Fish Out of Water

Various times in my life God would give me a sign that he was with me; that he heard me; that he loved me. One of those signs was a fish jumping out of water. So today as I sit looking out of my mother's window looking at the view my grandmother once loved I feel kind of torn. Fish after fish are jumping in the air but it kind of hurts. It kind of reminds me of a parent putting alcohol on a scrape; it makes it better but it still hurts and it reminds you that you are injured. My grandmother passed on Mother's Day...she was ready. I heard her say it. I wasn't ready. How can you say goodbye to someone that close to you? It was selfish to want her to stay. Her health was fading; she couldn't do the things she loved to do anymore; most of all she was very independent so when the time came that so many of the things we take for granted required assistance for her, it was very hard. I still wasn't ready. I still liked to call. I still liked to come to her house and see her; it was so comforting to me. It made me feel safe. It made me feel secure. So as I sit and look out at the water and continue to see the fish jump part of me is happy because I know it is well with her; the other part shrinks back from the fact that someone so very special to me is gone. A week or two before my grandmother passed a group that I am involved with gave me a list to pick ten questions to answer from as a way to get to know me and others better. One of the questions I chose: "If you could eat dinner with anyone dead or living who would it be?" My answer...My father (deceased);My cousin (deceased); My grandmother's best friend(deceased); and my grandmother (living). I thought of the joy she would feel to see my cousin, and her best friend (she may have been alright seeing my father too...lol). I take comfort in knowing that she is having her dinner party and not only did the guest list include those I chose but it also included her husband, her mother, her father, her sister, her brother, her godmother, her uncle and others gone before her. Even in loss God is faithful; that won't change.

Finish the work...there is an expected end.

Today my mom called to tell me that my grandmother was back in the hospital. I felt an urgency to plant something. I decided on sunflowers and then I remembered I had blogged and posted a picture of  some sunflowers I had grown before. I looked back and found the post. May 12th of 2011 I had blogged about my grandmother being in the hospital and on May 16th I had posted a picture of the sunflowers I had planted. I can't explain what is going on right now in my life. I have been given some instructions and I know that my obedience will determine some key elements in the outcome of my future. I know that I must finish; no matter how tired; no matter what is going on around me. I must complete the work.

Lift up your head...hope thou in God

I don't know and I don't need to know. I will share with you what I do know...God's thoughts toward you are good and not evil; you have an expected end. I don't care what it looks like. I don't care how it may seem. God can walk you through anything. I speak life over you. I decree and declare your hope will be restored. Hope in God...in God. I decree and declare you are hidden in Christ Jesus. Be encouraged in the Lord today he is worthy and faithful to carry out his promises.


 PSALM 24

A Psalm of David.

1The earth is the Lord's, and the fullness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein.

2For he hath founded it upon the seas, and established it upon the floods.

3Who shall ascend into the hill of the Lord? or who shall stand in his holy place?

4He that hath clean hands, and a pure heart; who hath not lifted up his soul unto vanity, nor sworn deceitfully.

5He shall receive the blessing from the Lord, and righteousness from the God of his salvation.

6This is the generation of them that seek him, that seek thy face, O Jacob. Selah.

7Lift up your heads, O ye gates; and be ye lift up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in.

8Who is this King of glory? The Lord strong and mighty, the Lord mighty in battle.

9Lift up your heads, O ye gates; even lift them up, ye everlasting doors; and the King of glory shall come in.

10Who is this King of glory? The Lord of hosts, he is the King of glory. Selah.

PSALM 42
1 As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God.
² My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall I come and appear before God?
³ My tears have been my meat day and night, while they continually say unto me, Where is thy God?
⁴ When I remember these things, I pour out my soul in me: for I had gone with the multitude, I went with them to the house of God, with the voice of joy and praise, with a multitude that kept holyday.
⁵ Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted in me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance.
⁶ O my God, my soul is cast down within me: therefore will I remember thee from the land of Jordan, and of the Hermonites, from the hill Mizar.
⁷ Deep calleth unto deep at the noise of thy waterspouts: all thy waves and thy billows are gone over me.
⁸ Yet the Lord will command his lovingkindness in the day time, and in the night his song shall be with me, and my prayer unto the God of my life.
⁹ I will say unto God my rock, Why hast thou forgotten me? why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?
¹⁰ As with a sword in my bones, mine enemies reproach me; while they say daily unto me, Where is thy God?
¹¹ Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.            




#NO WORRIES
         

It is good to remember!

For about three days I have been thinking about my grandmother's Easter Lily's. Yesterday I felt an urgency to take them out of the back yard and move them to the front yard. This morning I noticed that the blooms that had began to open up had opened all the way. It was beautiful to see. I went to a funeral a while back. It was the funeral of someone very close to my family. My grandmother and her had been friends for many years and she was the mother in law of my cousin.It was so sad....God knew! The Pastor of the church that was speaking at the funeral was very, very old...he rolled up to the pulpit and started preaching very, very slowly  "Its good to remember" "While you have the full activity of your limbs, while you have a full head of hair, while you have all your teeth" I had to put my head down because I had started laughing. From tears to laughter. So today on Resurrection Sunday.. remember, remember God's sacrifice, remember his goodness, remember those in your life that you love. It is good to remember.

Amazing Grace

I took my children out to eat tonight. My son dropped his drink and then while he was trying to pick his drink up he dropped his entire plate. I looked at the situation before us in horror and ended up dropping my drink. I wanted to scream from the embarrassment of it all. After everything was cleaned up my children politely sat down and started to eat. My son wanted to make sure his jell-o was replaced and my daughter wanted ketchup. They sat down and ate as if nothing happened. I had eaten earlier so I just got something to go for my older son. I sat and looked at my children and I was awestruck...what a perfect example of grace. Not the "shall I sin so that grace may abound" grace but the grace God freely gives us when we make a mistake.  This weekend is Easter....I thank God for the cross. I thank God that he sees the best in me and I thank God for grace. We get burdened down with shame and guilt but God knew all about our shortcomings and planned ahead of time and gave us the cross. I love you with the love of Christ. Happy Easter.

                                                 


I went to the Stellar Awards in Vegas this past Saturday. It was a much needed trip. I took away so much. I am learning to look for the lesson or message in the events of my life. I can't put into words nor have I figured out the need to change your surroundings sometimes. When leaving the city or state that you live in could it be coming from under the principalities over that area gives you the opportunity to receive without interference...I don't know. What I do know is I have received clarity and direction each time I have went on vacation when I felt led to go on one. Going to the Stellar Awards led me to two conclusions; one I miss fellowship with my brothers and sisters in Christ (I currently do not have a church home) and the second is I am a black and white type person; I don't care for blurred lines! and that's all I'm gonna say about that. Being there reignited something in me. I am seeking God again. I really don't care what I must do to get to him. I don't mean a quick prayer; I mean I want t bask in his (Jesus') presence again. I want to dwell with him. My friend and I said that we were going to start traveling; for me it seems necessary. I think I need to remove myself from everything sometimes. I love you with the love of Christ. Be fruitful, Multiply, and have dominion.

AMOS 9

13 Behold,the days come, saith the LORD, that the plowman shall overtake the reaper, and the treader of grapes him that soweth seed; and the mountains shall drop sweet wine, and all the hills shall melt.

References for Amos 9:13

• Footnotes

•  9:13 - soweth: Heb. draweth forth

14 And I will bring again  the captivity of my people of Israel, and they shall build  the waste  cities, and inhabit them; and they shall plant  vineyards, and drink the wine thereof; they shall also make gardens, and eat the fruit of them.

15 And I will plant  them upon their land, and they shall no more be pulled up out of their land which I have given them, saith the LORD thy God.

WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF WE GOT ON ONE ACCORD?

                                                      UNSHAKEABLE

THE POEM I POSTED THIS PAST MONDAY I ORIGIONALLY POSTED IN 2011. WHEN I FOUND THIS SONG I FOUGHT BACK TEARS. I REMEMBER SHORTLY AFTER WRITING THE POEM HOW SOMEONE IN CHURCH PROPHESIED ABOUT GOD'S LOVE BEING UNSHAKEABLE. I SOBBED UNCONTROLLABLY...GOD WAS TELLING ME THROUGH HIS VESSEL THAT HE LOVED ME TOO AND HE ALWAYS WOULD. I MARVEL SOMETIMES ON HOW THE BODY OF CHRIST CAN BE ON DIFFERENT ENDS OF THE WORLD PREACHING; TEACHING; OR SINGING THE SAME MESSAGE.WHAT WOULD  HAPPEN IF WE GOT ON ONE ACCORD FOR REAL? WHAT IF WE SAID NOTHING WILL DIVIDE US  AND MEANT IT AND THEN CAME TOGETHER WITH PURPOSE...I WANT TO SEE.

Connected by C.L.P

Emerald eyes of Jealousy
Scale the vision of Reality
Causing us both not to See
That He that dwells in You
Does dwell in Me
Words that we should have used to Edify
We exchanged and Prophesied
Against each other but our Spirits Recognize
That We are Connected
The Communion that our Spirits Drink
Make us closer than We Think
We Are Connected
Creation is Groaning Moaning and Dying
Instead of Uniting
We look past the tears in each others eyes
And Continue to Divide the Body of Christ
We are Connected
The Enemy Loves the Confusion
That Causes the Body Internal Injury and Contusions
Together We Could Bruise Him!
We Are Connected
The true irony
Is my breakthrough could be in you
And yours in me
We affect each others Destiny
We Are Connected
Its time We chose to Unify
And become the Bride of Christ
We Are Connected
We are too busy being trapped behind the smoke screen
To understand what love your neighbor as you love yourself
Truly Means
We Are Connected
How Long
How Long Oh Lord
Until we are perfected
How long will the body be divided into sects
In Unity there is protection
But the body is plagued by the Infection
Of division
If we could turn from our wicked ways
And on one accord offer up
Perfected Praise
The glory of God's
Latter Rain would Bathe
The Bride of Christ Spotless
And make her worthy of his name
We Are Connected 

Unshakeable

I love you with an unshakable love
Though the wind is roaring
Though the storm is raging
My Love for you remains unchanged
My love for you is unshakable
Though my heart is aching
And hope seems to be fading
My love for you remains
It is unshakable
Past my tears
I smile at your beauty
Marveling at myself
My eyes take in the hell
Surrounding me
Frustration and Temptation
Dance in the twilight
Daring to overtake me
And if the quake should overtake me
If the trial should break me
In the pile unscathed
My love would remain unchanged
Past my reasoning
With my being
I love you Lord
Past my mind
Throughout Time
I love you Lord
Though I fall
If I must crawl
I will get to you love
My love is unshakable
Unbreakable
I need you Lord
How I long for a time
When chaos stops
And your hand is in mine
and we dance to the melody of my heart
My heart sings a song to yours
And your praises it pours and pours
I Love you Lord
Hope though fading endures
It only takes a grain
I am Yours
My Love is unshakable

THE RACE

I CAME ACROSS AN OLD NOTEBOOK TONIGHT. IT WAS A NOTEBOOK I HAD STARTED TO RECORD THE THINGS I HEAR DURING FASTS. THAT ALMOST SOUNDS FOREIGN TO ME. I HAVE NOT BEEN ON A FAST IN A WHILE.ON THE COVER OF THE NOTEBOOK I HAD PUT A PICTURE OF A WOMAN CROUCHING DOWN GETTING READY TO START A RACE. AS I LOOKED AT THE COVER I HEARD "YOU STARTED WELL"...I FOUND GALATIONS 5:7 THAT SAID YOU DID RUN WELL...I HAVE BEEN SO DISTRACTED WITH THINGS GOING ON IN MY LIFE THAT I REALLY HAVEN'T TAKEN THE TIME TO SEE WHAT GOD WOULD HAVE ME TO DO; I DO THINGS HERE AND THERE BUT I HAVE NOT BEEN AS DEVOTED AS I SHOULD. I HAVE REALLY BEEN THINKING ABOUT TIME LATELY. I HAVE BEEN PRAYING FOR GOD TO FREE UP MY TIME AND HE HAS TOLD ME HE WOULD. I HAVE BEEN WANDERING WHERE I AM SUPPOSE TO BE; I HAVEN'T REALLY PRAYED LIKE I SHOULD ABOUT IT BUT I WILL. I KNOW THAT I AM VERY CLOSE TO SOMETHING AND THAT SOMETHING MAY BE THE ANSWER BUT EVERYTHING IN ME WANTS TO DO SOMETHING TO TRY TO MAKE IT COME FASTER WHICH WOULD PROBALLY RESULT IN WHAT I WANT AND NOT WHAT GOD PLANNED.  I KNOW THIS IS A TIME THAT I NEED TO FOLLOW INSTRUCTIONS AS THEY ARE GIVEN AND THEN BE STILL BUT I MUST SAY IT IS A CHALLENGE. I AM DETERMINED; WHETHER IT IS HARD OR NOT TO DO THE THINGS I KNOW TO DO AND TO WAIT ON GOD FOR FUTHER INSTRUCTION.


GALATIONS 5:7You did run well; who did hinder you that you should not obey the truth?

EVEN SO COME LORD JESUS COME...DWELL!

STAND IN THE HOLY PLACE

Merry Christmas!

I DON'T AGREE

EARLIER THIS YEAR I WENT TO A CHURCH IN A NEIGHBORING CITY, AFTER THE SERVICE I TOLD THE PERSON I HAD GONE WITH THAT IN 2014 I AM GOING TO ALIGN MYSELF WITH PEOPLE WHO ARE FOR ME AND PEOPLE WHO GIVE ME WHAT I GIVE THEM. TOO MANY TIMES IN MY PAST I HAVE FOUGHT TO WIN PEOPLE OVER THAT IN ALL HONESTY DIDN'T LIKE ME OR WEREN'T FOR ME. THE PROCLAMATION I MADE THAT DAY IS COMING TRUE IN THE LAST MONTHS OF THIS YEAR. GOD HAS PLACED PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THAT ALWAYS THINK OF ME; THAT CALL; COME TO MY AID; AND EDIFY ME...FOR WHATEVER REASON THOSE AREN'T THE PEOPLE I GENERALLY GRAVITATE TOWARD. YESTERDAY I HAD TASK AFTER TASK THAT I NEEDED TO DO RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD AND THEN SOMEONE CALLED. THE PERSON ON THE OTHER END OF THE PHONE ASKED WHAT I WAS DOING AND WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT IT I READ HER THE LIST IN MY MIND; HER REACTION WAS TO COMPLETE ONE OF THE TASKS ON MY LIST. THIS ACT OF KINDNESS FREED UP ABOUT AN HOUR AND A HALF OF MY TIME. I THOUGHT ON THINGS THAT I COULD DO AND I HEARD THE SPIRIT OF THE LORD TELL ME TO STOP; GOD DID NOT WANT ME TO USE THE EXTRA TIME LIKE THAT. I ENDED UP GOING BY THE WATER AND READING AND I STARTED READING A BOOK I HAD FOR YEARS AND HAD NOT READ. I HAVE READ OTHER BOOKS BUT SOMEHOW I KNEW THIS WAS THE TIME I NEEDED TO READ THIS ONE. THE BOOK TALKED ABOUT REACHING YOUR DESTINY AND AFTER I READ A LITTLE I THOUGHT ABOUT MY DESTINY. I THOUGHT OF THE ROAD BLOCKS AND OBSTACLES AND I THOUGHT OF THE THINGS THAT SHOULD HAVE WORKED OUT AND DIDN'T AND THEN I CAME TO A REVELATION THAT I HAVE HAD BEFORE. A LOT OF THE THINGS THAT SHOULD HAVE WORKED OUT DID NOT WORK OUT BECAUSE OF THE WORDS SPOKEN AGAINST ME. I THOUGHT ON ALL OF THE PEOPLE THAT HAD SOWN NEGATIVE SEEDS IN MY LIFE. I THOUGHT ON HOW I ALLOWED AND ACCEPTED IT AND I MADE ANOTHER PROCLAMATION...NO MORE. GOD HAS PLACED PEOPLE AROUND ME WHO BELIEVE IN ME; WHO WILL TELL ME THE TRUTH IN LOVE. THERE IS A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN SOMEONE THAT TELLS YOU SOMETHING THAT WILL MOVE YOU TO CHANGE AND SOMEONE THAT BEATS YOU DOWN WITH THEIR WORDS...CONVICTION VERSES CONDEMANTION. I THOUGHT ON AN SITUATION THAT I FOUND MYSELF IN WHERE THE PERSON I WAS TALKING TO REHERSED NEGATIVE POINT AFTER POINT AND I COULD TELL THEY WANTED ME TO AGREE  AND I  DIDN'T AGREE ,SO I FINALLY SAID "THIS IS WHAT I SEE...THIS IS WHAT I THINK....NOW CAN WE MOVE ON TO A SOLUTION." I UNDERSTAND THE NEED TO BE FIRM AND ADDRESS SITUATIONS WHEN NEEDED BUT IF YOU THINK OVER RELATIONSHIPS IN YOUR LIFE AND FIND THAT SOMEONE IS FAR MORE NEGATIVE THAN POSITIVE REGARDING YOU AND WHAT THEY THINK ABOUT YOU IT MAY BE TIME TO REEVALUATE THAT RELATIONSHIP AND SURROUND YOURSELF WITH PEOPLE WHO THINK WELL OF YOU AND FOREMOST MAKE SURE YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST IS WHERE IT SHOULD BE AND BELIEVE WHAT HE SAYS ABOUT YOU.

Amos 3:3 KJV 

Can two walk together, except they be agreed ?

 

I WON'T BE STOPPED.

Last week God led me to go by the water. While I was there he began to talk to me about the natural and spirit realm. God began to talk to me about how people separated the two but how they were really seamless. He began to talk to me about sickness. My calling is in the deliverance ministry. I am sad to say I am not operating in what level of anointing I should be operating in. It  seems as if every time God is revealing his mysteries or I am walking with him as I should there is a setback of some sort; an attack; a hurt; an injury that derails me. While I was sitting by the water God began to talk to me about the connection between the spirit and body. He began to reveal how when the body is deficient in certain vitamins and minerals disease enters in and how when the body is healthy and fortified and there is a surplus of vitamins and minerals disease can't enter. I am reminded about certain principles like how creatures of the night don't like to come out in the day or how certain insects and rodents don't dwell in clean environments. Likewise if our body is clean and healthy it can ward off disease. I know that God wanted to go more in depth with these principles but I became distracted. I thought on today about the attacks...the attacks on worship; the attacks on faith; the attacks against unity in the body of Christ and how the devil will do absolutely anything to keep us from operating in the gifting and calling that God has called us to operate in because if we do we can snatch souls out of the hell they are in and introduce them to Christ and the devil loses his hold on that person. I thought about how many times I had allowed myself to be derailed. How I let some attack cause me to draw back. I am determined to seek God for my greatest deliverance...my deliverance from people; the need to be accepted and loved by them that dates back from insecurities that entered in during my childhood. I am loved by God and accepted in the heavenlies; he has called me to do great things on his behalf; he has told me his mysteries since I was a child; why? I don't know; I don't feel worthy or deserving but maybe that's just it. So many people become puffed up and prideful thinking that they or who they approve of are the only ones used by God but God will use who he chooses to use. In these last days our focus should be on souls. I am determined to be who God has called me to be. When I experience a disappointment I will worship him for my breakthrough and when I am attacked through a person I will go out of my way to show someone the love of God. I won't stop; I won't quit...I will have what God says I will have; I will be who he says I am; I will be an instrument that he uses to change the world...Let us change the world.
Isaiah 61
1 The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted , to proclaim liberty to the captives , and the opening of the prison to them that are bound ; 2 To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn; 3 To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified . 4 And they shall build the old wastes, they shall raise up the former desolations , and they shall repair the waste cities, the desolations of many generations. 5 And strangers shall stand and feed your flocks, and the sons of the alien shall be your plowmen and your vinedressers. 6 But ye shall be named the Priests of the LORD: men shall call you the Ministers of our God: ye shall eat the riches of the Gentiles, and in their glory shall ye boast yourselves. 7 For your shame ye shall have double; and for confusion they shall rejoice in their portion: therefore in their land they shall possess the double: everlasting joy shall be unto them. 8 For I the LORD love judgment, I hate robbery for burnt offering; and I will direct their work in truth, and I will make an everlasting covenant with them. 9 And their seed shall be known among the Gentiles, and their offspring among the people: all that see them shall acknowledge them, that they are the seed which the LORD hath blessed . 10 I will greatly rejoice in the LORD, my soul shall be joyful in my God; for he hath clothed me with the garments of salvation, he hath covered me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decketh himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorneth herself with her jewels. 11 For as the earth bringeth forth her bud, and as the garden causeth the things that are sown in it to spring forth ; so the Lord GOD will cause righteousness and praise to spring forth before all the nations.   

Distractions

Today I went to prayer and the speaker began to talk about distractions and how the devil will use subtle things to steal your attention and cause you to miss something God has for you. While she was speaking a dream I had years ago came to me. In the dream I was in a store and a woman walked up to me and started to prophesy she carried such an anointing that I was frozen; taking in every word. Out of no where a woman walked up and started a random conversation; normally I would listen, trying not to hurt someone's feeling but somehow I knew that her purpose was to keep this woman from telling me what I needed to hear. I told the person that had interrupted the prophesy that she was a distraction and I would not let her keep me from getting what God had for me. The lady who had interrupted us began to manifest (demonically) and the devil was exposed. In this season don't be fooled out of your destiny; pray and watch!

Matthew 26:41
Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak

An Expected End...God is Faithful

I saw another rainbow today and I thought about God's promises. My co-workers and I got into a conversation today about people knowing when they were going to pass. I told them about the experience with my father; finding him with his arms folded and his burial clothes laid out on the bed in the next room. I told her how I had asked God a hard thing; I had asked him for the salvation of my family and how God told me that he would do it for me even if it was just the space to repent. God is so very faithful. It is human nature to not want to feel like you have no control so when God puts you in a situation that you can't do anything it is sometimes difficult to handle but if we stop and think we have to admit God's goodness...we have to admit his faithfulness. God is faithful and that won't change.

The Gift

Some months ago I had a dream about a co-worker of mine. In the dream she was asking someone that was pregnant "what are you going to do with this gift that God gave you?" I  was torn about telling her the dream even though I knew that I should. Before I left the house to head to work my co-worker called. My co-worker and I don't talk outside of work a lot so I knew that her calling that morning wasn't a coincidence. I told her the dream and she never said anything. I had forgotten about it until yesterday. She came to my office and said "I have something I want to tell you when you have a minute." I told her to tell me. "Remember that dream about me you told me about" she said; well when I went out of town I went to visit a friend's house and her young daughter was pregnant and she began to tell me about the pregnancy, saying that her daughter had gotten herself into trouble by getting pregnant and I felt the Lord say "this is the person the dream was for" she said she began to tell the parent about the dream and then asked the parent and daughter "what are you going to do with this gift?" she said they both began to weep. My co-worker then told me that her friend had called the other day and told her that person after person had told her daughter that the child was a wonderful gift and some even asked "what are you going to do with this gift?" My co-worker then said "thank you for telling me...you have seeds all the way in Virginia that are coming up." Hallelujah for harvest. I praise God for the news getting back to me. Sometimes when you don't see results doubt creeps in but there is no need to doubt; God is faithful, and there is and expected end.

Jeremiah 29:11 KJV

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

FLOODING

Last night I dreamed twice about water...in one dream I was at a college and I tried to get to my car to leave because I knew that soon a tide of water would be rushing through the campus...in the other dream I was taking a little boy home and he lived at an absolutely beautiful house on the water; I opened the French doors to the balcony to look out at the water and as soon as I opened them a wave of water rushed through the French doors. The dreams may have been symbolic of my week! but I'm still standing!


ISAIAH 59
1 Behold, the LORD'S hand is not shortened , that it cannot save ; neither his ear heavy , that it cannot hear : 2 But your iniquities have separated between you and your God, and your sins have hid his face from you, that he will not hear . 3 For your hands are defiled with blood, and your fingers with iniquity; your lips have spoken lies, your tongue hath muttered perverseness. 4 None calleth for justice, nor any pleadeth for truth: they trust in vanity, and speak lies; they conceive mischief, and bring forth iniquity. 5 They hatch cockatrice' eggs, and weave the spider's web: he that eateth of their eggs dieth , and that which is crushed breaketh out into a viper. 6 Their webs shall not become garments, neither shall they cover themselves with their works: their works are works of iniquity, and the act of violence is in their hands. 7 Their feet run to evil, and they make haste to shed innocent blood: their thoughts are thoughts of iniquity; wasting and destruction are in their paths. 8 The way of peace they know not; and there is no judgment in their goings: they have made them crooked paths: whosoever goeth therein shall not know peace. 9 Therefore is judgment far from us, neither doth justice overtake us: we wait for light, but behold obscurity; for brightness, but we walk in darkness. 10 We grope for the wall like the blind, and we grope as if we had no eyes: we stumble at noonday as in the night; we are in desolate places as dead men. 11 We roar all like bears, and mourn sore like doves: we look for judgment, but there is none; for salvation, but it is far off from us. 12 For our transgressions are multiplied before thee, and our sins testify against us: for our transgressions are with us; and as for our iniquities, we know them; 13 In transgressing and lying against the LORD, and departing away from our God, speaking oppression and revolt, conceiving and uttering from the heart words of falsehood. 14 And judgment is turned away backward, and justice standeth afar off: for truth is fallen in the street, and equity cannot enter . 15 Yea, truth faileth ; and he that departeth from evil maketh himself a prey : and the LORD saw it, and it displeased him that there was no judgment. 16 And he saw that there was no man, and wondered that there was no intercessor : therefore his arm brought salvation unto him; and his righteousness, it sustained him. 17 For he put on righteousness as a breastplate, and an helmet of salvation upon his head; and he put on the garments of vengeance for clothing, and was clad with zeal as a cloke. 18 According to their deeds, accordingly he will repay , fury to his adversaries, recompence to his enemies ; to the islands he will repay recompence. 19 So shall they fear the name of the LORD from the west, and his glory from the rising of the sun. When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the LORD shall lift up a standard against him. 20 And the Redeemer shall come to Zion, and unto them that turn from transgression in Jacob, saith the LORD. 21 As for me, this is my covenant with them, saith the LORD; My spirit that is upon thee, and my words which I have put in thy mouth, shall not depart out of thy mouth, nor out of the mouth of thy seed, nor out of the mouth of thy seed's seed, saith the LORD, from henceforth and for ever.