIVE GOD A WORTHY SACRIFICE OF TIME.

Galatians 6:7 KJV
Be not deceived ; God is not mocked : for whatsoever a man soweth , that shall he also reap ,,,,

RECONNECTION

TODAY IN CHURCH I SAW A VISION OF TWO DAMS AND GOD SAID THAT HE IS CONNECTING THE WATERS. I HAVEN'T HAD A VISION IN A WHILE; I WAS IN A DRY PLACE BUT GOD TOLD ME THAT I HAD LET CIRCUMSTANCES AFFECT ME AND I BLOCKED HIM OUT. ISN'T THAT SOMETHING, HERE I AM SEEKING AND WANDERING WHY MY WORSHIP WASN'T THE SAME AND I HADN'T HAD VISIONS LIKE I NORMALY DO AND I HAD UNCONSCIOUSLY BLOCKED GOD ALMIGHTY OUT. I LET DOUBT CREEP IN AND IT AFFECTED MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD. GOD TOLD ME TODAY THAT HE WOULD LET NOTHING KEEP ME FROM HIM AGAIN; HALLELUJAH. I LOVE YOU LORD AND I NEED YOU TO SURVIVE.