FLOODING

Last night I dreamed twice about water...in one dream I was at a college and I tried to get to my car to leave because I knew that soon a tide of water would be rushing through the campus...in the other dream I was taking a little boy home and he lived at an absolutely beautiful house on the water; I opened the French doors to the balcony to look out at the water and as soon as I opened them a wave of water rushed through the French doors. The dreams may have been symbolic of my week! but I'm still standing!


ISAIAH 59
1 Behold, the LORD'S hand is not shortened , that it cannot save ; neither his ear heavy , that it cannot hear : 2 But your iniquities have separated between you and your God, and your sins have hid his face from you, that he will not hear . 3 For your hands are defiled with blood, and your fingers with iniquity; your lips have spoken lies, your tongue hath muttered perverseness. 4 None calleth for justice, nor any pleadeth for truth: they trust in vanity, and speak lies; they conceive mischief, and bring forth iniquity. 5 They hatch cockatrice' eggs, and weave the spider's web: he that eateth of their eggs dieth , and that which is crushed breaketh out into a viper. 6 Their webs shall not become garments, neither shall they cover themselves with their works: their works are works of iniquity, and the act of violence is in their hands. 7 Their feet run to evil, and they make haste to shed innocent blood: their thoughts are thoughts of iniquity; wasting and destruction are in their paths. 8 The way of peace they know not; and there is no judgment in their goings: they have made them crooked paths: whosoever goeth therein shall not know peace. 9 Therefore is judgment far from us, neither doth justice overtake us: we wait for light, but behold obscurity; for brightness, but we walk in darkness. 10 We grope for the wall like the blind, and we grope as if we had no eyes: we stumble at noonday as in the night; we are in desolate places as dead men. 11 We roar all like bears, and mourn sore like doves: we look for judgment, but there is none; for salvation, but it is far off from us. 12 For our transgressions are multiplied before thee, and our sins testify against us: for our transgressions are with us; and as for our iniquities, we know them; 13 In transgressing and lying against the LORD, and departing away from our God, speaking oppression and revolt, conceiving and uttering from the heart words of falsehood. 14 And judgment is turned away backward, and justice standeth afar off: for truth is fallen in the street, and equity cannot enter . 15 Yea, truth faileth ; and he that departeth from evil maketh himself a prey : and the LORD saw it, and it displeased him that there was no judgment. 16 And he saw that there was no man, and wondered that there was no intercessor : therefore his arm brought salvation unto him; and his righteousness, it sustained him. 17 For he put on righteousness as a breastplate, and an helmet of salvation upon his head; and he put on the garments of vengeance for clothing, and was clad with zeal as a cloke. 18 According to their deeds, accordingly he will repay , fury to his adversaries, recompence to his enemies ; to the islands he will repay recompence. 19 So shall they fear the name of the LORD from the west, and his glory from the rising of the sun. When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the LORD shall lift up a standard against him. 20 And the Redeemer shall come to Zion, and unto them that turn from transgression in Jacob, saith the LORD. 21 As for me, this is my covenant with them, saith the LORD; My spirit that is upon thee, and my words which I have put in thy mouth, shall not depart out of thy mouth, nor out of the mouth of thy seed, nor out of the mouth of thy seed's seed, saith the LORD, from henceforth and for ever.   

ARE YOU A CARROT EGG OR COFFEE BEAN?/TRIED BY FIRE

I would like to share a story that I heard today with you: A certain daughter complained to her father about her life and how things have been so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and she wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed that just as one problem was solved another arose.
Her father, a chef, took her to the kitchen, filled three pots with water and placed the fire on high. Soon the three pots came to a boil. In one he placed carrots, in the other he placed eggs, and the last he placed ground coffee beans. He let them sit and boil, without saying a word.
The daughter sucked her teeth and impatiently wondered what he was trying to do. She had problems, and he was making this strange concoction. In half an hour he walked over to the stove and turned down the fire. He pulled the carrots out and placed them in the bowl. He pulled the eggs out and placed them in the bowl. Then he ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.
Turning to her he asked. “Darling what do you see?
Smartly, she replied, “Carrots, eggs, and coffee.”
He brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. He then asked her to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg. Finally, he asked her to sip the coffee. Her face frowned from the strength of the coffee.
Humbly, she asked, “What does it mean Father?”
He explained. “Each of them faced the same adversity: 212 degrees of boiling water. However, each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. But after going through boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg was fragile. A thin outer shell protected a liquid center. But after sitting through the boiling water, it’s inside became hardened. The coffee beans are unique however. After they were in the boiling water, it became stronger and richer.
Which are you, he asked his daughter? When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?
Are you the carrot that seems hard, but with the smallest amount of pain, adversity, or heat you wilt and become soft with no strength?
Are you the egg, which starts off with a malleable heart, a fluid spirit, but after a death, a divorce, an accident you became hardened and stiff? Your shell looks the same, but internally you are so bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and heart.
Or, are you like the coffee bean? The bean does not get its peak flavor and robust until it reaches 212 degrees Fahrenheit. When the water gets the hottest, it just tastes better.
When things are their worst, you get better. When people talk the most, your praises increases. When the hour is the darkest, trials are there greatest, your worship elevates to another level. How do you handle adversity?
Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?

 Matthew 13
  3 And he spake many things unto them in parables, saying , Behold , a sower went forth to sow ; 4 And when he sowed , some seeds fell by the way side, and the fowls came and devoured them up : 5 Some fell upon stony places, where they had not much earth: and forthwith they sprung up , because they had no deepness of earth: 6 And when the sun was up , they were scorched ; and because they had no root, they withered away . 7 And some fell among thorns; and the thorns sprung up , and choked them: 8 But other fell into good ground, and brought forth fruit, some an hundredfold , some sixtyfold , some thirtyfold. 9 Who hath ears to hear , let him hear      

God Is Love

Psalm 8

4 What is man, that thou art mindful of him? and the son of man, that thou visitest him? 5 For thou hast made him a little lower than the angels, and hast crowned him with glory and honour. 6 Thou madest him to have dominion over the works of thy hands; thou hast put all things under his feet: 7 All sheep and oxen, yea, and the beasts of the field; 8 The fowl of the air, and the fish of the sea, and whatsoever passeth through the paths of the seas. 9 O LORD our Lord, how excellent is thy name in all the earth!   

Promise

Today in the sky was a beautiful rainbow...it didn't form an arch it was just painted across the sky. I wanted everyone that I know; especially my loved ones to see it. I tried to take a picture but it just didn't do it justice. Do you want to know something else odd? Today I rented Noah!

PURSUE PEACE...REST

THURSDAY NIGHT I HAD A DREAM AND IN IT SOME PEOPLE THAT I KNOW TOLD ME THAT SOMEONE WAS STUDYING SERENITY. THIS WEEK WAS A LONG WEEK FOR ME; THERE WAS SO MUCH GOING ON. TODAY AT THE CLOSE OF MY WORK WEEK I THOUGHT ABOUT THE DREAM...AND THOUGHT FINALLY...PEACE. I TOLD A FRIEND OF MINE THAT JUST THE KNOWLEDGE THAT TOMORROW I CAN RELAX AND DO WHAT I CHOOSE IS BEAUTIFUL. I PRAY THAT THE PEACE OF GOD THAT SURPASSES ALL UNDERSTANDING IS YOURS TODAY AND TOMORROW. I PRAY FOR STILLNESS IN YOUR LIFE. I PRAY FOR A SABBATH IN YOUR LIFE; A TIME OF REST. GOD BLESS YOU. I LOVE YOU WITH THE LOVE OF CHRIST.

PSALM 34
1 I will bless the LORD at all times: his praise shall continually be in my mouth. 2 My soul shall make her boast in the LORD: the humble shall hear thereof, and be glad . 3 O magnify the LORD with me, and let us exalt his name together. 4 I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. 5 They looked unto him, and were lightened : and their faces were not ashamed . 6 This poor man cried , and the LORD heard him, and saved him out of all his troubles. 7 The angel of the LORD encampeth round about them that fear him, and delivereth them. 8 O taste and see that the LORD is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in him. 9 O fear the LORD, ye his saints: for there is no want to them that fear him. 10 The young lions do lack , and suffer hunger : but they that seek the LORD shall not want any good thing. 11 Come , ye children, hearken unto me: I will teach you the fear of the LORD. 12 What man is he that desireth life, and loveth many days, that he may see good? 13 Keep thy tongue from evil, and thy lips from speaking guile. 14 Depart from evil, and do good; seek peace, and pursue it.            

Sabbath

I heard "Seventh Hour" today and I knew God wanted to tell me something. I heard Matthew Chapter 10 and as I read it what stuck out to me was
 Matthew 10:19
But when they shall deliver you up, take no thought how or what ye shall speak: for it shall be given you in that same hour what ye shall speak.
I knew that was a principle God wanted me to grasp but there was more so I began to search and I found a Jewish blog that talked about keeping the Sabbath. In the Western culture we generally go to church on Sunday and this is good but there is a deeper principle I feel like we have been missing.. a day of rest where we commune with and get to know God better; a day of impartation where we align ourselves to receive and we reverence God for being who he is. I am going to start observing the Sabbath...Matthew 11
             28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden , and I will give you rest . 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.   

Alpha and Omega

PROTECTED

YESTERDAY WHILE RIDING IN THE CAR A WASP FLEW INTO THE CAR AND STUNG ME ON THE BACK OF MY NECK. I HELD MY NECK IN PAIN AND NOTICED THE WASP ON THE FLOOR DYING. LATER ON I THOUGHT ABOUT IT AND I WAS LIKE WHAT ARE THE CHANCES? AND THEN GOD BEGAN TO SPEAK...WHEN YOUR ENEMIES ATTACK YOU THEY WILL BE HURTING THEMSELVES. WHAT A PAINFUL PARALLEL, BUT FOR IT TO BE SO EXTREME I KNOW THAT WHAT GOD IS DOING IS GOING TO HAPPEN QUICKLY.
ESTHER 7:
9 AND HARBONAH, ONE OF THE CHAMBERLAINS, SAID BEFORE THE KING, BEHOLD ALSO, THE GALLOWS FIFTY CUBITS HIGH, WHICH HA'MAN HAD MADE FOR MORDECAI WHO HAD SPOKEN GOOD FOR THE KING, STANDETH IN THE HOUSE OF HA'MAN. THEN THE KING SAID, HANG HIM THEREON.

I WANT TO SEE JESUS

A couple of days ago my daughter told me about a dream she had. In the dream she said we were flying in the clouds and anything we asked for we got; she said that I said "I want to see Jesus" and then I got to see him. I have been thinking about the dream since she told me just the thought of it is beautiful

Matthew 21:22 KJV

And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing , ye shall receive .

 

The Sceptor of Protection

I felt led to read the book of Ester. I have read it several times so I knew that this unction to read it again meant that I was to get a right now word from it. Isn't amazing how something that was written so long ago can be a parallel to what you are walking out in the present! What stood out this time was how that after the king had decreed it; it was going to happen; but when Ester sought mercy, her petition was heard and although the decree was going to be carried out another decree, a sort of amendment to the one the that had gone forth was created. Even though the weapon had been formed and had even launched God raised up the Jews for the time of battle and they were able to receive strength and stand. What was suppose to be their destruction was their deliverance. God is great and greatly to be praised!

Remove Every Weight

Someone told me a story about a girl on a track team; they said that the girl said there was one team that her team went against and could never beat and one day when the girl got an opportunity to talk to one of the members of the other team she asked what it was...(how they got so fast) and she said the girl said "our coach makes us practice with weights so when we run at the meet without the weights its like we are weightless, running on air". I believe we are fast approaching the season that God is going to remove the weight and we will be strong enough to finish! We will have the strength to do what seemed impossible.

Out of The Mouth of Babes

Kidnapped boy, 10, sang a gospel song for THREE HOURS during terrifying car ride until abductor got fed up and set him free

• Police say Willie Myrick was abducted by a man from his Atlanta, Georgia driveway, on March 31
• The suspect allegedly lured him with cash and then, when he was close enough, grabbed him and pulled him into his car
• But Willie's actions during that terrifying time probably saved his life
• Willie said he sang the gospel song 'Every Praise' repeatedly until the man told him to get out of the car
• On Thursday, the boy met the man who wrote the song, Grammy Award-winning gospel singer Hezekiah Walker
• The abductor is still on the loose

AN ABUNDANCE OF RAIN FOR THE JUST

THIS MORNING AS I GOT INTO MY CAR IT WAS RAINING LIGHTLY AND I HEARD GOD SAY "I RAIN ON THE JUST AND UNJUST" I SAID "YES, LORD"...THEN HE SAID "THERE IS AN ABUNDANCE OF RAIN FOR THE JUST". AS I GOT TO WORK AND THE RAIN BEGAN TO POUR I FELT JOY SPRING UP ON THE INSIDE OF ME. THERE ARE SOME WHO HAVE BEEN WAITING ON SEEDS TO SPRING UP. THE ENEMY WOULD TELL YOU THAT ITS SOMETHING YOU WERE DOING WRONG BUT I TELL YOU BY THE SPIRIT OF THE ONLY LIVING GOD THAT IT JUST WASN'T TIME IT WASN'T THE SEASON FOR IT YET. TODAY IS A NEW DAY AND THE BELIEVER IS ENTERING INTO A SEASON OF RESTORATION EVERYTHING THAT THE ENEMY ATTEMPTED TO DESTROY...YOUR FAITH, YOUR WORSHIP, YOUR COMPASSION, YOUR VERY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD IS BEING RESTORED AND IT WHEN IT RETURNS AND SPRINGS UP, THERE WILL BE INCREASE AND MULTIPLICATION. THE ENEMY DID NOT SUCCEED IN HIS ASSASSINATION ATTEMPT; HE MERELY PRUNED YOU AND AS YOU ARISE IN THE GLORY OF SPRING YOU WILL BE STRONGER AND BEAR MORE FRUIT. BE ENCOURAGED IN THE LORD TODAY; YOUR GREATER IS COMING; LOOK AGAIN,THE RAIN CLOUDS HAVE FORMED AND IT IS COMING TO PASS. I LOVE YOU WITH THE LOVE OF CHRIST JESUS.

MATTHEW 5:
43 Ye have heard that it hath been said , Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy. 44 But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; 45 That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust

False Prophet/Overcome by my testimony

BELOW IS A REPOST OF MY TESTIMONY. I POSTED IT YEARS AGO AND I FEEL THAT I SHOULD POST IT AGAIN. DECEPTION IS RAMPID! NOW LIKE NEVER BEFORE PEOPLE NEED A PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST. FORSAKE NOT THE ASSEMBLY OF THE BRETHREN BUT KNOW GOD FOR YOURSELF AND UNDERSTAND THAT IT IS YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH CHRIST THAT IS DETRIMENTAL...YOU CAN GO TO HIM DIRECTLY. OTHER THINGS THAT I LEFT OUT IN MY PREVIOUS TESTIMONY WERE THINGS LIKE THIS FALSE PROPHET WAS SLEEPING WITH HIS CHURCH MEMBERS; I HINTED BUT IT NEEDS TO BE EXPOSED...ADULTERY, FORNICATION, AND PERVERSION ARE NOT GODLY UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE. HE ALSO TOLD US WE WERE HIS ARMOR BEARERS AND IT WAS MERELY A WAY FOR HIM TO CONTROL US FUTHER. HE HAD A CEREMONY IN WHICH HE KNIGHTED US...HE HAD A SWORD AND WE KNELT BEFORE HIM AND HE PLACED IT ON OUR SHOULDERS MIMICKING A KNIGHTING CEREMONY. HE REFERRED TO HIMSELF AS KING A LOT WHICH IS WHY HE PROBALLY FELT THE NEED TO KNIGHT US. HIS VISON...ONE OF THEM WAS TO GET A ROUND TABLE AND HAVE KNIGHTS OF THE ROUND TABLE MEETINGS. HE CONTROLLED US BY FEAR. GOD CORRECTS; GOD WARNS; GOD EVEN CONVICTS OUR HEARTS TO CHANGE BUT GOD DOES NOT CONDEMN AND WE SHOULD NOT WALK AROUND TERRIFIED AND SLEEPLESS. GOD EDIFIES; HE EXORTS; HE UPLIFTS; SO IF YOU FIND YOURSELF BEATEN DOWN AND WOUNDED AND YOU ARE NOT FUNCTIONING AS GOD INTENDS YOU TO FUNCTION SEEK HIM IN THE MATTER AND ASK HIM THE REASON AND EXAMINE THE FRUIT...DID IT COMPEL ME TO CHANGE; DID IT CORRECT AND DRAW ME CLOSER TO GOD OR DID IT WOUND ME FURTHER AND DRAW ME FUTHER FROM HIM. I AM SEARCHING FOR GOD IN THIS HOUR; I AM CHASING AFTER HIM; I HAVE BEEN WOUNDED BUT I WILL CONTINUE TO SEEK HIM; MY GARMETS ARE STAINED BUT HE IS WELL ABLE TO PURGE AND PURIFY! I COULD GO ON BUT I WON'T. BE SURE YOU ARE RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD IN THIS HOUR. DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO GET TO A PLACE OF QUIET SO THAT YOU CAN HEAR HIS VOICE AND HE CAN LEAD YOU TO TRUTH....




When I was around nineteen I found myself being drawn to God again. My grandmother had a church and was the bishop so I grew up in the church. As a child I was really close to God, the Lord and I had a special relationship; at one point in my childhood my faith was so strong that if I prayed something and regretted praying for it later I would go back and say Lord please don't answer the prayer I prayed. I formed a relationship with God early and I would talk to him and have dreams and visions. Somewhere in there things changed and my teenage years were full of turmoil and chaos. When I turned nineteen I decided I wanted to turn my life around. I had made up my mind to give my life back to Christ; not long after that decision a friend of mine told me about a tent revival and asked if I wanted to come along. I had always been skeptical of tent revivals for some reason. I grew up in a holiness church so I was use to the move of God but I just didn't believe in people falling out and getting up out of wheelchairs. I went and when I saw the so called pastor lay hands on someone and them fall I laughed on the inside. I said to myself "now he knows he pushed them down". I watched in amusement until my friend went in line fell out and got up and told me it was real. I had been friends with her since middle school so I knew if she said it was real it was so I stood there in awe. He called me and when he layedhands on me and I fell out too. I became a follower that night. I would catch rides to the revival and once when I couldn't find a ride I walked. I had never seen anyone wield that much power. I said to myself this has to be a man of God to be able to do these things. One night God tried to send me a warning; I dreamed I was running and then I saw the pastor and thought I was safe; I ran to him and he licked my face. The next day that I went to the tent, he had the same suit on that he had worn in my dream. Instead of seeing the dream as a warning like it was I told him the dream and he said "the devil knows God is gonna bless you and he's trying to scare you away". I believed him and continued to go. He twisted the scripture to get people to do what he wanted and what he wanted was not always Godly. He left town and the only reason I did not follow him was because I was in school. I later left and followed him; I could not get my credits to transfer to the college I had began to attend so I ended up going back home and returning to my old school. I could not pass College Algebra for anything and I became angry with God; I said "Lord, I know this is you; why won't you let me pass the class so I can go back?" While at home God began to show me the truth about this man and this cult that he led. I could not see it for what it was until I was away from it. I know that some may say how didn't you know?" The bible says in Mark 13:22 For false Christs and false prophets shall rise and shall show you signs and wonders, to seduce,if it were possible the very elect. I had grown up in the church and never seen anyone move in such power. He performed signs and wonders; once while in church he was preaching about someone in the bible and how their shadow healed and he called someone up front for prayer and said I'm not going to do anything my shadow will do it, right after he said it, what I then thought was his shadow walked in front of the woman (I have the gift of sight) and she fell out. I know now that what I saw was a dark figure not a shadow. There are numerous other examples. He would change a scripture just a little to make it fit what he wanted it to. I did not know the bible as I should have. I could recognize different parts of the scripture but I did not know a lot of them by heart. I still was not free after leaving; this man was deep in his mess. I talked to someone who had left and was told even more horrors. Witchcraft is real but God can overcome all. After what felt like being haunted I met a pastor who was strong enough to cover me. The bible says in Revelation 12:11 And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death. I hope my testimony helps someone. If you are involved in a church and they are doing things that are against the word of God and trying to get you to participate i.e. fornication,lying,cheating etc.;If they are very secretive...the word of God is to be shared not hidden and whispered in secret; if you are encouraged to break ties with family and friends (I don't mean not going to events that are ungodly;I mean breaking relationships completely (unless God tells you to or tells you through someone else and then confirms it; and it probably won't be all your family and friends if he does);changes the scripture even just a little (not paraphrasing but, changing it to fit what they want it to fit); SEEK GOD; AND PRAY; IF GOD LETS YOU KNOW IT'S NOT RIGHT, ASK GOD TO LEAD YOU TO A PLACE YOU CAN RECEIVE COVERING (A MAN OR WOMAN OF GOD THAT CAN BREAK IT OFF YOU.

THE ANSWER IS JESUS

 A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO MY SON WAS ARRESTED. IT WAS THE DAY BEFORE I WAS SCHEDULED TO GO OUT OF TOWN TO BE ON A MINISTERIAL TEAM.I DID NOT UNDERSTAND IT BUT I NOW FEEL THAT THE DEVIL HAD PLANNED SOMETHING MORE SINISTER AND GOD IN HIS WISDOM PROTECTED HIM. MY MOM IS A CORRECTIONAL OFFICER AND SHE KNEW THE ARRESTING OFFICER SO THERE WAS AN OPPORTUNITY TO GET HIM OUT OF IT ALL BUT WHEN SHE CALLED I TOLD HER..."THIS IS THE SECOND TIME; THE FIRST TIME HE GOT OUT OF IT BECAUSE OF WHO I KNEW; HE NEEDS TO KNOW THAT THERE ARE CONSEQUENCES" AND WE DECIDED TO LET THINGS RUN THERE COURSE. BECAUSE IT WAS HIS FIRST OFFENSE HE WAS LET GO. I WANTED HIM TO BE PUT IN JUVENILE SO THAT HE COULD GRASP THE SERIOUSNESS OF HIS ACTIONS, SO WHEN HE WAS RELEASED I FOUND HIM A PROGRAM. HE HAS BEEN THERE FOR ABOUT TWO WEEKS. I PLAN ON GETTING HIM THE END OF THIS WEEK. I HAD PLANNED ON WAITING UNTIL I SAW A BREAKING BUT GOD TOLD ME IT WAS TIME. I WAS TALKING TO SOMEONE THIS PAST WEEKEND AND I TOLD HER THAT GOD HAD TOLD ME TO GO GET HIM AND AS SHE WAS SPEAKING I HEARD "GATHER THE CHILDREN".  I DID NOT KNOW WHAT IT MEANT AT THE TIME; I TOLD HER WHAT I HAD HEARD AND SHE TOLD ME TO BEGIN TO PRAY AND STUDY WITH THEM AGAIN...I HAD TO ADMIT THAT I HAD STOPPED. THE ATTACKS HAD TAKEN SOMETHING OUT OF ME BUT I RECENTLY HEARD THE LORD SAY THE DEVIL WON'T SHUT YOU DOWN THIS TIME. TODAY WHILE AT WORK I GOT A TEXT FROM MY OLDEST SON; HE ASKED IF WE COULD TALK...I WAS ON MY WAY TO A CLIENT'S HOME WHEN I CALLED AND HEARD HIM CRYING ON THE OTHER LINE. I CALLED MY JOB AND TOLD THEM I NEEDED TO LEAVE AND WOULD BE OUT FOR THE REST OF THE DAY AND WENT TO PICK HIM UP. HE CRIED AND CRIED; I LISTENED AT FIRST AND THEN I TRIED TO TALK TO HIM BUT HE WOULDN'T BE CONSOLED. I BEGAN TO BE FRUSTRATED AND I TOLD HIM TO CALM DOWN. WHEN HE DID I BEGAN TO ASK QUESTIONS. HE SAID HE WAS UNHAPPY. I ASKED WHY, HE SAID HE DID NOT KNOW. I WAS DEALING WITH DEPRESSION AND BEING SUICIDAL BY THE TIME I WAS THIRTEEN SO I HAD THE ANSWER; IT WAS AND ALWAYS WILL BE JESUS. I STARTED ASKING THE QUESTIONS PRETTY EARLY...WHY AM I HERE? WHAT IN THE WORLD IS THE POINT OF IT ALL? AND THE ANSWER THEN IS WHAT IT IS TODAY...JESUS. I TOLD MY SON WHAT YOU ARE GOING THROUGH CAN ALL BE FIXED WITH A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD...THE LOVE OF JESUS WILL FILL THE VOID; IT WILL FILL THE EMPTINESS; IT WILL SOOTHE THE PAIN AND WE ARE HERE TO SHOW PEOPLE JESUS; EVERYTHING ELSE IS A DISTRACTION AND NOTHING ELSE WILL WORK. AT TIMES TO DEAL WITH THE HURT I USED TEMPORARY FIXES LIKE SEX AND ALCOHOL (I'M GONNA TELL THE TRUTH; IF MORE PEOPLE DID INSTEAD OF POINTING OUT THE SIN OF OTHERS TO HIDE THEIR OWN, DELIVERANCE WOULD SPREAD ACROSS THE WORLD) BUT NOTHING WILL FIX IT EXCEPT JESUS. MY SON AND I TALKED ABOUT LIFE; WE TALKED ABOUT PURPOSE AND I TOLD HIM THE TIMES THAT I AM TRULY HAPPY ARE WHEN I AM IN THE PRESENCE OF THE LORD, WITTNESSING,  OR WORKING AT CONFERENCES, BUT LIFE AT TIMES CAN GET SO CHAOTIC THAT IT SEEMS LIKE YOU DON'T HAVE TIME FOR WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT. I TALKED TO A FRIEND LAST NIGHT AND WE BEGAN TO TALK ABOUT THE DEVIL'S TACTICS AND ONE OF THE POINTS WE CAME TO WAS THAT IN THIS HOUR WHEN PEOPLE ARE EXPERIENCING BLOW AFTER BLOW IT IS IMPORTANT TO SHOW THEM LOVE; TO SHOW THEM JESUS. MY SON WAS ARRESTED DAYS AFTER I HAD GIVEN HIM MONEY TO SHOP...HE WAS ARRESTED WITH MONEY IN HIS POCKET AND I WAS VERY UPSET BUT THAT WON'T FIX IT; I MUST SHOW HIM LOVE; I MUST SHOW HIM JESUS. I AM NOT HIS GOD! BUT IF I SHOW HIM THE LOVE OF GOD HE WILL BE DRAWN TO HIM.

JEREMIAH 31
             3 The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.

Winans - The Question Is

MY COUSIN WHO IS NOW DECEASED TOLD ME ABOUT A SONG THAT SHE HEARD WHEN SHE HAD JUST MISCARRIED. SHE SAID SHE WAS SITTING IN A CHAIR AND HAD BEEN SITTING THERE FOR HOURS WHEN THIS SONG PLAYED. SHE SAID WHEN SHE HEARD THE SONG SHE CAME TO HERSELF. I SEARCHED AND SEARCHED BUT SHE SAID THE TITLE WAS "THE ANSWER IS" YEARS LATER AFTER SHE  PASSED I FOUND IT.

AS FOR ME AND MY HOUSE...LEADING BY EXAMPLE

MY TEENAGER WAS GETTING INTO TROUBLE AND ONE DAY LAST WEEK I FOUND MYSELF TALKING TO A CO-WORKER OF MINE ABOUT IT AND I TOLD HER "TO BE HONEST I KNOW HE IS ACTING THIS WAY BECAUSE OF A DOOR I OPENED". SUNDAY IN CHURCH THE PASTOR SAID THAT CHILDREN ARE DOING WHAT THEY SEE YOU DO (PARAPHRASING). THEN MY COUSIN POSTED THE VIDEO THAT I AM SHARING WITH YOU IN THIS POST. GOD WAS CRYSTAL CLEAR ABOUT THIS...BE A GODLY, HOLY EXAMPLE FOR YOUR CHILDREN 

GENESIS 4

7 If thou doest well , shalt thou not be accepted? and if thou doest not well , sin lieth at the door. And unto thee shall be his desire, and thou shalt rule over him.   

JOSHUA 24

13 And I have given you a land for which ye did not labour , and cities which ye built not, and ye dwell in them; of the vineyards and oliveyards which ye planted not do ye eat . 

14 Now therefore fear the LORD, and serve him in sincerity and in truth: and put away the gods which your fathers served on the other side of the flood, and in Egypt; and serve ye the LORD. 

15 And if it seem evil unto you to serve the LORD, choose you this day whom ye will serve ; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell : but as for me and my house, we will serve the LORD

REST

I went out of town last weekend; it was a well needed rest. I almost immediately felt better. The hustle and bustle of my day to day routine was put on hold and my only task was to relax. We get so busy with being busy and forget to take time for the things that really matter. I had a dream while on my mini vacation and in it someone I know was saying they were tired; the dream was confirmed a day or two later. I dream and have visions but the worries of life have had me so boggled down that my gifting had become stagnant. I took off Monday and due to strange weather in my area schools were closed and my job closed too for Tuesday and Wednesday. I am young and I know a lot of young people don't think about time, but I am almost militant about my time. I took a class and we made a schedule about how we spent our time. The vast majority of my time was spent working; now I know that I must be productive but I was upset when I thought about how much time was spent at work. There has to be a better way. In the upcoming days I will be praying and fasting for direction; for God to show me an alternative way to get wealth. For me more control of my finance or more finances would mean more time. This unexpected time to me was a blessing...it was an opportunity to rest. Some young ladies that I know and I have agreed to set time aside every month to get away to do something; I feel this is a good start. I also sense the need to spend alone time with God; just me and him to be refilled, renewed and restored. I believe our personal relationship with God will be key in this season not just with lip service or left overs of our time but time that has been purposely set aside.





Matthew 11

28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden , and I will give you rest . 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

FRUITFUL

JOHN 15
1.  I am the true vine, and my Father is the husbandman. 2 Every branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away : and every branch that beareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit. 3 Now ye are clean through the word which I have spoken unto you. 4 Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me. 5 I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing . 6 If a man abide not in me, he is cast forth as a branch, and is withered ; and men gather them, and cast them into the fire, and they are burned . 7 If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will , and it shall be done unto you. 8 Herein is my Father glorified , that ye bear much fruit; so shall ye be my disciples. 9 As the Father hath loved me, so have I loved you: continue ye in my love. 10 If ye keep my commandments, ye shall abide in my love; even as I have kept my Father's commandments, and abide in his love. 11 These things have I spoken unto you, that my joy might remain in you, and that your joy might be full . 12 This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you. 13 Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. 14 Ye are my friends, if ye do whatsoever I command you. 15 Henceforth I call you not servants; for the servant knoweth not what his lord doeth : but I have called you friends; for all things that I have heard of my Father I have made known unto you. 16 Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen you, and ordained you, that ye should go and bring forth fruit, and that your fruit should remain : that whatsoever ye shall ask of the Father in my name, he may give it you. 17 These things I command you, that ye love one another. 18 If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you. 19 If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you. 20 Remember the word that I said unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept my saying, they will keep yours also. 21 But all these things will they do unto you for my name's sake, because they know not him that sent me. 22 If I had not come and spoken unto them, they had not had sin: but now they have no cloke for their sin. 23 He that hateth me hateth my Father also. 24 If I had not done among them the works which none other man did , they had not had sin: but now have they both seen and hated both me and my Father. 25 But this cometh to pass, that the word might be fulfilled that is written in their law , They hated me without a cause. 26 But when the Comforter is come , whom I will send unto you from the Father, even the Spirit of truth, which proceedeth from the Father, he shall testify of me: 27 And ye also shall bear witness , because ye have been with me from the beginning.   

JESUS!